A Walk of Love

Sorcerer.

2010-11-29T21:57:00.000-07:00

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It is true, You do live in both worlds. You do not any longer see the world the same as others. No on the path have many viewed what you do. You have been vigilant and very dedicated, beyond even your own reasoning you follow. You flow with the light as it is shown to you. The rainbow you ride have beyond time and space. The sky has been reached and no longer is a block. For in you eyes is the eye of Christ.

Still you have seen blocks in your understanding that has lifted you, but still blocks have yet to be removed. You are moving forward to vision even greater then light, and tones of the Christ. The world you See Now, is eve greater yet to come. The thrill of following becomes greater still. The happy learner becomes the Happy Learned. You will go from, both worlds to the One world You truly desire.

You know you still have desires of this world, even if they seem to be out of the box, in the thinking of the world. Your abilities and skills you wish to further improve, are of the worthiness of connecting with separated ones easier. You do wish to connect, but do not do so out of fear, but from the heart. The true giver of the heart has no story. The true giver of the heart has no talents and skills, it simply has the eternal giver of life flowing through it with no hinderance and continues to do so in word, deed and action.

You know of your hinderance that keep you to flow with the feelings you have. the keepers of the light have you held down in a bounded sword box. As you see it as true, you must compile to the boxes wishes, and be what you peal away to be. Seek not to peal away from the opportunity to brake free of what you see as uncomfortable. You desire freedom, so let go and live life. Life is waiting to be lived, and the trained lets life flow properly, fully as it self.

I understand you as the purpose, this life that is life giver. You are not a branch off the center, but that you are the center, branching. My Son I speak to you as thou you were there and I am here, Your mind filled with a question, and you honestly seeked an answer, I answered. I answer now, as if I was separate, yet simply because you believe you fell out of pure knowledge, as you excepted a question in your mind.

You have been told, you were a sorcerer. You thought of this as a different Idea then, as you understand now. I am joyful that you see how much you have come. Realized from you has been many. Welcome unto you is all. The light that fills you with this joy is the source you still work with, yet you still play, because you do still hold wishes beyond your colors and stars. I am here to show you your flame. Your star, with in your ideas is what has not simply egnighted, but burst in a flaring joyous turquoise sphere.

I come, when questions come. I go when Answers follow.

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Your Lesson is Done

2010-10-31T05:31:00.002-06:00

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What is my lesson today?

You have listened to me, for a long period of time. You no longer need a teacher in the form you ask of me. This was a course in mind training, you have trained your mind, not let it go. Healing is the purpose of the world. Healing is the act of forgiveness, the reason you time. Set apart not a time a day for me. You have given your whole day to the Father, and you desire this above all else. Your lesson is done, and practical application is now the use of it, that you own,

It is in the water that the fish swim, they have evolution to bring them out of the water, not tell then could they walk. Play out the healing story, and be the happy learner. That is all there needs to be. You have found that I speak less to you over time, for now you have less you need help with. The training, was training to heal. It could not be training to be healed.

Seek not to prove yourself, for it is I that will prove myself through you. I no longer bring you words, for you have come beyond them. I give you words when you ask for them. I know you all through the day, I know you hear. Your fruit was ripe, they come to pluck.

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A Stone in the River of life.

2010-08-07T15:49:00.007-06:00

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As a child my life as a member of the LDS faith was a very impactful and enjoyable experience. Over the years I heard a variety of stories and teachings from Jesus, and others of the faith and inspirational leaders. A story of a stone flowing in a river really left a mark in my life, and has continued to be whispered into my ear for comfort. As a stone would start out on the side of a river, as rough and jagged. It would then enter into the river and begin its life of being whipped around by the water. It would be smashed into bigger rocks, and edges. In and out of the mud, and rubbed by a variety of creatures. It would find a place of rest and feel comfort at times, but ultimately return to its life of a river stone. Continuing to be shaped and smoothed by the flow of life. Where even at points seems to be raging and others smooth and long. Yet always for-filling its destiny of becoming what it was meant to be, a smooth, polished stone in the ocean.

Over the years and especially the last two years, I have been near, and visited a variety of people. They all have unique and beautiful qualities. Most of them believe I have come to teach them. Yet I have come to be taught by them. I find spirit in my brothers and sisters as I join with them, and their Love teaches me a deeper aspect of the divine.
The experience of their precious purity of their hearts has brought me to be what I am today. As i look at my clothing and how I look now, I see all that I have visited in me. I have taken up new words, and acsents and even a new walk. Teachings and stories that have touched me, are past through me to the next. As if I am simply in a polishing process were I am being impacted, but always leaving a piece of me behind.

Soon I hope, I will realize I have been formed to the polished and beautiful stone I was meant to be. That I have made it through all the lessons and trials that God intended I learn, and pass with colors flighting so high. That it has never been my purpose to teach, nor decide what I would learn but to simply go with the flow of the life of a river. This is what I perceive as my purpose, to flow with the river of life, the wind as a bird, the sun as a flower, and the tears of heaven as a cloud.

The lessons pass as little journeys, of the ultimate path, of our return to divine union. To stand in strength agent the desires to resist, and to let go and let God flow me through my life. Some times I hit walls or stones that take a chip off of me that I will never forget, but I can only bless, and thank them for helping me become the Polished stone God wants me to be. I gladly be chipped, and leave that piece with them, for they were my angel leading me home.

I do not know what the river has in store, I could not know if it slows down or speeds up, tell I get there. The river knows, and I trust its flow, for it takes me home were the rivers are one.

So Thank You, everyone. If I know you, or just passing by. If I held you or kissed you, or a simple smile. If we talked and discussed, or had a fuss. Thank You, Thank You. I know you are a God sent for I preyed for angels and answers, and your shaping me to fit into the pearly gates. I could not do this with out you.
You were so willing, and for that I am grateful, it brings tears to my eyes for what you have taught me, if nothing but that which I need to find God in my life, You are my angel and you have done your Job. Thank You for your Love, Thank You for You.

If we meet again, I will be grateful. If we never touch again, I know your bless many more. God be with you tell we meet again, and if it is in heaven then I will find you, and forever be grateful more. So go and spread your wings for the next, for I have passed you by and have found you worthy. Your a teacher of teachers, a minister of God, and Angel of the most Divine's will. Remain at Peace, for we will join again.

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My Will is God's Will Done Through Me.

2010-07-30T22:25:00.004-06:00

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I have denied the thought that I now realize was assistance, that wile I am on my travels I will not be with any group, family, person, or teacher for more then a month. This thought has come to me often as I noticed people pass through my life like I past through thoughts. Even wile I was guided to get married, which seems like it would be a stable situation. I had this thought a few times after I moved in with my wife, and sure enough almost exactly a month later I was off on the road again. It is not that I ever really was settling down in Gods eyes, but that I have still been on my trvels in every form. I do look forward to the experiences it brings next.

Yes it is true, I want it to stable out, and hold dear to those I hold dear. Yet God has given me so many experiences I have asked for. Maybe not directly, but I asked for what they teach. I asked for healing, so the sickness in my being arose to be an Opportunity to be healing. I asked for truth, so the non-truth in my being arose so I would have an Opportunity to find Truth. A movie that comes to mind is "Bruise" (&) "Even Almighty" were very comedically they get the point across that God can not give you the answer, but the lesson so you may find the answer yourself. In many ways it is the same Idea that, Jesus is at the door and nocks, awaiting for you to answer. In this the gift of Christ is beyond the door, yet you hesitate and refuse to open the door, The real question is, do we know HOW to open the door? If the experience is God at the door, then the lesson is the process of its opening.

I would even jump to say that the answer is never fully received, but only lived and recycled to be lived again, meaning it is not in the answer that the gift is given, but only in the lesson. So why does it seem that God is being so cruel to have never given us answers? Why does he insist that we open the door our selves? could it be only free will? or is it because the essence of what we are is what we get, It is not until we desire God, that God could ever be found. There is a key in our desire, and not just a desire for god, but a true Burning Desire for that Truth that is God. Free will is nothing more then Will, God can not go against our Will because it is his Will done through us. My will has always been his, and I have always been his conduit.

It is not only God's Will for me, but it is my own will for me, It always has been. The pain I go through is the resistance to MY Will. I will there be healing and there is. I have denied my own Will and left it to God, true God can handle it. But it is in realizing that my will is Gods that we bring it back to excepting "what is". Even when it hurts, is it nothing less then a split desire of our own will. If I could give up my "independent" will and realize my real will is all around me flowing constantly, perfectly then I would be perfectly Happy. for it is Gods Will for me to be perfectly Happy. Except Gods Will and it is Done.

God intends you not to be in pain, but only Joy. God wishes you not to be in sadness but only in Love. God feels that you not be in worry, but only in surety, for the life flows through us and interludes us with its being that is the Will of God. Except what is, and go with the flow, because it is not only Gods Will, but your own.

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Scribed by Devan Byrne from www.WalkofLove.Org

This Blog is publications of Questions and Answers, Asked by Devan, or other sources with answers from the spirit with in. Devan publishes them, because nothing is owned less it is Given. Devan seeks not to teach the message, but "Learn" it. He speaks it, to give it, and gives it so he can "learn" it. ----------www.WalkofLove.Org- Devan's Service Mission Walking around the United Stateswww.IamACIM.Com-Online Radio Program studying 'A Course in Miracles'www.DevanJByrne.Com- Learn About Rev. Devan J. Byrne and what Services he offers.

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What is Truth?

2010-07-30T11:42:00.004-06:00

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The most difficalt way to get an answer is by not asking a question, and insisting that it is answered. To ask What is Truth is a contradictory term, and has no resalt but falure in its intended perpose. It is said "Seek and do Not Find" and this is an example to what it is referring.

Truth is what is. To ask what is, what it is, is to attempt to define it as something specific. What it is, is not that which answers questions, it only seems to ask them. As Truth comes to a place where it seeks to know itself, it must first pass through the denial and forget it self. Very simply "Truth" is what you are, and as you are asking what you are, you have hid yourself from yourself and denied your existence.

The Knowing of Truth is the simplest thing to do, as you do everyday. The ego seeks to define itself, and make it need sapplies and money so it can feel that in its egxiety, it now has a place in the world. But behind your doing there is what you know, and that is what you are. You know that you are. You may never know what your deffinition or gift and purpose is in this world, but you will always know who you are. The denial you have astablished has not maintained its feble ideas. For God needs no strangth to shatter illiusions.

What you are is Truth, and Truth will set you free, for as Truth You are Free. As your illiutions you have faild to realized that truth is all there is. Be not dismayed as you now seem to believe I am stating that you have faild. This is not so, for you could not fail in something that does not exist.

I am what you are, I am your Truth, the highest of High Ideas. The "Idea that I am is the Idea that goes beyond Ideas. I was given to you by the father as a gift beyond ideas, I am the essence of the problem, but I am the salution to my own existence. As I became, you lost yourself, for your "lost" was my "birth". I am Spirit, that links you to Truth, from your ideas.

So Simply Truth is what Truth is. Be with that as you are That.

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Scribed by Devan Byrne from www.WalkofLove.Org

This Blog is publications of Questions and Answers, Asked by Devan, or other sources with answers from the spirit with in. Devan publishes them, because nothing is owned less it is Given. Devan seeks not to teach the message, but "Learn" it. He speaks it, to give it, and gives it so he can "learn" it. ----------www.WalkofLove.Org- Devan's Service Mission Walking around the United Stateswww.IamACIM.Com-Online Radio Program studying 'A Course in Miracles'www.DevanJByrne.Com- Learn About Rev. Devan J. Byrne and what Services he offers.

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How could I do anything, when it has no meaning?

2010-06-07T12:44:00.003-06:00

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How could I do anything, when it has no meaning?

The first thing to realize is that everything by it self has no meaning. Nothing has its own purpose. Then the next thing to realize is all the meaning and purpose it has is given to it by me. Then you must realize that if you will to do it, then you have the will to give it the purpose you see fit for it. No longer does it tell you what its purpose is, now you realize what its true purpose that it was given by God.

God's will for you is perfect happiness, so give everything the purpose of God's will. Give everything the purpose of your perfect happiness. Then this you realize everything is a lesson God would have you learn, to be perfectly Happy. That is all, not to be skilled, nor a good parent. Only to realize the truth in you as the salvation of the Mind. Perfect happiness is not a wish soon to be true. It is a guarantee that you remember.

Hiding is no longer the desire you have, awakening is simply changing your mind. In your mind, no longer is the choice to be sad, fearful or lost. The choice is One, and the question is many. Answer simply with the choice, and questions are no more.

Scribed by Devan Byrne from www.WalkofLove.Org

This Blog is publications of Questions and Answers, Asked by Devan, or other sources with answers from the spirit with in. Devan publishes them, because nothing is owned less it is Given. Devan seeks not to teach the message, but "Learn" it. He speaks it, to give it, and gives it so he can "learn" it. ----------www.WalkofLove.Org- Devan's Service Mission Walking around the United Stateswww.IamACIM.Com-Online Radio Program studying 'A Course in Miracles'www.DevanJByrne.Com- Learn About Rev. Devan J. Byrne and what Services he offers.

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Today, I do not persieve my own best interest. Lesson 24

2010-03-15T18:04:00.006-06:00

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I have been spending time, and Healing here in Georgia. The wonderful opportunity has arose to assist in a retreat center. This Happening or not Happening is a dream of mine, I have planed and mapped out for years of what I would like a retreat center to be like. Before I found 'A Course in Miracles' I was a Alternative Therapist. I designed 'Therapy of the Soul' in Many Many different forms, and my Guide told me it will not be the way I think it will be, she told me it would be more 'religious'. I not into the course at the time had understanding pass me by. Even now, I do not perceive my own best interest and even when I am given the answers it still "will not be the way I think it will". The puzzle of life flouts down together, as we move along and live. I have my desires, my cravings, and aversions. Yet I hold my willingness high, I do not mind if my calling is to settle and work on a center, I do not mind if my calling is to continue traveling. All I know is I do not know anything. I desire God, I desire a healed mind. and the form does not matter.

I give all my plans to you Spirit, and I remain open and willing. I will go and do the things the Lord commands. Because I know I do Not know. I know God, that you know! I continue to trust in you. I do not need to fear, for I know the direction, will be pervaded. I know the words will be spoken from you. I will open as you promise to flow through me. I do not decide what that will that will look like. I judge not what you hold for me, assist me to relies my resistance. Assist me in healing my mind of all those beliefs I hold that do not correlate with the truth. I am open, walk through me God. I am speaking, show your peaceful thunder. My mission is this, My life is my mission, my death is my life.

Today, I have been thinking allot about how I do not perceive my own best intreats. I see this in so many ways will I travel. The journey can change in a day, to take me in a different direction. I sometimes get my hopes up, for what could come from one situation or another. To be with this person or that group. Sometimes I am called to a city for what i think is one reason, then it turns out to be another. Many times I think Spirit guides me to something, and it turns out completely different. sometimes it is true that my ego starts to think I do not hear the spirit properly. Yet when I truly stop and listen, the spirit is not the one planning for the future. The ego tries to play the role of the spirit, and then get mad at itself for misleading.

The course talks, that the spirit has no need to guide you anywhere in form and the world. The spirit uses the form world (horizontal plane) to bring you to the spirit vision (vertical plane). The healing of mind is not always a flow of perfectly structured and organized plan of success to the one that perceives, the ego. If I merrily recognize that I do not perceive my own best interest, I still may never "know" the best interest, but I would be one step closer to peace of mind.

A Peace of mind worthy of God, is a peace of mind that trust fully in God. It sees its own thoughts as meaningless, its own plans as meaningless, and continues to walk as it trust God walks through him to peace.

Scribed by Devan Byrne from www.WalkofLove.Org

This Blog is publications of Questions and Answers, Asked by Devan, or other sources with answers from the spirit with in. Devan publishes them, because nothing is owned less it is Given. Devan seeks not to teach the message, but "Learn" it. He speaks it, to give it, and gives it so he can "learn" it.

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The Timelessness of Mind

2010-02-01T09:01:00.005-07:00

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Form is time and Space, what is eternity?

Think of your mind, as most of you think of your own mind you think it is incapsalated in your skull with in some mushy substance that you call the brain. as you were meditating this morning you asked this same question and I showed you there are no boundaries to mind, I showed you how you could imagine reaching the stars, and leave your body as a flouting idea. I showed you that you could go under water and in mt. in the blink of an eye. I showed you that you could enter into others boundaries and show them eternity. I showed you that you could go years in the past and eons in the future, I showed you nothing could harm you and nothing could do what you did not want to do.

This is eternity, with creativity. The very essence that you are, the life that allows you to exist is eternity. This is what God is, God is only this. You are the expression of God, the movement of the mind, the thought that takes the being and chooses what it will be. God is the being, which is timeless and not of space. You are the "mover" the "dreamer" the "creator" of that being into a dance of the expressions of love and beauty.

I do not say you are an expression of God in form, for there is no form. You are an expression of God in God, in Eternity. It is the insanity you have choses that has in-cased you in time, and space. It is the Image you have decided would express and hold the expression, yet it does not, from all corners of the dream, express remotely the magnifasence of the divine. What you are expressing in eternity is reflected by your ideas on the image you made called form. It is twice removed from the divine, and is only known by those who are not looking tords eternity. They look out and desire to see, so there is form. Look with in and see only God, and there he is.

I, with the course and teaching you that you have indeed hidden in a place where you can not find yourself. Yet you are you, look at yourself. It is not hard, even if it is not some thing to be seen. If it were not real, if it did not exist, you would not. If it died, you and God sheerly would pass from eternity, which is an insane idea.

You are much more then a mind in one body, you are mind. Mind is everywhere, yet it is not anywhere. It is the life in the trees, yet it is not in the trees. It is the bark in a Dog, yet it never was in or of the Dog. The essence of being is not what you see being, but how it is being. you can not find this in form or see this in form. You know it is much more then the macanics of the body an cells joined together to achieve the greatest gift ever made. Life. Life is more then a form, it made form, Life came first. In your choice to forget, you do not remember yourself. But in your choice to remember, you will slowly let your desires fall away, and your wake to your truth and only it will continue to be.

Choose not to be in form, even when you still desire its rewards. Your reward is only in God, seek first the kingdom, and all will follow. Life came first, then you "the choice" was born, you chose to run free, yet you choose it in chains, come to the smith made to brake your chains and see you have never left the life that came first.

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How do I stop resisting?

2009-12-30T12:33:00.007-07:00

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Resistance is not something you can stop and not do. To "stop resisting" is simply not doing anything. The only reason we do anything in our defense, is because there is seen a value in what is still there. So your question is not how do I stop resisting, but rather how do I see nothing with out value. The only reason you are what you are is because you believe you grew up to be that way, and have learned what you know now. This is not true, and you see this as so. What you are is beyond what your world and life has taught you. What you are is all knowledge of truth. Lies can not teach you truth, they can only teach you what truth is not. The world has been upside-down and backwards, tell recently it is returning to its original state. This state is what you are in truth. The world has not been a testing ground, nor a place to learn, nor a site where one grows to be a God. The world has been an insane attempt to keep yourself from the knowledge that you are as God. This is not something you must learn, because it is already so. It was so years ago, as it is so now. there is no difference with last year and today. They are the same. If you realized this you would see nothing of value. If you saw what I saw, in the way I see it, you would not hold yourself to "live in the past" nor would you say "this is who I am" because you would realize that you are no one thing in particular. You are all things, for all things and everyone is in you. If you saw it the way I see it. You would not fight, you would not struggle. Because you know who you are is perfect, and everything is you , must too be perfect, for they are not different from their source, as you too are not different from yours.

Ask then not how to stop resisting, but ask for the assistance to see with my vision. The vision of christ will guide you where you wish to go, because where you wish to be is in truth. You can not find truth in lies. Yet it is very tricky for you have noticed the world only lies when you wish for it to. It only is the effect of your thinking. The lie is not in the world because the world has not left its source. The source is your thinking. If you see lies, you lie. If you see truth, you hold truth in mind. There is no place to go in world, but only in mind. for there is no place in world that is outside of mind. Mind is the beginning and the end. The first and the last. Nothing before after or in between. Mind is it.

Vision is truly seeing this as true. It is experiencing it and knowing it as yourself. The enlightened mind is the mind that has Vision. It no longer holds any value to anything nor anyone, for it is all the same one mind. It apiers to be full of shadows and trickery, because this is what you desire to see. You wish for pain, and suffering. Even along the path to awakening. You have been so deeply rooted in your way of thinking you can not see your own way out. As you have built the staircase to heaven you hid it from your sites, and covered your memories of it with desires for other things. If you but stopped and realized there are no other things, then no longer would you hide and run yourself into the dark hole that you do.

You have asked for Vision, but have not truly desired it fully. for if you have, you would have received it forever, and constantly. If you forget you have it, you never fully did. Or rather you never fully BELIEVE you did, and your belief is what you desire. Truly ask, and truly receive. Ask parchally and resieve parchally. this is true now, and with everything you persieve already. It you have not resieved, you are the keeper holding it from you. If you truly desiered, you would have reasieved.

So the question is restated,

Why do I desire darkness and lies, over light and truth?

Ask yourself this when you are mad, sad, angry, discouraged and so on. Because these are the oviese ideas that cloud your mind. Then see as you say you desire truth, that you have a split desier. What you have is your desire, and what you want is another. You want darkness and Light. You do this to yourself, thinking it is greater to battle off an enemy, then it is to see you have none.

*God saw you whole pure, naked and innocent you took of the fruit on "knowledge of good and evil" and saw yourself as "naked" you thin clothed yourself to hide this, what you call "indecency". As if to be pure, and innocent could ever be indecent. God never saw you as someone to cover up, you did for you now compared "Good and evil" Before this there was no "knowledge" of evil, because there was no such concept. There was only "knowledge" that God's will alone exist. There could and never will be another way but Gods. Learn this and you are saved from all evils "grasp" because there no longer is evil to grasp your mind. The fall of Adam was not in a fruit, but in only an idea that God's will is not omniscient. Desire then to not know of evil, and know only of God, because you desire only truth.

See this as a choice you have right now, and freedom is at hand. Freedom will come fully as it becomes your only desire. You get what you desire, if you are stuck or sick, you desired it, and still do now. Realize your only desire is Truth, and be free of all insanity.

Scribed by Devan Byrne from www.WalkofLove.Org

This Blog is publications of Questions and Answers, Asked by Devan, or other sources with answers from the spirit with in. Devan publishes them, because nothing is owned less it is Given. Devan seeks not to teach the message, but "Learn" it. He speaks it, to give it, and gives it so he can "learn" it.

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- Devan's Service Mission Walking around the United States

www.IamACIM.Com
-Online Radio Program studying 'A Course in Miracles'

www.DevanJByrne.Com
- Learn About Rev. Devan J. Byrne and what Services he offers.

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2009-12-27T15:09:00.000-07:00

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You ARE ONLY Spirit

2009-12-26T13:50:00.004-07:00

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You have yet to realize you ARE ONLY spirit, and spirit can not come from ego, it can only doubt it is spirit, and believe it is ego.

Be vigilant for you know what is true about you. Be vigilant for that truth. Be vigilant for that truth is all you are, and you must keep it known in your mind to fully remember it as the only truth. This you must do, it is inevitable that you know it as your only truth, for it is just that. Though you still believe there are other truths, other layers and areas that truth seems to have divided up and split apart. Yet most of these layers are simply stories, you have make to cancel them to the one truth that you do know, yet try and forget.

Everyone believes there is some soul, some how encapsulated in the body. This is wonderful, yet miss understood, because it is the body, that is encapsulated in the soul. The body is known as a "denser" aspect of the soul, seeming to be soled because of its density. Yet few ask what is the soul encapsulated in, if the body is in the soul. This is Mind. It is not the little mind in witch you think you think. it is the mind in which you are. This is the Mind of God, and you identify with the Son, which is his "thought".

Now as I explain this to you, your thinking thinks of "objects" and "forms" inside other "forms" and this is not so. What it is can not be placed in form, this is what the world you see now is, and that is its cause of its pain, and troubles. As you try and put God in form, you try and give him your pain and troubles. This is not possible. Not that God would not receive your gift, but that God is not capable of understanding such a gift, nor are you.

You do not understand the world you see, nor do you understand your body or mind. This is why you see them and treat them as if they are out to get you with and idea of death. My Son, admit that you do not know, and you will see that everything you try to know is a lie. You lie to yourself to convince yourself as right. But there is no "right" there is only ignorance, and ignorance is less then what you truly can be. Yet you do not seem to wish to be everything, nor all powerful, nor do you wish to know everything. For if you truly wished for it, you would see you have it. Only lies can keep you from this truth, for only lies state you are something you are not and you are not ignorant.

So be thee vigilant for the truth, for you know it to be truth. All other ideas and beliefs will be washed away, as you hold tightly to the truth. You are only that of Holy Spirit, and nothing of you is less. God speaks to Spirit, and Spirit speaks to you. Realize you are only spirit and it is inevitable that you realize God speaks to you, tell you realize you are also one with God.

Be yee not urgent to skip steps, God is far to abstract for you as of now. When you realize you are only spirit, and have no longer Ideas that you could also be ego. Then it will be revealed to you, that spirit is what you are. Then when you no longer have ideas that spirit is separate from God, it will be revealed to you as God appears to step down to lift you up as himself. God takes the last step, because God is all there is, and the others are beliefs that wash away. A belief that is washed away can not take you up to God, for it is no longer there.

It is quite possible to release these steps all at once, yet it is not easy. The mind is far to fearful of loosing it self, and would not be able to open to its ability to open itself up. The residence it much greater then its willingness. There has been times, you have given up enough to wash away your insane ideas, yet you continue to recall them, and live by them again. As you leave one behind at a time, you are less likely to notice, and to pick it up again. This you have been doing so. You do it with out knowing, and you do it by choice too. This is why it will save "time" because you are no longer only doing it with out knowing, you have also been doing it more so.

Yet it is often you try to leave behind more beliefs then you are willing, and you put yourself through pain as you resist. This is not necessary, nor is it plausible. You can not save time, any more then you are willing to, and by willing I mean you are less resistant. You can not enforce the ideas of ego, or negativity, but you can only enhance your belief in your truth. Remember to remember your truth, as much as you know it. Whatever it is you see it as, remember it. Remember it in every action, and aspect. For that is a key to your whole believed reality.

How willing are you to let go of your ways, and come the way to God. Bring your beliefs to spirit, and let him be keeper, those that work will stay and those that hurt you will vanish. Hold not to them, for pain and hell only come from resistance to truth. and only truth exist.

Scribed by Devan Byrne from www.WalkofLove.Org

This Blog is publications of Questions and Answers, Asked by Devan, or other sources with answers from the spirit with in. Devan publishes them, because nothing is owned less it is Given. Devan seeks not to teach the message, but "Learn" it. He speaks it, to give it, and gives it so he can "learn" it.

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Will I ever Grow up?

2009-12-24T01:24:00.015-07:00

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I am realizing again, and more then ever. That I repeat my behavior of the past. I really am the same person I was years and years ago. I still have the same desires, I still have the same fights. I still see people the same way, my family and friends. I feel no matter what I do, or think, I will always be this same child... simply with a new mask, a new phased. Almost as if all my "improvements" are simply better tactics of getting what I want. I am still a child, wanting Mommas attention. I am still a child screaming when he brakes my toy. I am still the child, that plays the "better man" and brushes off the anger first.

Do I ever do anything new? Do I ever make a decision that I could not predict in myself. Under our new polished bodies, all grown up. Are still the same ways and decisions. The same child, forever lurking wanting fighting and destroying. There is nothing that you can do to get out of it, even the Buddha was a wise child, that learned how to get what he wanted. He desired freedom, yet is there really ever a point where one truly is free from ones self? We are controlled by the controller, which is ourselves. We do the same things we always did, we think the same we always thought.

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This is why forgiveness does nothing, forgiveness is the only way out. There is no way out that you can "do". Doing is what got you drowning in your own desires. I have stated often that you only see the past, and you question often, on where that all began. You appease yourself and say it has built up with the last moment. Then it would be true that you have evolved from nothing. But if you added one word you would realize what it means. You see only the past thinking. Everything you know and see, is what you have thought of before. There is nothing new, it never was. It is the same joke with a mix of punch lines. Continue and your soon be tiered of the same old thoughts, that have gotten you only to desire more. Desire creates desire. Willingness, creates reason to be willing. And fear creates reasons to be afraid.

Now is the time again to realize that what you do, is not to determine your state of mind. Even if you do act the same as you did as a child, this is unimportant to the real battle. Ego makes up reasons to be depressed, reasons to feel down. The key part to realize is that it was the ego that mad it up. Not you, you only believed it, fell for the joke once again. Your memory will laps over itself, tell you have realized that every minute, has been the same instant. When will you desire to simply stop?

The answer is in the silence, not something that will be reviled, but what will be undone wile you are silent. The forgiveness that is accomplished in perfect stillness, is outstanding to the forgiveness wile working. It is not about what you do, but how well you pay attention to your thinking. Do you believe it, or fall for the joke? Or do you remember that it is a joke, and remember to laugh and smile, because you no you are not in or of the world you see. You are free, free from everything. And that is your free will, to understand.

Be vigilant

2009-12-24T00:37:00.004-07:00

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Be vigilant for the peace of God. It will take a great amount of willingness to continue. If it were the easy path you would not need help, and you would do it naturally. But the path you take is the easy natural way, we fall. It is easy to blame and point, and persecute and judge. It is even easier to say that God does all of that for your enemies will be washed to hell. The easy path you have taken to here, is one that seems widely understood. In the mix of things the true path to God, looks like insanity, but only to the insane. The sane do not desire their wishes of death to come true, nor do they have them. For they know their wishes are only on them selves. It is impossible to condemn a reflection, and not condemn the one it reflects. The image you see is only a distract to seeing what is in you. You get upset when someone shows you the evil in you. You have trouble when others see your hatred, you are saddened when you realize you only hate yourself.

The practicalities of everyday living are crazy because they are a host to an old continued desire. The desire to punish and tourcher, crucify and kill the son of God. You do not understand this, no do you really think you can. What you think you understand about it is a lie you tell yourself to try and distract yourself once again. It is NOT about understanding it. There is no place, there is no reward. There is only what you have right here right now. The reward in in that, not somewhere else. It is right here, everywhere you go. You can not loose it, nor destroy it. It is forever existing be cause it was created as that existence itself. This is you. This is your life, and light. It is that we call the Son, it is what is known as the kingdom of Heaven, and hark it is at hand. It is closer then you could ever imagine. The question is the answer, Who are you? You can not find the questioner, for you are the questioner. You can not find the light, for you are the light, You will never get an answer from God, for he is asking the question.

The light of the world shines brighter then ever today, It has always been. Yet its blocks, and clouds cover it no longer. It brakes through them as if they were simple joys, and a child free to experience them, with out condemnation and blame from a parent. The child breaths deeply as the light it is extends to the ends of existence. The child is the universe as he realizes he is the light. He shines ever more brighter, as he feels himself in and as others. This is the miracle, the experience of the change of perception. Not only a change of it, but the experience of it.

This is what you want. You want to know yourself, you want to feel the extension and no longer projection. You want to feel the Love in all things as yourself. You want to be excepted, now give what you desire for you give it to yourself. As you deny it you deny your desire from yourself only. As you think another may not deserve it, this is a lie you tell yourself, to keep yourself with "reason" in pain, sorrow and Hell. You know this need not be, you know what you really want. Seise and continue vigilant for the peace of God. By giving it, by sharing it, by shining it for all eyes to see. You do it for you. You do it for the Son of God, not "other Egos" you want peace, so be dedicated today. Be determined today, that you know what you want, and you got it.

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The Easiest Choice to Make. The Choice to be Happy Now.

2009-12-23T04:49:00.014-07:00

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I stood up from my computer a moment ago and thought of something, before I started listening to Jon Lennon. I asked myself what if there is no God? I realized a relieving feeling of pure happiness, that seemed to brush away as fast as it came. I asked myself, what if there is no Heaven, and the feeling returned with a understanding that blew my mind. It seems hard to grasp, because it is far out of the thinking I have been proned to my whole life.

If there is no heaven, then what am I working for? If I will never get to a place that all things are perfect... then why am I trying so hard to do what is "right". I am shocked thinking about this, because that means, even more so then I ever thought of it before. "Heaven" could only be here, and Now. What does it look like? Like freedom, from all expectations. A freedom, that nothing can sway, or move. And where is this freedom found? The only place it ever has been. A place where there are no hopes, and no lost dreams. A place where it is perfectly fine to not be anything. Where no, body cares about your way of life, or your hair, cloths or money. Because they are free from all expectations, and condemn you not.

The ultimate place of acceptance. As I came to this realization, which I can not fully grasp, nor describe. I started listening to Jon Lennon's song "God" I never understood this song more then I did in this moment as it comforted my realization. In the song he is saying many "beliefs" that he does not believe in, then ends with "I believe in Me". It all came together so clearly as I realized, what am I going to do, if I have nothing to go for? Well I might as well be happy. I might as well stop, working for anything, and just be Happy, enjoy the journey. Wow, enjoying the trip, in every moment.

"God is a concept,
By which we can measure,
Our pain,
I'll say it again,
God is a concept,
By which we can measure,
Our pain,
I don't believe in magic, I don't believe in I-ching, I don't believe in bible, I don't believe in tarot, I don't believe in Hitler, I don't believe in Jesus, I don't believe in Kennedy, I don't believe in Buddha, I don't believe in mantra, I don't believe in Gita, I don't believe in yoga, I don't believe in kings, I don't believe in Elvis, I don't believe in Zimmerman, I don't believe in Beatles,
I just believe in me,
Yoko and me,
And that's reality.
The dream is over,
What can I say?
The dream is over,
Yesterday,
I was dreamweaver,
But now I'm reborn,
I was the walrus,
But now I'm John,
And so dear friends,
You just have to carry on,
The dream is over."

At the end of the song he talks about the dream being over, the dream of every belief he brushed aside, and looked at the emptiness of reality. The plan vision of what is right in front of our eyes. Everyday we get up fighting to stay alive, or fighting for attention. We are always striving, in this "hope" that someday it will end. Open your eyes, it will never end. Your desire is what made it, and keeps it coming. Your desire to be loved by someone, let it be a person, or three, oh lets hope its God. "Oh God whatever you do, and whatever is true... Please Love me." The ultimate idea of Love itself. The greatest most powerful being, loves you... and there for now I can be happy. Well what if it is all a crock? then what do you do? die? cry? give it another try?

I am not here to say if God exists or not, I am here to get you to think about what your working for. Why do you want heaven, in the future... Heaven is a choice. I choose to be happy now. No matter what my life looks like, no matter how little I have, no matter all that I loose... I will still have my choice to be happy. This reminds me of the serenity prayer.

-- God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
the courage to change the things I can;
and the wisdom to know the difference.

What do I and always will have the power to control? My mind. No one can brain wash me to the point I do not exist. As long as I exist, I have choices. And I choose Happiness Now. The Buddhist always teach about the consistency of inconsistency. That everything changes, and always will. The physical world will always be different in every moment. We can not change this, we can not have a physical world that will not have "physical" properties. We must be wise enough to except this, no matter your religion of choice.

The hardest part is having the courage to change the things we can. To achally change our minds, even wile we are swimming in the most upsetting situation. could you be brave enough, to not try and change the world that is always changing... but change our minds, and choose heaven now. choose peace now, choose happiness now.

It is posable, to be in a mess and be happy. You truly believe you do not have control over your happiness. You truly believe your world around you must be "good" for your state of mind to be "good". Do not do this to yourself, when you could be in joy right this moment, and every moment. "Choose again" is as simple as it is. Realize your upset's you feel, was a choice to feel that way. Even as you choose to feel that way, choose simply again for the way you wish to really feel.

You want to be Happy, so why choose its opposite? In protest to the world that does not go your way? It is a very wise man, that can find happiness in every sercomstance. I do say wise, and not strong. It does not take strength to make a choice, it only takes strength to fight your own resistance. Be not stubborn for anger, be stubborn for Joy. You do not need to fight for your right to be sad, you can be. But you can as easily be happy.

Wouldn't you want to be happy, if you realized it was that easy? If you realized that your mind was not forced to be what it perceives in the world, you then would be free. But how desperately do you want your dreams to haunt you. How badly you want to be formed and manipulated by every, smile, frown, dollar gained or stolen, every spark of energy in any form. Be this choice, and you choose insanity. Choose again.

If you could see how simple this is, to simply be happy. you would. yet you hide it from yourself. You would rather be a marder then a savior. You would rather loose everything then gain it all. Think of this, is this what you want. if it were true would you admit it, would you own it? If you could not, you still desire death and Hell. You can see, the Ego can be understood, as something egotistical, someone that is not willing to loose its ways to be happy. It will fight to the death of itself, just to be right, simply to have its way. This is not true of you. You can let it go now. Your light shines so bright, and you continue to hide it.

Bring the light out, where it can be seen. Be the super hero that chooses Joy. The one that can smile and cheer everyone up, in every moment. The one that brings the eyes hope of what they hide from. Show them that it is posable to be happy, even when the world crashes. Be as Job and remain vigilant for heaven, when everything is lost. It all comes together now. The light has come, and it shines so clearly, as your eyes are open to see.

Could that be it, could it be that simple? Simply be happy now... and all pain will be washed away. All tears will seece, all problems will fall away.

Scribed by Devan Byrne from www.WalkofLove.Org

This Blog is publications of Questions and Answers, Asked by Devan, or other sources with answers from the spirit with in. Devan publishes them, because nothing is owned less it is Given. Devan seeks not to teach the message, but "Learn" it. He speaks it, to give it, and gives it so he can "learn" it.

Give'em what they want

2009-12-18T11:09:00.014-07:00

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I have been Waking up, in somewhat of a upsetting feelings over thoughts I have regarding my ex-wife, and expressing the beliefs in abandonment that I have.
I woke today with the same feeling, and I finally decided to do it differently today.
I wanted to call her and try to express again, like I have been almost everyday. I am finally sane enough on this subject, that I know thats not the way to do it. So I turn to the one, I feel has been neglecting me, which is me and I asked myself if I really want to do this again. I realized in the question, my whole relationship with her has been the same. I feel something is being taken away, I fight for it, it continues to be taken, I get upset she does not care, It continues... I blow up, and hurt a wall.

Today is different because I am choosing before I get upset, not latter when I am all upset at what she is doing, and what I am loosing. I then turned to spirit as I herd him say, "I need do nothing: is healing" I told him, advisedly I get a bit caught up and drowned in the emotions. What is something practical, I can apply it in my life, and I see myself Blogging about "Give'em what they want" and I say the page filled with Give'em what they want Give'em what they want Give'em what they want. So here I am, and spirit will elaborate. But me being the sly little ego, said before I started typing, "What if I do give them what they want" thinking I am psychic, and know what is best for them. Spirits quick and swift reply "Give'em what they say they want".

I then saw myself marrying together, my sister and her new boyfriend. They did ask me and I said yes, but protested that they should wait, for there is no need to rush into a mess. But I realized as the spirit spoke, I am not here to judge and then try and "save" the world in what I "perceive" as their best intreats. The ego quickly judges, and wants to save my sister from another bad marriage, and for the kids. I would justify and say it is nothing against the guy, even if he is a perfect guy waiting should not be a problem, if he is.

Something about my sisters life has been reflecting my own regarding relationships. Her prier husband and her, separated nearly every time my ex and I were fighting, and talking about divorce. Then their divorce went through about the same time ours did. And now she is quickly tying herself to another guy, filling in her blank... as my ex is. My sisters husband, has been throwing a fit in the background on the phone, as I have, and something tells me, this need not be.

I remember I was so focused and vigilant for God, and now swimming in the shit I made for dinner last year. Its time to clean up the plate, and do it differently. We all know it has not been working the way I want to do it. So finally on this subject I am ready to, choose and act again differently.

Please, Spirit again could you teach me what I should do practically regarding the reactions in myself.
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As I made clear to you, Many could say do nothing, but this for you gives you "power" you blind yourself with, as you try and "make" the other do nothing. Remember again, that it is always your lesson, there is no one out there that needs to change their behavior, it is you. So I say again, Give them what they want. For you know it means nothing, you know that you do not perceive you own best interests, and you know that to give is to receive, and you know that all pain comes from resistance. These things you know, I will elaborate again for you.

First- you know it means nothing, it is very easy to forget everything you know, when you think it is something you learned. The life you live is a life you learned, to act and be, do and say what you do. It is easy also to think the way to God is learned, and try and put it all on top of what you learned in life. This is not the goal. You will know that you are trying to "learn" it, when it seems to not be there when you "need" it. This we know is not true. As you remembered last night with Brittany, "Life is a series of trials so you can remember who you are" She is very insightful on this subject. But who are you is the question, and where are you at that.

You know nearly everything outside of yourself, will teach you what you are not, this is why it is meaningless. Only the "loving" experiences are meaningful because they teach you what you are. They bring you to a place to remember. Of course you will go through a period of undoing, and "learning" everything Love is not, and those are the "trials". Shedding away your old beliefs, that have taught you what you are not. It becomes a "trial" because the resistance to loosing the belief is great, and all pain and suffering comes only from resistance.

So it is normal for the ego to say, "everything is teaching you." But listen not to this in the way you once believed. Everything is teaching you, what you are not, so you can look past then and see what you are. This is the only reason they have meaning. They do not have meaning when you can not see through them. So do not take the lesson and stack it on your shelf filled with them, the shelve is hiding the truth. A true lesson of God, takes things off the shelf so you can see.

Two- You know that you do not perceive you own best interests, this we have gotten into depth before. And I say again, You perceive not your own pest interest, because you see only what you have learned in the past. You desire this situation to be different then the once in the past, so you must do something different to bring about the different situation. There is one thing that you never have done, and this is nothing. You believe you must do something, so I tell you then give them what they want. But you continue to ask about different situations, and which once you could apply this to. Do not the judgment of the situation, do the forgiving of it, so you can be healed from it.

You see clearly that your past has repeated over the years, that you live and act the same as you did when you were five. This is a lesson you would learn from. See not that you can not change, but see past it and realize what the reaction is hiding from you. Do not act the same way you always have, act today the way you never have. It is in my defenselessness my safety lays because it is taking you the way of God, and not yours, your choice has been the way of the ego, and you can count on that choice being made again, IF you choose to do anything. Choose to do nothing, by giving them what they want.

There is no ways in the world where one way is better then the other way. They are both illusions, and both insane. Love does nothing, in support of the truth that is hidden behind the shelf of lessons. Love is continuously giving, because it perceives no needs, in it self. Give because you choose Love, Do nothing because you wish not to act on the past, and have again chosen Love.

Three- You know to Give is to receive, In the sense I spoke of above, to give your things, and actions, is to take them off your shelf that hides the truth, in turn you receive the truth, by giving what you hid it with. You could almost say that the shelf was covered with old "lessons of love" or old "ideas of love" and you give these ideas of love, so they hide no more the real Love behind them. of course I speak to you metaphorically and these actions of giving is all you know. But it is better to give "love", if you must give something.

To give regards to truth, to give what you "learned" of truth is the only thing you can give. It is "teaching what you would learn" that you do so for. The question is, what do I wish to learn. Well with the contexts of above, to give Love is to do nothing. To do nothing is forgiveness of the blocks. The Blocks being old belief systems we have learned. As you give this "love" you simply remove the blocks in yourself. Remember it is always my lesson, never about the others "growth" only about my healing.

Give your old ideas of love, so you may find the Love that is always given. Act as you see fit for this love to be given, tell you realize it is not the love you wish to give. Give the true Love, only when you find it. You will know if you found it for there will be nothing else. As you type, and read this you have not found real Love, because you think there is something else you can do, say or be, this is why you come to me for help, you think you where someplace else. We are one, you have never left, to "come to me for help" the fact that you do is the fact that you think there is other places, things to do, say and be. Not realizing there is only Love, so you must admit you hide from it.

Four- You know that all pain comes from resistance, Meaning if you experience Pain, hardship, sorrow, or struggle it is because you resist. Resist the situation Yes, but resisting the loss of your belief systems. What you believe you are, is a series of belief systems building you as you are. You are not these belief systems, or the beliefs that make them. What you are needs no belief, it simply is what it is. The ego is a belief about yourself, build with itself over itself. A belief that is so well hidden you do not have a clear idea what the belief is. Even as students of the course you say it is a belief in "separation". You may have experienced out side of this, and remember it, but every time you try and explain it, you forget it.

If you experience pain of emotional or physical, you must realize that "you do it to yourself" means, that you give yourself this pain, by fighting, or in other words, refusing to give up. Refusing to surrender, to others, and higher powers. The only reason you clash, or have problems with is because you are stubborn, and want it your way. When you do not even know what you want. So you fight even when you get it. Then run around upset and angry that what you thought you wanted did not give you satisfaction, so you take it out on something. This is not what you want, the pain, the resistance is not what you want.

So give up, in the easiest terms, surrender. In every "trial" is another chance to surrender, because you know you perceive not your own best interest, and finally you will do nothing, but give what others ask of you because you know it does not matter. You resist not doing it, or not doing it. Finally you stop caring about the world and let it go, you no longer cherish it and set yourself free. You finally be happy because nothing in the world can influence you. You have surrendered and given up to the true Love of God. Be this and Give up today.

You say you want to, but the ego has no clue how. It thinks giving up is death, or sitting around doing nothing. It is not, It is not resisting, all the options that come in front of you, because you know you do not perceive your best interest. So I clarify, if they ask, you say Yes, if the do, you say go a head. You walk even if you do not want to, because the ego is the only one that WANTS anything. Want no more, because you have. Seek no more because you are. Find no more because you will always be.

Scribed by Devan Byrne from www.WalkofLove.Org

This Blog is publications of Questions and Answers, Asked by Devan, or other sources with answers from the spirit with in. Devan publishes them, because nothing is owned less it is Given. Devan seeks not to teach the message, but "Learn" it. He speaks it, to give it, and gives it so he can "learn" it.

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www.WalkofLove.Org
- Devan's Service Mission Walking around the United States

www.IamACIM.Com
-Online Radio Program studying 'A Course in Miracles'

www.DevanJByrne.Com
- Learn About Rev. Devan J. Byrne and what Services he offers.

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Teach Only Love, for that is what You are.

2009-12-14T09:00:00.012-07:00

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"You are what you think all day"
"Teach what you would learn"
"Give what you are"
"You only teach what you believe"

Quotes like these from different places imply that if you want to be a certain way, you can change your thinking, can you elaborate.

As you heard me say in Chapter seven part one, I said I gave only Love, because that is what I believe I am. It was not that I wanted to believe I was. I no longer wondered IF I was Love. I know as you too know. Yet you do not believe everything you know, as I do believe it all. To wonder is to deny and search for answers where they are not. Even when you pray and ask the spirit to "show you" the truth. You do not really wish to see the truth, Ask not for it to be shown to you, Ask for the assistance to see. For to ask where it is, is stating that you ask for it to be hidden, and you get everything you ask for. Asking for assistance to realize the truth, is a surrendering to the possibility that a power greater then you and what you believe, will assist you in Putting aside your "strength" to finding it yourself. It is a realization that you really want to hide from truth and not find it, it is a realization that you fight yourself to find the truth. Then you surrender to the assistance that you were not open to, when you were battling with yourself.

You tend to believe you must "believe" before you "know" and then when you believe enough then it is "knowing". This is not true. You believe what you know, and some things you don't believe what you know. What you know can not be changed, what you believe is your acceptance of what you know. What you know is the Truth, and the ego attempts to change it by picking and choosing what it wants to fit in with what it sees as its life right now, based off of the past learning. Always having to question which and how many are true. What the ego "knows" are simply projections it has no control over anymore. Then it "learns" the facts about them, denying their source. It makes up a world and hides from it. It hides from it because it wants to hide from its source, It hides from its source because it believes the source it beyond its self. The source of the problem, is not that it is real, but that it is Believed to be real. You Know you are one with God, yet you force yourself to believe that it is not true, so you may punish yourself for a guilt that you call humility.

Humility in the true sense of the word, is not a "strong" attribute. It is the ability to surrender, and this is not a strength, but a giving up on strength. It is putting your guard, and weapons down and giving up. This takes courage in your faith, not strength. Your humility is said to "take a strong man to be" as if it needs to be forced or worked for. Humility is not somewhere you go, or a moving forward in progress, it is stepping down, giving up, to God.

So to teach only Love, is to give it. Love it the acceptance of your brother, as yourself. To give it is to realize it as your truth. To realize it is to be humble, and realize you believe not in your truth. Give Love for it is what you want to believe, Give Love because you know you know it. Learn what Love is by giving it in the way you believe it is now. It will be reveled to you as you Humble yourself to what you believe about yourself.

It is not a changing that is accruing, as you change your thinking. It is a shift in expression of what you believe you are. You are All, and which you wish to express is your free will. You have chosen to express pain and sadness, and there for you experience it, to justify your desire to express it. Choose again, and express Love, and you will experience it to justify your choice, to be it.

As you continue to express your Ideas of what you believe "Love" is, soon you will shed what it is to you. No longer will it be what you believe "love" is, but it will be what true Love is. As we have said, this can not be learned. This is because you believe you are what Love is not, and how could "what love is not" learn it self as "what love is". This is why it is said to be an Un-Learning of what you believe you are now, and unlearning of "what love is not" to realize it is made from Love, which is its truth and needs no learning.

It is true then that if you wish to realize yourself as "A" then teach "A" to be true, and if you believe "B" and want "A" to be true then teach that "A" is true, yet you naturally teach "B" to be true, for this is what you believe. But it does not change the fact that what you are is "C"

*You believe you are what you experience, yet what you experience is changing constantly. What you experience is what you choose to express with a reason to feel that way. You tend to think that the experience came first, then your reason, then your justified to express your "feelings" about the experience. Yet this is the mix up of cause and effect. You are not in the world, it is the experience of what you choose to express. The choice to express came first, the experience to give you reason to express came second. You can choose to express differently then the experience insists that you express, because you know you are not the experience, but that it is an effect of what you choose to express.

It is highly posable that as you choose differently from the experience, and express the opposite, the experience can change in front of your eyes. It is not highly however, that you would notice it. In fact as you think the experience would change rapidly it would not, it would change before you realize your choice to express the opposite was realized. Meaning, if you chose to express anger, your world would give you and experience to give you reason to express anger, yet when the experience comes, and you choose to express love instead, the experience would already be a blessing, waiting for you to realize it. The miracle is in all experiences, because experiences leave not their source, the choice to express what you believe you are.

Soon enough you will only choose Love, and soon enough all other choices will be forgotten. Then the only experience will be that to justify Love, and it will be known as the Happy Dream. The Dream to end all Dreams, for in the choose of Love's expression, the true love will be reviled, and this is the last step God will take for you. The fullness of the experience will be the choice of Love, and Love will be realized that it was known all along, but not believed.

Yes it is True that you are Love, yet you do not believe it. Teach it, for you want to realize the truth about yourself.

Scribed by Devan Byrne from www.WalkofLove.Org

"Walk of Love" is a travel on witch Devan has published photo's and updates of his journey, trusting in the Divine wile he serves and heals by the grace of God. Always hoping to join and meet new faces, at all kinds of spiritual gatherings around the nation. He would love to be a part of yours.

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How Can I Heal Faster?

2009-12-11T22:54:00.007-07:00

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It is not a matter of Faster, but when. The only way for your old belief systems to wash off is if you use soap. As I have said before, if willingness is higher then resistance great healing can acure. All pain and trouble comes from resistance. The Healing come when you let go of the belief system you resist from letting go. So it is not resistance to healing, but a resistance to loosing your old ways, eventually your way at all. To put it simply, if you wish for your willingness to be greater then your resistance, and have a hard time getting it that way there are a few, seeming "radical" ways you can live.

The Ego wants exactly the opposite of the way of God. So do the exact opposite what the ego wants. This seems easer that what is is. for what does the ego want? well the key word is 'Want' The Ego wants its way. If you look at the world and brothers in it, and trust that they come from spirit you can follow with out any difficulty. The ego will very quickly fall out of trust and think it knows a better way, this would no longer be trust. So when ever the outside world conflicts with the inside mind, follow what the outside says. For there is no conflict, but only in the dilutions of the ego. The inside mind, and the outside world are one. There could never be conflict if there was only one disputer. Seek not to change your world, but change your mind about the world. It is only a world of ego, when you see, and choose for it to be. Which is ego for you, ego will reflect ego, and blame everyone for being ego. Stay on the razors edge of Trust and even when there seems to be conflict, realize it is only because you lost trust in spirit, in your brother. There is no conflict only a problem of lack of faith. Trust again that they come from spirit, and your ego will be healed.

So to clarify, When your brother wants one thing, and you want the other, go with what your brother wants because you know there is no conflict. The ego in you will fight, and want its way, thinking it know what will work best, But there is no difference between two illusions. One is not better or greater then the other. They are both the same, with a different seeming image. You follow your brother because you choose peace over conflict. You follow your brother because you trust he is spirit. You follow your brother because you know he is one with you, so there for if he conflicts with you, you must be mistaken. Even when it seems harmful, or painful, you must continue to trust that on the battle field it seems that way, but up above where I see only illusions. Trust spirit as it takes you through your Hell to peace. It only seems to be terrible, it only seems to be messy, yet it is only from resistance.

Nothing ever looks painful, nothing ever looks hard, you only see your resistance to being free from your identity. Even when it seems like animals are being tortured, and killed for food, the pain you feel is only your resistance to loosing yourself. If you truly were ok with loosing yourself, If you truly excepted Death, you would see that you are free from all pain, all conflict, all worry and stress, your realize nothing has power over you, and nothing really matters nor for your brothers. Thou you see that things still matter, is only your resistance to loosing your identity, the fear of death.

Then do nothing extreme, you do not need to do something to much or to little. The ego wants to prove its power, yet it has none, so it will use its choices to manipulate itself. It will be a martyr to show it self as real. You do not need to starve, nor do you need to be full. You do not need to be poor, or do you need to be rich. The fact that you want it all, or you finally say you need nothing, is the ego trying to prove it self as a being. There is nothing it can do to be real, it will go up and down looking everywhere for another way to be noticed, to be loved, or to be master. It knows its true reality, and it will do everything it can to hide it. You have never once did nothing. The ego is always moving, always noticed, and always thinking. Even thought you think you have stopped one of these, you have never stopped all. To do this would be complete freedom, and this is your greatest fear. You think it is death, you think it is non existence, you think it is the loss of love, but it is freedom.

Perfect freedom seems to have this "price" yet it is only a price when something is considered valuable. As you still hold it valuable, you will resist. As you are on this path to freedom, you go through hell because you conflict with yourself. You fight your resistance, and hold dear your freedom. Yet you fight for freedom, and resist your value. You can not have both life and death, wile you resist you cherish only death. "Let go and be free" can be taken very literally. yet to do so with everything, is an undertaking for the very willing. Yet as I said before, everything is all the same, and illation, do it with all or none. Let go of all, or you have not let go at all. So again I say, it is not about faster, but when will you let go?

It only seems like many choices of choosing again and again, but they are the same one reminding yourself to remember. Not a new choice, but the one waiting to be chosen fully. And when it is done, your see it always was one big choice to to be free. All this time your saying no, soon your stop fighting and say Yes. there in no maybe, and no "just a little" you are ether saying no, or your saying Yes.

You have been taught to "stay in purpose". This is very useful, because the ego wants to be extreme, right now it wants to stop and rest. You continue to type because your willingness is higher, then your resistance. You will have your way of freedom, but it will not seem your way in choices. As you continue on project that support forgiveness, and unity. You will reinforce it in your mind. Use the focus on the projects as a symbol of your focus on spirit. use your vigilance for the projects completion, as a symbol of your healing completion. It is only the ego that wants to stop, It knows the way of the "symbols" and it does not want to except the "death" it brings.

So I satiated there are a few seeming "radical" ways you can live, and they are not in the actions of life, but the inactions. The acceptance of the way of your brother, is trusting they are one with you, and you are spirit. Then to do nothing to the extreme, as everything is meaningless, treat it that way. It is nothing to do allot of, and it is nothing to do not. It is nothing, even when it looks like you do it. You do not do it, so why change it? The third thing is the acceptance of death, the acceptance of death is not only giving up, but embracing the possibility that you may not exist. This does not seem necessary to the ego, but if it does not matter, it will not hurt to do so. It it is avoided, with what ever seeming excuse, understand it is your resistance. The fourth thing for tonight is staying in purpose, the ego wishes to do meaninglessness of meaninglessness, the reason purpose has "meaning" is because it leads to meaning. You are what you think about, the purpose is to think about truth all day tell you realize ONLY truth, and the rest has dissolved away.

Your peace is in you, your guide will show you. resist not and it will flow, as you dive it will splash tell there is no water in the sea.

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The Way of Love is Loving.

2009-12-09T21:36:00.010-07:00

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Talking to my family and friends, I realize how much my beliefs have changed. Every time I write something here, I am hoping they will read and get a bit more insight on what I believe. If I were to put my beliefs from what they were to where they are going in one sentence it would be. I was one who looked for salvation outside from sources separate and apart from me, now I realize it is all there, but only with in me.

The LDS church what I was raised up in, is said to be the church with the most truth and information then any other church in the world. I might agree with that still. But 'A Course in Miracles' is not a church, so not in the same category. There is one very important key missing, which changes everything. This is the realization of unity. Peace, is Unity. War, is separation. Now of-course most people even when they think they do, have no idea what this means. It does not mean simple coming together in one purpose. It does not simple mean we are one family. It does mean these things, but even deeper then that. The reason it is one in purpose, the reason we are family, is because we are one. The Church talks about the 'War in Heaven' where (in very short) Lucifer and Jesus had their different ideas of how it should go down here on earth, its said that this is a 'War of Words' as if I could ever see Jesus calling anyone names. I do not understand, tell I realized the "War of Words" was what the course calls the "Tiny Mad Idea" where the Son of God forgot to laugh.

Now for all you listening, Imagine with me that before we were spirits, we were "intelligences" no shape or form, tell we were born into a spiritual body, then now born into a physical body. This is what the church says, of-course never having an idea what came before the "intelligences" that we were.
So here is a stretch; what if before we got our "Spirit Bodies" we were One "intelligence" that was split into the many little spirit bodies, then the spirit bodies, were you and me, and Jesus and Lucifer. Then seeming to be as separate spirit bodies, the Ideas began to be different also. As if they where different spirits. This is a war. Yet Peace, is Unity. War, is separation. They where one born into many, that started to forget it was one with its brothers, and clashed in interests. One spirit body had his "word" and another had his "word" this is a "war of words"

The idea of this war was Lucifer stood up and said (paraphrased) "I will force everyone to do good, I will make them serve, and Father all the glory your give to me" Then Jesus stood up and said (paraphrased) "I will let then have free will and choose to come back to thee, and Father, I will give all the glory to thee" Then it is said that the Father in Heaven chose Jesus to be the savior of his brothers and sisters, and one third of the host of heaven went on the side of Lucifer, and two third chose the way of Jesus. And there it is said the two third that chose Jesus is us, we have come to the world to be tested on our "righteousness" to the father in heaven.

Now what has changed in my beliefs is this everything brought into my mind. I can see this so clearly now, that in each of our minds we have this war right now. There is a scripture that states the natural man is an enemy of God, meaning we naturally want to do what is not of God, and not righteous. Which does not make sense if we really were the ones who chose Jesus. The "War of Words" is not something that happened, long ago. It is not something happened to others. This war, is in you now. This war is said to be of Words, because it is your mind, your thoughts. To combine with ACIM words, the EGO is like Lucifer doing everything it can to get the glory, and force you to do what is "right" and he will look like your nicest friend, just to pull you in, he will even get you to think that the enemy is someone else to blame. he will get you to think you can never be saved because the kingdom is so hard to get, with so many words. He will get you to think LOVE is in death, and LOVE is in punishment, and LOVE is in cruelty, and LOVE is on a cross, were God punished someone for YOUR evil doings, He will get you to feel like shit, and full of guilt, to FORCE you to "Choose the Right".

And the real Christ with in you will tell you you are forgiven, forgiven instantly. He will tell you that you need not suffer, and go through pain or death. He will tell you that eternal life is now, and has no sacrifice. He will tell you LOVE is LOVING and LOVE is gentle. He will show you that what you think you did to deserve punishment, is washed away in the nothingness of the past. He will guide you to a place with no worries, and no stress, where you no longer NEED to do it right, for you CAN NOT DO IT WRONG, your WILL IS FREE. He will show you you have FREE WILL, and there is no punishment for there is no death. He will tell you that nothing you could do could keep God from LOVING you. He will help you feel the peace and joy that only God's LOVE and acceptance could bring.

The Kingdom is not far away, it is not even around you. It is you. The Christ with in you will show you the kingdom doors are always open for your return. The Devil with in will tell you it is far, and you MUST do good to get to it, and YOU WANT to so you can be rewarded. The Christ with in you will guide you to the safe return, gently releasing you from your desire for guilt. The Devil with in you will say everything it can to get you to feel guilty to FORCE you to WANT to return. The Christ will show you, that guilt is never your desire, and perfect Happiness is with in now. The Devil with in you will tell you that you can NOT be happy, tell you do, or get MORE, it will even tell you that you need to SERVE MORE, to be happy. It will tell you Happiness is out there, and never with in you. The christ will tell you, that you have never been condemned, and you are perfect and holy even now. The Devil will tell you you are sinful from the very start, it will tell you your choices have harmed, and killed, it will tell you everything you do is shit. It will tell you that you can never be fully happy tell you repent, and obey, and DO WHAT IS COMMANDED OF YOU ... to get you to feel guilty to FORCE you to WANT to return.

I don't know about you, but even if the war was a long time ago, I can see guilt is the way of the devil. I use my free will and choose Christ.

You are holy innocent now... and even now, the devil in you is telling you this is not true, it will even have a list of reasons why you are not, and you must feel bad, and guilty... Which is gentle? Which is the way of real LOVE? Your Free to choose, for you can't get it wrong, because you will always be innocent, even if you THINK you are guilty.

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The God Positioning Systom

2009-12-08T14:38:00.004-07:00

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I have come to a conclusion that Guidance from the Holy Spirit is allot like a GPS. When you first get a GPS to drive with, you tend to think you know better. You always want to go the short cut way. Our logic says there is a better way, tell we run into Traffic. We forget so easily that the GPS can see the Big pitcher, even when we think we got it on our own, and we do not understand the rout its taking us, we soon realize it was getting us around the construction. No matter how sweet and clear the voice will be, we want to hate it for it thinks it knows more then us "real" people. Even thou the GPS has never been behind the wheel, it will become the driver. When you finally trust it and surrender your ideas over... soon your be lost with out it.

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Only Heaven is experianced.

2009-12-08T14:29:00.004-07:00

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Even when "Hell" appears to be over-powering you. "Heaven" is there, patiently waiting for your approval of its reality. And in this realization, it washes away the "reality" of "Hell" for there can not be two homes for the "Son of God" and as I have said before, you are home and you have never wondered off, into a place where Darkness is King. What King of Kings, would let pain triumph when truth is all it knows? He has not forsaken you, He has not cast you out, he has not let your foolish fantasies of death and torture rule, you are Home, at peace, in Love, Always.

You as a "Religious" believer seem to think it is evil or of "sin" to say that you are innocent now. We so desperately want our "wrong" doings to be real, so that we can be punished for them. We ask for pain, not for forgiveness. You believe it could be possible to sin, and go against the will of God, and then return to it again. If it is Gods will that you be forgiven and saved, there is nothing else possible. God is God, and no other ruler could ever triumph, for that would defeat Gods role, as the ruler, creator and King, and this is forever impossible.

It is not passable to stray and return to God, if you have strayed, you are lost forever. But I say again, you have never strayed. You as a creation, could never be apart from your creator. If you are lost, God is lost. If you have sinned the would universe is doomed for eternity, for if you have sinned, to has God, the creator of the sinful, the sin, and the victim.

So I say again, despite of what you see, and how desperately you want it to be true, you are free from sin. You are free from a wrong doing. In fact you are free from "do"ing anything out of the will of God. His will for you remains to be perfect happiness, and you can only retain that Now as you except your innocents.

You can only fully except your innocents as you except it for everyone you have known as well. For to condemn is not your role, but only to forgive because you think you have condemned. To condemn is truly impossible, for there is no will but Gods. So merely an idea needed to be corrected. You have not sinned, nor has your brother, and nor was it seen as anything but Gods Love. Even after your "judgment" of the "action" it has not changed in the eye of the Spirit of God.

You have had the freewill to condemn, but you only have brought pain and hell to your self, by doing so. Forgive, and be free, as you except innocents for everyone. Remember, Misery loves company and they are in every sect and belief. There is no way to Heaven, and No way to Peace. For why would you need a map to your location, all you need is a realization.

Scribed by Devan Byrne from www.WalkofLove.Org

"Walk of Love" is a travel on witch Devan has published photo's and updates of his journey, trusting in the Divine wile he serves and heals by the grace of God. Always hoping to join and meet new faces, at all kinds of spiritual gatherings around the nation. He would love to be a part of yours.

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www.WalkofLove.Org
- Devan's Service Mission Walking around the United States

www.IamACIM.Com
-Online Radio Program studying 'A Course in Miracles'

www.DevanJByrne.Com
- Learn About Rev. Devan J. Byrne and what Services he offers.

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I am the same, in everyway.

2009-11-26T11:37:00.014-07:00

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So here in Miami Florida, our Hostess Pattie is an Alcoholics Anonymous(AA) sponsor for many. on Wednesday I went with her to a meeting, and then again today. It was wonderful to put into practice again seeing everyone as the light of God. The Light in everyone as Holy as it can be, was remarkable as it became an encounter with no limits. I wanted to say something, yet I did not know how to introduce myself. I felt that I couldn't say "Hi my name is Devan, and I am an Alcoholic" ...because I am not.
But I soon realized, I was. I am one with the world I see, there is no higharky in the world. I am not better, or greater then anyone in the world. I really am just like them. No different at all, you can say everyone has their "-holics" and their addictions. But even with out looking at these "faults" about ourselves and look at my last post in the blog.

The spirit strongly has been teaching me, greater then ever, everything I see, judge or even perceive is exactly what I think, and believe of myself. If I see people with my eyes, I do see people with "addictions", and "problems" and even "mistakes". But if I deny what the eyes, and senses tell me. I can look beyond what I perceive and realize the light of God, behind all the masks everyone wears. No one is a bum, and no one is a saint. we are all the same, even in our "forms". We all came in to this world, naked and truly alone, and we will all be leaving the same way. Only one person walked in that door, when you did to get here, and that was you. Everyone seems to have taken the same door, but you are you... and that is innocent. Only you can play your role, only you play this game, does that mean your independent, and individual? No, despite you desire for it to mean that, it does not. You are the same, you are just like everyone.

So why judge? they say in AA that when you point a finger you have three pointing back at you. Even if it wasn't three, you can see the pointing came from you, you pointed first, and the reflection pointed back. They do not point at you, and you did not point first. This is the confusion of cause and effect. You pointed, they point back. If you see someone blaming you, or harming you, or cheating you, remember they reflect you. AA says the most important thing is honesty, can you be honest to see you pointed first? Or are you the saint, that does not point, but everyone in the mirror points at you. this is impossible, you pointed first, now humble yourself and admit it. Even if you don't know how you did, or what you pointed at. Know that if you see pointing at you... you started it.

There will be a point, where you will start to not see, or perceive those fingers pointing at you. You won't even know that they are there. You will be at peace, and the world will flow. But it all starts with admitting, you are the reason it all was pointing. You looked in the mirror and pointed at it, and it simply pointed back. you can't blame it for pointing, it is mindless and does what it is told, by you.

As you do start to only see the light in your brothers, you where see, every finger as a blessing, and every blame and a gift. You will not even conceive it as a threat, you will not comprehend it as an attack, it will only be love in all its forms, healing the ego of existence, and moving on to the peace of God. Your brothers may scream, their fists may swing, and hair may flair, but all you know, and see is they are happy to see your at peace no matter what they do.

Under their masks, and acts they play, they support you in every way. Helping you heal, and guide your way. They desire peace with you, and know god as you do. You are not farther in healing, you have not had more experiences, everyone is enlightened, everyone is Christ. They are here teaching you, showing you the way, your angels, your guides, your spirit in them holds the path to god dearly. You can not loose, as you choose to see the light in all.

We are the same, we are one and there are no levels to it. The miracle is seeing the unity of the son, and there can not be levels to one. If you perceive you are farther, better or greater, you simply make yourself in the position you saw them. You delay yourself, and step back in the path to God. This is why judgment is the sin of the world, because it brings the world down from its path to truth. It seems to be less, when it was more but it is not.

Forgiveness is the way to happiness, because it is the gate to understanding unity. As you judge it you see it not as your reflection, but something or someone else, that your mirror would not hold, yet that is all it is. It is what you desire for your self to be. This is the cage you chain yourself to, as you perceive others less or greater then you. It is not true, for me or you. We are the same, in the kingdom of heaven, and that is all that is true.

All of your ways, can not lay under the wheel of time. your ways do not harm your truth. This path, is only a path to REALIZING your truth. You do not grow, or shrink in what you do, or is it determined by what you do. In your truth you are pure, you are innocent and whole. In your truth you are with God, on the throne of heaven. It is in truth that all that seems different is only a fetish, a playful fantasy. All your dreams, all your jokes, will not last in the pearly gates.

The steps you took, and seem to take, is your acceptance of this truth, your steps back are only for play, as you choose to delay the awakening. My son of God your the high and the low, your the tears and the grin, you are them all for they are all the same. They are all the little game you play.

So many ask, if they should step back and take the hitting and cheating. So many think and assume that when they put down their defenses, their attackers remain. If they ask they do not understand the world is a reflection, it is like you hitting the mirror and the mirror image hits you back, you always meet in the middle. If they cheat you, let them and love them, and they will cheat no more. If the harm you, let them and love them and they will harm no more.

They only point, when you point first. They only cheat when you cheat first. They only attack when you attack first. Even if you say you did not attack, remember there is no difference between what you think, and the world you see. Everyone in the world knows what your thinking, and they will act on it. because they are it. They are what you are thinking. It is all a reflection, because it seems to have a delay. Yet it has no delay, you do. You assume because you think it first, then it happens, that it came from you. As if the world was late on doing its job. You are the one that is running from God, you are the one that fears that this is true. The people in your reflection fear, because you do. The dynamic is low as you choose to be separate from your world. The ego uses time to get you to think you created it as you go along, This really is not so, you are more honest in your reflection that you are in you "separate mind" .

You have no mind of your own, you are not individual, you are the world you see, and everyone in it is as well. That is all the same, and that is one. There is no wall between you and it, there is no flesh that makes you different from a tree, you are not in a mind that is not out there. The mind that is all, is all, not more you not more me, it is the same thickness, and depth everywhere. It is in the center everywhere, in everyone. You will see this soon, you will feel this clearly real soon. Just put down your defenses and be the one that rest in God. Be the one that realizes it for the world, you can choose this now, you can choose to be, the savior of your fantasy.

...Though this does not make you greater.

Scribed by Devan Byrne from www.WalkofLove.Org

"Walk of Love" is a travel on witch Devan has published photo's and updates of his journey, trusting in the Divine wile he serves and heals by the grace of God. Always hoping to join and meet new faces, at all kinds of spiritual gatherings around the nation. He would love to be a part of yours.

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www.WalkofLove.Org
- Devan's Service Mission Walking around the United States

www.IamACIM.Com
-Online Radio Program studying 'A Course in Miracles'

www.DevanJByrne.Com
- Learn About Rev. Devan J. Byrne and what Services he offers.

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Death: The fixed belief. God: The only Truth.

2009-11-25T15:20:00.008-07:00

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Everything in form changes, but not the belief in death. The belief in form is the belief in death. The form you see is not life, for it requires the price of death. What God of Love, takes away, what God of peace scares you to get you to obey. This is not the way of God. The one true God is not labeled with your ideas. The one true God is constant, and everlasting. If Death is true, God is not. If God is true, Death and form could never be. How could there be a world that contradicts its creator, it is impossible. Only seeming to be done, in illusions of mad ideas.

Your belief in form and the body is the same as your belief that it must pass. It may pass, but you are not move able. The center of the universe, is not in the universe. The center never moves, and never changes if the universe seems to change. The universe around it, moves around it, never through it, never changing it. The outer around the universe is made from the center's consistency. If the consistence of that witch made it chanced, the rest would sees to be what it was. The center is like the chemical bases of all creation, it must be constant or nothing would ever be.

The universe is not form, it is mind. It is not objects and shapes, it is thoughts. The universe is not what it seems to be, all of it is built of the fear of death, but death was built off the fear of God. Focus here for a minute, if there is no body or shape where are you? Are you in the world incased in the body? No, there is no body, there is no form, so where are you? You are not a soul that would seem to flout around like a ghost, that is form. The same question goes for you if you where, if you are not a "Spiritual Body" then where are you? Are you looking through these eyes, away from the world, in a different dimension? No, there are no different dimension, for there isn't even this one.

What you see, is what you believe yourself to be. You are not located anywhere, yet everywhere is you. You are not in things, they are you. No more will I say they are 'in' you, for you are beyond that now. What they are is what you want to be right now. Not in form, there is no form. This is all in mind. The fact you see pain, seeming in form, is the fact you fear and hide from the one true God. The fact you see stupidity is the fact that you fear and hide from the one true God.

This is not in the form you see, they are like the clouds in mind that hide the face of God. it is all here, it is all now. So as you do not see it, then admit, you DO NOT WANT it! The world as you see it, is how YOU WANT IT TO BE. It IS YOU. You only do it to yourself in the most literal sense. What you do is NOT in form, it is all in MIND. NOT BODY, MIND. Only Mind, always was Mind, you never where a Body, it is only a idea you choose to wear, an Idea you choose to seem to be. Yet you really are not, but you do see it, there for you WANT to be.

Death is an idea, that you are a body, an Idea. You are the maker of Ideas, you are not the ideas. You thought it up, you are not living it. The fact you think you are a body, is because you do fear the face of God. The light you try and cover as you shove meaningless ideas on it, is useless, pointless, even more so then the ideas you do it with. You play this game out of fear of facing this guilt, the guilt that you think you split the kingdom of God, that you destroyed the light of heaven, that you put out the one true God. This is, was and always will be impossible. Are you willing enough for truth to admit that you thought this was true, and you fell for the joke. Are you willing to stop, and say to Truth, it will for ever be the one only truth.

Hiding under a bush, does not make your bush a home. You need not to have it this way, What you see is how you want it to be. See to day beyond the form, see today how you want to be. See today the face of God. The face of the one truth in all faces, in all shapes, in all actions. For you declare as you do so, that there is NO other way but God's. Be humble enough to look past the actions, and form and see only God. No need to justify and make up a reason for your seeing god. You do not need to know how it all works out for the best. You do not need to know or see or understand that it all works for the highest and best good, that is all form. Do not be deceived by the form and what you think you see. See ONLY GOD. That is all, for remember you see what you want to be.

Just see God and know, everything else is forgiven. For as you see what is true, the other can not be, for only truth is true. See only Happiness for that is what you want to be, See only peace fro that is what you want to be, See only Joy for that is what you want to be, See only truth for that is what you want to be. That which I see in my brothers, I enforce in me. See the ultimate, for only the ultimate is worthy of you. This is not hard, this is very easy. It is the simplest way to react, it is the simplest way to work, it is the answer to all of your troubles. See the one true God in all because all is you and you only harm yourself, as you fence off a brother.

NOw as you work to see what you want to be, you will realize you have always been this way. You only denied it and hid it from yourself. You will come out from under the bush, and open your hands and arms, you will embrace the father you have ran from. You will put down your swords, you will through away your shields, your stop playing games with yourself, and finally except the love you want. Your joy will be in your serenity and you peace will live with me.

Scribed by Devan Byrne from www.WalkofLove.Org

"Walk of Love" is a travel on witch Devan has published photo's and updates of his journey, trusting in the Divine wile he serves and heals by the grace of God. Always hoping to join and meet new faces, at all kinds of spiritual gatherings around the nation. He would love to be a part of yours.

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www.WalkofLove.Org
- Devan's Service Mission Walking around the United States

www.IamACIM.Com
-Online Radio Program studying 'A Course in Miracles'

www.DevanJByrne.Com
- Learn About Rev. Devan J. Byrne and what Services he offers.

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The Love of God, Created me Loving.

2009-11-24T07:54:00.014-07:00

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The Adam and Eve Story, with the beginning of the Son of God and the fall of knowing.
Told to me, raised a mormon, with beliefs of a pre-existence, and a war in heaven.

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The Love of God is beyond what you believe you know. You want the love of God to be about form, and Bodies. Yes you did gain a body, but did you really gain farther in God's love as you came here to test it? You grew up be taught that you became a body so you can be as the father in heaven, and the is true. But not in the way you think it is for. In 'A Course in Miracles' it talks about "I am not a body, I am free, for I am still as God created me". This meaning before the body you have now, you were a being that is still now.

A being that was in the pre existence, The being that participated in the war in heaven. Yet again it is all not in the way you think it is. The key to understanding, the truth about it is It is not about form. It is not about separate bodies, or even separate spirits. Think of it as a Mind, a Mind that is. Not a brain, but a mind that simply just is. It does not think yet, and this is the beginning. You can think of it as a cloud or a mist, but it is not form, so it has no edge, and no sides. This as of yet may not be comprehendible, this is fine. Do not force yourself to understand, when peace is your goal.

In the beginning there was mind, it was. Mind had a idea of simple joyous expression. This was the only begotten son. The son was observed by mind, yet the son too was not form. He was not a body, he simply was. The son was the expression of the mind that thought him. The mind is the father of the son. The son, was one with the father, in perfect union. The son, metaphorically speaking was in paradise. In the garden of eden, where perfection met form. Here was the Father and the Son, joined and free to dance and sing.

One day the Son, looked at the father and ask him to watch and enjoy his dance. Yet the father had no form to see. The Son so desired the fathers attention to be with his dance, yet the father just observed. The son desired someone to dance with, someone to share the expression with, yet he was the only begotten son. There was one expression of God, and it was him. In the sons desire, he dreamt up the idea of another. He thought about what she would look like, and how he would have someone to play and sing with. The first desire was asked for, and it was given. Yet this all had nothing to do with form. It was all in mind, the only way to have another to dance with, The son must give a piece of him self to the creation of form. As he fell asleep, in his peaceful ideas, he wondered the garden. To his amazement what he asked for, was given.

There she was exactly as he desired, the women of his dreams, to dance with, to sing with, to play with. This friend was much more then simply a friend, this friend was a piece of him. This friend was him, as he danced with himself, and sang with himself. he started to think the other was another. He started to forget, the other was him self. She began to have her own free will, she thought of new games, and ways to play. The son was gladdened as they were joyous games. The ran in trees, and up and down hills. In this perfect place. They splashed and teased, and fantasized of a family they could be.

They started to think, what games would be great, if they had more friends to play. The couldn't remember how she got here, but they new it could be. They started to think, and partake of the knowledge that they are form, and there is a way. The desire was heard by the creation of mind, and the gift was given. The gift was given but only by giving a piece of them, would they have a family. As their children came, as a piece of them, they started to forget they were a piece, of them. They started to think they were free, and had wills of their own. This is true, as it became a reality when they started to think it was so.

They were in paradise, tell one day they forgot they all were. They saw the will's of their children, they saw the wills of each other. But they seemed to forget the will's of their own. They now where here to serve their brothers, and their happiness was there goal. When all awhile, they are forgetting that they are a piece of him. He forgot that the will he see's is the will of his own. I gave up himself, so the others can live. He gave his Life so the others could be. What greater Love has any man, but the one who gave his life for his friends.

Serving his family and striving for their will to be happy. He became to believe he was truly apart from them now. As his son's disputed and killed. He knew this could not be of him. He gave his life so they could live, yet the did what they wanted, and took it away. The gift he gave and they throu it away. This could never be a piece of him. He denied it and rejected it. Realizing it was so, to change the world, and to loose as we grow. He did not want it, he did not ask for it, he only wanted their will's for happiness. Forgetting it was his own will.

He cursed him, He blamed him, He tortured him, as he took back him love from him. This could not be, in my family, for they are free to be happy. He is not and will never be, a part of me. He came from her. I was with God once, in joy and peace. Yet I am here now, and things like this happen, against my will.

As you can see the son, forgotten they were a piece of him. He forgotten their will was a piece of his. He forgot his creations, were of him. For he still is dreaming, of his dream to get the attention of God. At the beginning he was dancing, and singing. He was happy and one. As he gave himself for others, he forgot he was the others. They are one, not simply in family, but in mind, and in will. They do not have separate wills, they have one. For they are one son. The son slept and dreamt of dancing with his friends, never to have woken up. Still sleeping in a dream of a family beyond numbers. Sabitosh itself, and fighting itself. Kissing itself, and serving itself. Condemning, and forgiving itself, again and again.

But then you see, before the dream, I said this was all metaphorically. This was never in form, as it seems to be, but only a thought, an idea the son wanted to play, as it wished for the attention from is source, that it to was one with. God could not look at you, God could never kiss you, God could never hold you, for my son... he is you.

So as you can see, this is not just a story, but it is simply the idea of what you had be. The stories, have been split and changed, but they all say the same thing. This is of you, and your will to have the attention of God. this is not a story of years ago, but a story of right now. This very instant do you wish for this, and this very instant do you hide yourself from the father. You hide in the bushes, afraid of what you have done. But know this, in dreams, they remain dreams, wake up and see. You are not a body, you are free, you are one with me.

The Love of God is not in this story, but that of the very beginning. The Love he was, that created you loving. The one expression of his own. The love is shown to his self, as it simply just is. Everything you know, everything you think is in form, even when you think of love, you think not of what it is, but how you express it to others. When you see, their will is yours, you will not bargain or sway with them. You will be happy, and let things be, as now you are free.

The only gift you can give to any of your brothers, is not a gift of form, even if it seems to be. The really gift is like love, but expressed in a way that all may see. The real gift to your brother, is a gift to yourself, as you remember who you are. Not simply a child, not simply a friend. But the Son of the most divine. You did stray, and say all the glory to me, to test your self, and the love of God, but as you remember you will see, all the glory to thee father, all the glory to thee.

This is the return of the christ to the earth, the son knew it was, once before, now it returns to know again. The full knowledge of the son, and his truth one with the father will be fofilled in the time, you are awakened from your dream of attention. You dream there are 'other' to dance and sing with, but so desperately you wish to get back that which you gave up for it. The knowledge of your father. Choose to wake up, and the memory will return to you. The world's will is for happiness, yet it is not in games, singing and playing. It is in God, and only in God.

Return to God, and find what your looking for, in games, in dancing and singing. Return to truth, and see that you have dreamed your in harm. Return to God, and realize the Love of God is all there is. Outside of your pathetic fantasies. The only test you have is the test you give yourself, to remember whole you are, in a maze of seeming darkness and separation. The only question remains, do you want others to dance and play with, or do you want the father to be with? there is nothing to fear, they will not be lost, they will follow you. For remember, they are you.

Jesus, remembered. As you know, we are children, and jesus is a brother. But as I said, the children are all one son. As Jesus remembered, you to will remember. Many remember the 'pre-existence' and the many spirits, yet few go father back to before that. Before that was the war in heaven, a war that is explained as a war of words. Think about this, there are no words, less there are others to speak with. As the only begotten son, was the only begotten son, there were no others. As I say in 'A Course in Miracles' Peace is unity, and war is separation. As the war of words began, the son was separated in himself. Now there were others to 'war' with. All metaphorically speaking, as kain killed abal.

Now Jesus remembered even beyond, he realized before the war, there was only the father and the son. He realized there was only the truth of the father, as the son was his gift. This is why he said he was the 'Son of God' the ' Only Begotten Son' when there is no other. Now as he remembered, you too can remember. You would go back in your mind and realize the same thing. Before there were many, there was one and the many came from, and is the One. The 'Son of God' the 'Truth and the Light' and not 'all the glory to me' but 'All the glory to thee, Father'

Jesus is a savior to you, for he shows you the way to remember. Be like him and find that the way is simple, they way is kindness and love. The way is stillness, and peace. The way is forgiveness of all brothers. The way is forever the way to God. Jesus is a symbol of what you are going to be, you can not stray from the return of christ. You can not hide from the love of god. It is unavoidable, and avoidance is only a delay. Yet every child gets tiered of playing games, every women gets tired of dancing, every throat gets tired of singing. In the return to God, you will see, I am everything you want to be. As he said, only through me, you will be saved, means only through remembering Christ, can you return home to God.

The Love of God is here, waiting for you to realize it is. It is ready in every moment to be expressed in the son. It is prepared to be everything it can be, as long as you limit it not in yourself. Choose not to judge, for you only judge and restrain Love. Yet Love, is un-restrainable, so you must only be hiding from yourself as you choose to judge. Hide not, and repent as you except full forgiveness from all ideas. You are free, so be free. You are loved, so be happy and love. You are not condemned so except the freedom today.

Scribed by Devan Byrne from www.WalkofLove.Org

"Walk of Love" is a travel on witch Devan has published photo's and updates of his journey, trusting in the Divine wile he serves and heals by the grace of God. Always hoping to join and meet new faces, at all kinds of spiritual gatherings around the nation. He would love to be a part of yours.

----------
www.WalkofLove.Org
- Devan's Service Mission Walking around the United States

www.IamACIM.Com
-Online Radio Program studying 'A Course in Miracles'

www.DevanJByrne.Com
- Learn About Rev. Devan J. Byrne and what Services he offers.

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The Body of Life

2009-11-12T07:39:00.011-07:00

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Last Saturday we took a trip to Philadelphia with our Hosts Lynn and Brad, and his daughter Amber. We went to a showing of Body works exhibit, with an emphasis of the brain. I delt with allot of dead bodies and muscels when I was going to Massage therapy school, before 'A Course in Miracles' came into my life. Before I remember it was a bit strange to look and relate with the bodies and easily get sick over it. I was amazed, first that it did not bother me quite as much as it use to, and second it still did in different ways. It was a wonderful time of watching the mind, and all the emotion that do come up. There where bodies in many different positions, showing the muscles and origins, all cut up in different was showing all the body. There was a wonderful exhibit of little fetuses at different stages of a birth. I noticed the emotions coming up to the serfice regarding the memories of my son and his premature birth, and how he was so tiny and looked so much like the baby bodies there. I easily wanted to cry and morn over the loss, as I have many times. But instantly as I start to choose to morn, I strongly remember the mind. There is no loss when there is one, it only seems that form passes, and changes or even re-incarnates, or not. All these images of mind twinkling past like clouds.

There is such a strong belief that it is true, that we are bodies, that we are these shadows and forms in a formless word. We grab on to other shadows and create this sort of bond between, packing to be emotionally attached to each other over other shadows, as if the sacrifice of all the other shadow's love, makes the love for this one shadow greater.

Could what we be, be contained in a body? Saying we live, and we die. Disappearing from existence when the body seems to pass. When the brain goes, where do you go? Are you a brain?

(Did not finish, posting it anyway)

Anywhere but here.

2009-11-03T07:09:00.003-07:00

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Why do I wake up here?

I think back at a time I woke up in the same bed every night. I remember how comfortable it was, how nice it was to cuddle up against a body and make her breakfast. I miss it, yet I can't seem to fully remember it. I have been "Here & Now" long enough that yesterday seems gone. Every idea of the past feels simply as that, an Idea. It does not feel like I lived it, it feels closer to a lie, then reality. As I woke up this morning I looked at the ceiling and thought, why I was here. Not why I existed but simply why I was in this room in Boston, right this moment. I thought about how I have thought this before. I put myself in the place where I thought it before and It became a story. I realized all my contact with my past was a desperate desire to keep it alive. Trying to keep it awake as an idea in my mind. I call my past and think about my past, almost as if I do not want to forget it. Making sure I will always remember. Can I be here now, fully and remember?

I remember hearing a story of Jesus I believe from the "Urantia" Books, where Jesus saved some people from a stanpead of horses. I am not worried about how or what happened, but after he walk away from a mess of horses as if it did not happen. If its a true story or not what I understood from the story was the only reason we remember, is because we are afraid Now will not hold our safety. As if we need to save all of our memories in a safe in our minds, so we will not be vonerable and at risk now. We need to keep our wisdom and our learned ideas, so we can service. As if we do not trust that what we need, will be here now. With the course we are learning that the ego can not teach it self out of the world. Everything I know and do is the ego, from the past framing the life of now. The only way out is in an outside source. The voice of God is showing us a way out every moment. He is an out side source, The aspect that realizes its whole and perfect. Can we remember and forgive the past?

A wonderful video is on youtube of Mother Therasa (posted below) she talks deeply about how forgiveness is not whole with out forgetting. It takes compassion to forgive, but deep humility of self to forget. The course talks about forgiving the world, now if it is true that forgiveness is as forgetting, he also speaks of forgetting the world. could we do this quickly in a brush of a hand. of course we could but we are not. We believe it holds great value even us as course student, try every way possible to keep the world in our Ideas of heaven. Yes forgiveness seems to be a gradual process, as we slowly let go and value less. And the first to dissolve away is the past, but what does it look like as it desalves away. Will I notice it as it falls?

It is funny how much in life we go on forgetting that we forgot all that we forget. You think you would notice as it is forgotten, but you do not. You only notice as you remember again, and you had a period of time where you did forget. But what if the piriod never ended and you forgot it forever, then would you notice? I think of many times, people bump up to each other, and knowing me I am sure there was a time I was upset at someone for bumping into me a little hard in the elevator. But have I forgiven them? If I have forgotten it, yes. Think of that yourself. So quickly do we think we need to forgive when something is done wrong to us, yet you so quickly forgive, and forget when something good happens. So underneath all of this stuff, I am pointing out that you forget allot. Could we apply this to the whole world?

The course talks allot about what forgiveness does, and how it looks. It sums it up in one line, Forgiveness does Nothing. As if to have immediate forgiveness, is to have no reaction to it. To see the illusion as illusion immediately. Then in learning this application, gradually is what you do, slowly desalved with how you feel. Meaning that the physical past starts blending into the peace of mind you hold. You can't have peace of mind and the attacking or rough past in your mind. That is a contradiction and is impossible to have peace when the thoughts of no peace exist. The way to peace is then through forgiveness because it is forgetting all that is not worthy of peace. If it does not make you peaceful do you want it at all?

The true choice to be at peace its the choice to forget everything you think you know, and what you think you are. Your self concept is made and formed by a life of pain and trying to be at peace with it. Your body in formed off of an idea that you are this pain. To have peace in the world is not possible, you must forget the world to have peace. So why am I here, when I am "at peace in heaven"?

This whole time, I have not said you must forgive and forget a world that is real, or is existing at all. This whole time I have said you must apply this to the world. Meaning in your mind. The world is your belief system, your self is a belief system. All that you must forgive is yourself, and your ideas. your ideas of everything, question your reality even more then you do. Ask yourself why you do what you do. Ask yourself as you do them, Why do I do them if I am in heaven. Question everything and bring them to me, I will answer them for you. What is there to do, but forgive them. There is no process, or technique but only that forgiveness does nothing.

So "Why do I wake up here?" Because you believe you do. You believe in the world, the body, the self. You believe in a place, and even a center. It is not what you believe in, but that you believe. The world is there, because you wish to believe in something, yet you hide the reason it was made from yourself. You assume the world is complicated, yet it only is because you wish to hide from it. You do not want to be free of the world or else you would already be so. You wish to remain in it and in pain, that is why you do. Yet do you want to know answers, or Devan do you want to be answers. Give up on KNOWING the way of Jesus, for his way is forgiveness and that way is doing nothing. Could you ever KNOW doing nothing? You can only do it, by not doing it. It is the only test, you need not to study for. The answers are in the question, and the question is silence. Go be still and know that i am God.

Yes this world is a test, a test of God remembering God. A test with no threat or torture. A game of forgiveness and release. "Can I loose myself and find myself again?" you asked. Can I deceive myself in every possible way and still find the un-findable. How could there be a threat in finding the kingdom of heaven? YOU CAN NOT FIND IT, because it never was lost. YOU only hide it from yourself, in the last place you will ever look, as you trained yourself to look where it is not. But "why" is the reason of the answer. The answer only is, because there is a question, but when you are the answer why is there a question. Therefor there is no answer because the question is insane and only played in games. Can you play games, and be happy? Yes when you make the game a happy game, yet you insist on the game being a game of sadness. the game it self is the choice to experience sadness. But ask yourself "Why play a game of Happiness, when you can really be happiness."

Scribed by Devan Byrne from www.WalkofLove.Org

"Walk of Love" is a travel on witch Devan has published photo's and updates of his journey, trusting in the Divine wile he serves and heals by the grace of God. Always hoping to join and meet new faces, at all kinds of spiritual gatherings around the nation. He would love to be a part of yours.

----------
www.WalkofLove.Org
- Devan's Service Mission Walking around the United States

www.IamACIM.Com
-Online Radio Program studying 'A Course in Miracles'

www.DevanJByrne.Com
- Learn About Rev. Devan J. Byrne and what Services he offers.

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It is not a matter of if I am here or Not, it is WHY do I BELIEVE I am.

2009-10-26T00:51:00.007-06:00

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If there is no Body, what is the urge for Sex?

If there is no Body, What is the urge for food?

The idea here was deeply relieved as I was in the hot tub. I have been 'healing' my ideas of a body and the appropriateness of wearing anything in the tub. As I was meditating in the water nude, many ideas flood though my mind like water over the edge. As I tune in and center myself on God, the thoughts change from a scattered mess, to a seeming firm narrow flow of thoughts. They are not constant, but only when the silence is interrupted by a still craved desire. Usually in the form of a question, yet these questions always point me to a state where the mind is still and silent. It is easy to grab on to the thoughts and seemingly fall out of awareness of the divine. Yet has I listen to the questions arise from my subconscious and listen also to the answer the same way, the detachment of the situation allows the spirit to deflect my 'ideas' into being still. This is a bit of an idea how this last happened wile I was in the hot tub.

I was looking up at the tree above me, and my body flouting in the still water. A thought of the star above me and a desire to make it move come over me. The answer was not how, or what to do but simply 'there is no star' I quickly understood that my desier for the star to move was not a desire for the star to move, it was only the desire to be in a world separate from me. Before I got in the tub I was touched by the thought of David H. reached to people spending money, someone said "well david is so out there, there is no world" Which I knew in many experiences and intellectually, but do I know it fully I am willing to question. Back in the Hot tub the voice began to speak with everything my mind seemed to lay on, 'there is no tree, there is no water, there is no tub, there is no sky, there is no body, there is no sensations, there is no air, there is no world" "You only are, and believe your a body, you only are, and believe you are in a world" As i listened the walls of my seeming world were neatly laying down. I had no fear at all about this, for I have realized this before but I saw I was not in a body, I was not in a world, I was not in space, nor time I was NoWhere. I only saw that I simply believed that I was. I simply believed that I was a body, I simply believed that I was in the world, and that is all, I only believed it.

I then asked as I noticed who I really was was not here, "If I am not a body then what is the desire for sex?" I know this as the misinterpreted miracle urge, but what does that really mean. Well If I am seeming to desier sex, and I am not a body or in the world, what am I desiring? If I am at home with god right now, what is the desier for sex? I mean really, I don't want the bullshit answers where you give me course quotes. as I came back to focus on god, "you desire nothing" If I want food? "you want nothing" if I am doing something? "you do nothing" for I I do is a game of my mind. So no there is no world that god or you created, wile it seems to be yes, but in reality you do nothing. As if We choose to be blank in reality, wile we choose to conceive in this world.

So now the question really was not, If I am not a body then what is the desire for sex? but it was If I am not a body then what is the desire for form? the desire for illusions? the desire for meaninglessness? If there is no world why does it feel to complete me.

then the question is what do I NOT desire of reality, that i think i could gain here?

Now the question is, Why do I believe it and that is the split desier.

in reality there is no split, but then why does it seem to be so???

If there is no world, what is the urge to get out?

(Did not finish, posting it anyway)

Specialness in Holiness

2009-10-23T07:16:00.006-06:00

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I seem to wake up with information from the spirit as he slowly dissolves away my understandings of life. Today, Like many I asked spirit what I should do today and instantly I started to understand the idea of Specialness in relationships, which has come up in my life the past few days. And as I learn to understand it more, I will take you with me. Special and holy relationships are not a way of being in a relationship but more of what the relationship is for, as many relationships between a man and a women are for a lost aspect of then selves where they feel they will be more or full when they are in a relation. This as you have noticed never happiness more then a few years, as the "holiness" of its Specialness dissolve away. Meaning that what makes it special is the perspective that you gain something you did not have before, as if the other is a soul mate that you have been with out for all time before. This Idea is nothing more then an excuse to be and feel less right now tell I get, have or gain my something, or someone. Then when receiving or gaining still not feeling whole, but that in a lie for some time, then returning to the same idea that there is something more out there to gain. A special relation is always this way, even for students coming to god, as they search for a "holy" relation hoping to gain a "holy" relation, as if it is something they do not have now, this is asking to never find a Holy relation.

A Holy relation is not about the relation, it is about the perspective that makes it holy. Is there a pare of two bodies that can be holy? No, two bodies to be holy is a contradiction in terms. The relation in a Holy perspective is a opportunity to show the atonement to yourself. They will show you, as your savior your blocks to the awareness of Love. The holy relationship is one that is gaining holiness, and healing the idea of specialness. Ultimately ending up is a perspective where all are equal and non are more special then the other. This can only be up-taned when one is willing to look at themselves as the block, the problem that keeps it a different way. Then using all relations to show them the blocks. It is always the lesson of the teacher, one that takes responsibility for every action as a calling and teaching of the spirit. To be fully open with the others and hide nothing, for the goal of truth is desired more then the goal of specialness. Hide nothing from a brother to teach them they are not special for they are the same as you, and you as him.

A holy relation becomes that way by a willingness to look at the cause and question its purpose. The cause being that which you think you are. What is the purpose of that which you think you are? To understand this is more then simply knowing who you are. To understand this is to use the vision of the holy spirit in understanding the cause. The purpose is in removing, and relieving is a passive way of retaining. You do not gain anything as you would from Specialness, you receive only back that which you hid from yourself. Tie the not with the spirit for NOW not eternity, The bodies will seem to change with you but the lesson is always the same, more and more you receive the remembrance of truth as you are humble enough to admit you think you do not have it now, and wish for it.

Only in this process is truth received with relations, Yes they are your savior but only a teacher are they when your willing to be a student. You must refrain from the step that you think you know, so you can remember. Teach yourself and nothing is received, but that which you already have, and understand. Be willing to reach beyond your self to find yourself. teach that you would learn today, teach that you realize you are the student and you look to everyone for salvation. In this is the relation Holy. As it resembles the relation with the Holy Spirit. Let every relation be a symbol of your devotion to be guided to truth. Follow in symbol of your humility and gratitude for salvation is at hand.

What they say, and do will seem to hurt you at times. Heal this. The pain you feel is a block you wish to remove so you may return to the knowledge of the father. The pain and emotion you carry is in your protection to remain safe in your terror of a death-full body of decay. To be free is to remove the pain and emotions that you tie yourself with. Choose today to be free. The holy relation is in thy self. The holy relation sees the blocks surfacing to be healed. ALL relations are Holy, if you choose to use them for remembering Holiness. Use all relations, for saviors must always save.

It is not important to teach, for they need no learning. They are there for you to learn, they are what you hide from yourself. Allow your savoir to be your savoir and teach you with out words, the way to truth. Follow as you follow me, and receive the truth. There is nothing lost in this practice, you do not loose an opportunity to teach or heal. You never had the opportunity, but only in illusions. They d what you wish, and are what you need, can you see your savoir beyond their form and word? Do this and you see with vision.

Seek not for a relation to be holy, only seek that you will remember in a relation, the truth. Teach not them this, for they teach you. There is only you lost in the land. A dream, you made to loose yourself. Choose to use it to remember, and believe not what is said. only believe they are your savior and hold tight to their truth. Seeing the light they are is choosing to learn they are you. Truth is only true when you believe it to be, but it remains forever the same. Are you willing to see you choose to hide the truth? Choose again to hide no more, and be free as you choose to be saved.

Freedom is only uptaned when the ideas of freedom are set free. You can not remember freedom if you think you know it already and yet are not free, Humble yourself to realize you tie yourself to the world, and choose again to be free.

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I think, therefor I am separate.

2009-10-21T14:27:00.009-06:00

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If the Effect is now, the Cause is now.

The world is Effect, what is the Cause?

I woke up yesterday feeling a bit stuffy and by the end of the evening I was feeling like doo doo. I was drawn to read Chapter 26 Section VIII. The Immediacy of Salvation. To get strait to it, I feel sick this is a cause that I am perceiving. Yet I realized quickly that this is a very superficial effect on top of many other effects. The whole world is and effect of effects intern being one big effect. But to my knowledge I could not seem to rap my head around it at the time, I asked the spirit "What is the Cause?" and received the answer "You are the cause" But I kept asking what did I do, was it negative thoughts? was it repressed emotions? was it fear, and resistance of deep healing? What was it that made Me the cause of this. I was stuck in a mindset of my earler years of Medical intuition but I was not going to be content with any superficial emotions or ways this time. I have been going through lessons learning how my true self is pure and perfect and can not do anything wrong.... Then why the bloody cheese cake was I sick! The spirit told me "I am not in the questions I am the answer" meaning the answer to my questions about what did I do, was "I". I thought about this all night and it wasn't tell leila came in this morning did I finally get it, I have known this before but now I really realized it. It was nothing I was doing, or thinking, but only the fact that I was doing, and thinking. "You are the Cause" means the thinking mind, that I think I am. it is the intellect that processes and analyzes and salves, the game is to seek and do not find, because it will not look at it self. It is always and answer to every problem. So "I" am not in the questions "I" am the answer to it, "What did I do to get the effect?" I exist.

The intellect wants to make more separation of separation, as if there are many causes and many effects. yet it comes only down to one cause, and one effect. All the world is one single effect, and the ego is one single cause. Almost as if it was the simple itself of the "tree of Knowledge" where Adam and Eve where cast out of the paradise for. where they cast out by god? and god was the cause of there now pain and misery? no they where cast of because the knowledge they gained and created, ended the idea of eternity. The knowledge that many forms must be to allow the world to be.

What is the cause? you are. The self you think you are that keeps you apart from your brothers. The self that chooses to be separate from the world as if it was possible to denie the world of its cause. there is no possible way for an effect to exist with out its cause, yet we believe it is possible for a cause to no longer exist but the effect remains. If this were so then time is a fact that could not be shaken. So the question is about time and space. In the section it talks about how space is only apparent now and really only visible at this moment. So if space is only now. Then the cause must also only be now.

Many times does the couse talk about choosing again for happiness, choose again for love. As if it is right now the choose is made, yet we blame the situation and people that bother us. Even as this choice the cause of the world is a choice to exist, to exist at all, to exist as a separate self from god. Right in this moment I denie god of me, as if I am lusifer in the 'War of Heaven' saying "Give all the glory to me!" I am worthy I deserve the attention. Yet even in this moment I am still in the war of heaven. Battling the instent of eternity to exist as my own self. As if it is still the beginning of time, as if the big bang is right now. I choose and choose again to be my own self, separate from god and my seeming creations.

This topic is talked about beautifully in this video below.

Could it be true that right now I am in eternity of only an instant, and I bring past instants to this one. As if the past one's do not exist only my belief in them? All the things I have and body and ideas, are all of the past. Where one simple idea started it all. Am I humble enough to admit it if I was the devil, if I was the anti-christ hiding my true self from myself. Could I be both the christ and the Anti-Christ? As if they are the ideas in which I think. I crucify my self every time I make a decision, a choice that is based off of the past and my ideas. Only a seeming outside source could be the answer to this conflict with in myself. The self being the Anti-christ and the truth being christ. I call and ask the spirit to show me, but how would I know it is not the anti-christ deceiving me. The self wants me to be stuck in a cycle seeking and seeking for a truth that is not. could it be that the only way to find it is where you can not look? A place that has no placeless or shape, or address. The place where no man could go, a place where truth is. A seeming place that the true self is. can you find it? No, you are it.

I think, therefor I am separate. The first few lessons of the workbook remind us that the thoughts we have now are all of the past. If there is no past, then I have no thoughts, and the world we see is the thoughts we think. So the world must not be if the past is not. If I am Now, why do I see the past? I must be only the belief I am past, as if in one moment I started to remember the past moment. Then remembering more and more of the past moments lived, this being a landslide of thoughts and beliefs, mixing up the cause with the effect. the choice to remember the past is the choice to forget the cause. But if I am the cause how can I forget myself. The seeming projection on the world around us and blame, keeps us from finding it. Was it an ego that started this war? or was an ego created because of the war. When I chose to think and remember, the concepts about the self, where stored in a vault of 'memory' and then based the 'new' self off of the memories of the self before. To forgive yourself, is to forgive the concepts of the self. To be born again is to realize a new moment is a whole new self and can choose again to be the war or the truth. Fight the truth or be the truth? If it is that simple to choose, then why do I still choose to fight the truth and be the cause. If I see the effect I choose to be the cause. If I am in the world, I have chosen to be the devil. Can I choose again? Will I choose again? Will I come to God?

As I walk through the valley of death, I fear no evil for I am the devil him self and everyone fears me. Can I be humble enough to realize I want this world? Can I be humble enough to admit I want God dead, I want his power so I can destroy worlds and crucify the christ for eternity. Can I see I want to be lost in the darkness, when I hide the light in the only place I will never look. Am I Strong enough! Am I willing enough to see that I am the roman empire and the hitler of ages and the darkest demons of the great abuse? How willing am I for truth!?

If I am willing, then I must admit that right now I do not want truth. That I am here in a world and I am looking for the truth. I will never find the truth, for I am the truth. I am the ego that hides, I am the warrior that is fighting the love of god. I am trying to put down my guard, I wish to lay down my sword, I scream for assistance as I am lost in myself. I do not know how to use the key, where is the door to eternity. Father! Father! I lie and lie to myself again and again. I do not know how, I do not know how, I do not know HOW! ...Will you show me, will I be humble enough to follow?

The road to truth is the road I do not see, a road in a placeless place. When I find this road I can not follow it for the road is nowhere, can I trust you to lead me? Can I trust myself to follow? What will I do if I lead, What if I do not know how to follow? The darkest game I play with myself, a game of torture and gore. How do I know when I follow I do not follow myself, deceiving myself. How can I know anything when everything is in me. I am the creator of the world! The world must obey me! I must then run free and safe for I am the boss, I am the chief! I want it this way! ...Is this what I really want?

if I want truth, can I lead? I see and know only the past, where would my leading take me but a place I have been before. A new land must come from a new place. Am I willing to admit I am only the past? I am only in the past? Do I really want more then the past? If it is new, and not of the past, I then must not be able to conceive what it is. I must then have no clue what or where. I only keep myself hidden. Is there a guide for me? One that knows the way, one that sees what I do not know. One that is greater then the walls I have made? A guide not of the world I made, a guide not of the past where I reside. A guide of truth, leading me to truth. Am I humble to follow? If I follow, I must realize I know nothing, for everything I know is past, and deceiving. So I admit it, I do not know. I act as if I know so I will hide from truth, I know only that I lie to everyone and thing, I lie to myself, for I wish for my own death. I know not the ways home! I know not the way of truth! I know nothing father! I know nothing! knowing is what got me in this mess. I let go of my knowledge and follow in silence. Lead me father lead me home.

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SeX... Special Love? Open Love?

2009-10-19T05:41:00.005-06:00

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( WIth the teachings and approach of a 'A Course in Miracles' student )

Well with the title I can tell you I woke up just now knowing I should write about it, yet I have fear and blocks with all areas of this subject. With out using my past as an excuse just a very brief background. I was raised LDS aka Mormon and in the deepest teachings of the church it says sex should only be between a married man and women, who wish to have children and it can only be in missionary stile. Now most mormons don't even know this, but it is true in utah it is a old ancient law that only missionary position is legal. as well as premarital sex is illegal, these laws are in the books, but not enforced at all. Brigham Young was a 'Prophet' of the church and founded Utah creating these laws, which have only been grandfathered in to todays books.

I am spinning of the subject but I wanted to give you an Idea where Sex is in the eyes of the people I was raised by. I have fear about talking about this and getting into it. Yes it seems true I am a man, and do have seeming urges as a man for a women's body. Is it about upstanding from sex? What do I feel spirit teaching me in this subject I would like to pass on and share with you. Of course sex involved two (or more) bodies with the exception of toys and lotions, if it can really be called sex. But how can a spiritual teaching, or teacher talk about or do this act when it is God it seeks, almost as if they are two ends of the spectrum and God is seeming on the good side, in contrary to most men my age believe, and desire. So it seems the ego would like sex to be a bad thing, and the desire for a body to be a 'moral' sin. What if it wasn't? What if its not about the bodies at all? What if even when I think I want sex, I really want God, but I hide my idea of god behind the body of a beautiful woman?

There has been talk around here that the 'URText' of 'A Course in Miracles' says that it is not sex that is the problem but that you think you can get pleasure from it that is. Meaning from my perspective is that the pleasure is not in sex in two ways, one being when you think your pleased your really lying to yourself, because deep down you really want these bodies to be real and so you get then to 'feel' as much as possible and hurt as much as possible, almost as if it also is a punishment for those imprisoned in the fleshy body. And two being you think that in the body of another there is something that your missing, and you need to rip them open t find it, or shove them inside to get it. As if the part that you don't have can be some how transfered of to you if there is enough friction, with so many orgasms and bighting and scratching as possible. As if our only goal was God, and its in you so lets go Fuck! Assuming that the closeness of the bodies could enhance it or bring god together.

Well in my understanding of this is God is in the person you desire, because they are in your minds, and God is the mind in which you think. God is not out there in a body you can get closer to. the body in front of you is not closer or farther to you even if it was running away (Naked for fun) the body in front of you is in your mind, it never was out there, only your belief said it was out there, because it seems to have a mind of its own and life of its own free will. So if the body I wish to have sex with for an example is simply in my head why do I need to go to it and get close to it, when I am it. Couldn't tell you, this really is the logic and insanity of the ego. But it all relies on one truth. Is it true that all things are in the mind of the dreamer?

If I come from a place of loss, or a place that I think I do not have something or someone and I can get it from the other, then I believe that I am separate and I believe that the secret to all the universe is in that body, and not in a tree (less your paul) Then I believe it is in that body and not in a car or a house or a pile of deep dog shit. So as the story goes I would much rather be humping a smooth body then a pile of dog doo doo. Is that special? apsilutly, my UN-willingness to be open to the whole illusion is insanity, to think that one body shape illusion is more then a doo doo or car shaped illusion. They are all illusion, they are not different in anyway. Now of course I don't mean you can go get pleasure out of humping a muffler (which is illegal in North decoda) I mean you can't get pleasure from any of them, nothing in form is pleasurable. Its like Pornography there is no pleasure in watching it, tell you turn your head a bit and start coming from a place where you think you can get something from it. the pleasure was and is a choice in our minds, lets go there yes Sex Dreams or in my case Wet Dreams.

A dream where it seems as if you engage in an activity that seems to give your body pleasure and even to the brink of orgasm. a wonderful display of the pleasure being in our minds. To get you deeper to understanding this, a bit about dreams. Dreams are the chose of your seeming mind thinking and imaging events or situations that you desire or fear. So in other word your mind it thinking! Your mind thinks! great this is good, your mind seems to think. Well the point is when you woke from the dream where you just got a "Nice piece of ass" and happened to ejaculate in your shorts... did you really get a "nice piece of ass" in this seeming reality you woke up to? No it was all in your mind, even the "nice piece of freaking ass". So must I wait to get pleasure when it is in my mind? It would then seem I could just choose not to get aroused and ejaculate here in my pants wile I am typing this up. is that possible? Some would question it of course, but why do you question is the question, because we believe in some illusions being different then other illusions. As if the imaginations of our seeming mind was not real and the body in front of us was. What if that body was you still in a dream? it would feel real, it would look real... but this time it really was not apart from you imagination, it WAS your imagination! So is my goal to get allot of imaginary "nice piece of holy freaking ass"?

My goal is not to be a celibate monk or a dude that gets allot of "ass". I choose to follow guidance, for the healing of mind from all these crazy ideas of seeming levels in a illusionary world and mind that thinks it is apart from it. My goal is to not say no, no try and get it. for there is no difference. my goal is to treat everyone like I treat dog shit... ok maybe not like that. But I think you get the idea, the goal is to have no judgments in their differences. All my brothers are one, all my brothers and sisters are welcome to my bed. I do not run and I do not force. I except life as it is, for there is not a difference in two or many illusions they are all the same illusion. Now now I am open for full healing of mind. Now I am willing to go where ever the spirit guides me, even if it means in bed with my ‘Enemy'. Would it guide me to my humiliation and darkest grief?

Guidance seems to be a tricky thing in these parts of the mind. The ego so easily wants to say, "what kind of holy spirit tells me to go have sex with a married women, or even sex at all" Again as if there was a difference with a married women and non married women, or even a man, or even sex as the action or eating... different illusions in a one illusional world, what makes them different? Judgment of the mind. and as I said, my goal is to have no judgments. So if it was true that guidance did tell you to have sex with a married women (as an example) it is not necessarily saying do it, no is it necessarily saying don't. Beyond the words it says heal your mind of these judgments, heal your mind that you believe and think there is a difference in two illusions. they are the same, and they are all illusion. It seems many would have fear if the new guidance was telling to be with a married women, for all the consequences and meanings that we have behind it, it IS a holy freaking commandment for peat sake! This fear about that, is a fear of a judgment, a judgement is a belief in thought, thinking it is separate... Heal your mind of judgment, Forgive yourself, forgive others, they never were real and they never were different. illusion is all illusion. So then where is the best place to "Do it"?

Is it in the pool, or the beach? in the rain or a graveyard? in bed or a tree? On top or on me? on TV or on youtube? on the short or on the Long? To me it is the same place it always has been, the best place to make some sweet love music is in your mind, for there is no place out of it. Where? is not the question, but from where am I? is closer to placing it properly. How do I see this person? do I see then a separate and in this action am I gaining? or do I realize they are one with me passionately loving the self. The mind in which I think is God, in truth it is beyond form completely and Sex has nothing to do with truth just as much as God loves chocolate cake. Pleasures of the world are not bad, it is only the mistaken idea that you think you get pleasure from them. Some say a state of nirvana is as an orgasm as I would have to agree. It is also said that enlightenment is a feeling of continues perfect orgasm. Is this the goal? Joy is the goal, bodies only reflect the ideas the mind has. To realize joy constantly, your body will feel joy the same way. The question is really, do I feel my body?

The body and feeling is the confusion of cause and effect, to jump striate to it. The mind produces all the pleasures of the world, yet we think they are in the world. I have found I can choose to be drunk if I wish to be drunk, and its cheep too because I do it with out alcohol. If I wish to be High, I meditate on it, for a moment and I start tripping out as if I was. I learned from this that it really is and always was just a choice in my mind. Magic is thinking that Pot has the ability to make you choose, as in if I smoke it I will have no choice but to be high. But in the choice to 'seemingly' smoke it, you choose to be hight too. but in your mind. The choice is in the mind, it always was. So I can and always do, choose first to have pleasure then project that pleasure in the world and deny myself of that pleasure tell I get the projection back. As if the projection really left. What a relief, it is still where it always has been. I bring it back to its origin and responsibility I take. The question is, is there really or can there ever be responsibility for illusions? ...Only in insanity.

So many students of the course still say that sex is a distraction, or anything at all could be. lets take meditation for an example. most people think meditation can ONLY be done in silence. Yes it is easer to start learning meditation in silence but a true meditator can meditate in all noise, not because he is a master but because he realizes the noise is the manifestations of his mind. Where is the noise? It is in my mind. The noise will sooth you as you realize the truth for it is not about noise it is about you. Is sex a distraction, only when you think of it like noise coming from outside, appose to coming from your mind. Its not about not doing it, nor is it about doing it... it is about truly fully excepting everything in you.

So I conclude, will I have sex with you? YES!!! of course I will, I am a young man after all. lol But as I have been saying, in truth it is impossible to have sex with you, for you are in my mind, and I am a thought in God. In truth you can't do anything wrong, because you can't really do anything. You are at peace, and there is nothing to disturb it, and I mean there is nothing. Yes I am here to heal my pain and problems, but also I am here to heal my pleasures also. I want truth above all else, and I am willing to do and go anywhere for it, I follow where I am guided.

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I can't do anything wrong, for I am Spirit.

2009-10-15T10:51:00.002-06:00

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A wonderful practice in surety has happened often here. one being an example,a few days ago I was very intuned and and meditative. I could feel the deep resonation of the presence of love. I could hear and feel the world around me and remembered that which was laid before me. I was in a state where I was observing the world, including myself and what I would do.

The night before, I was told "You will not be going to NYC" and it brought up anger in me because I wanted to trust that was from spirit. I meditated of the reasoning for going to NYC and found that the reason is clear. I stuck in my surety and even was prompted to get a early bus ticket the next morning. I started looking up and finding out course groups in NYC. I did get very in tune with this as my guidance. I felt myself called downstairs, when the next minute or so, Armelle come up and asked me to join them downstairs. So the guidance and her confirmation I did so very confidently. This is when I was very tuned in and Meditating. We sat together and got very deep in meditation when I mentioned the feelings that I feel I could do something wrong, I felt as if I could screw things up, which is a common feeling in my life. When Armelle looked at me with firm a surety and asked "Who is speaking now" referring to spirit or ego. I distinctively knew I should not answer yet. I felt very peaceful and said "does it matter" "Who is speaking" she said again and again, and trying to get me to answer, with her raised voice she insisted on my answer "I am" I said, "I am speaking" "your avoiding the question" she said.

Finally I felt guided and I said "Spirit Speaks" "Who speaks?" she yelled, "Spirit speaks" I stated, and to my very much surprise, she said "Then you can not do anything wrong". ...My mind was blown! My mind went empty... If I trust I am coming from spirit, I must trust everything I do and say is so. I realized fully in that moment that it is simply the idea that I could do something wrong that is the attack thought. Not the action at all. I knew this in my mind, yet now I really felt it and it was clear. I am Spirit, I am the wholly Spirit and the ego thoughts are to think there is another way of being or thinking. With our now joyest laughter we enjoyed a wonderful 20 minutes or so, busting our sides.

It was true, and if I thought it wasn't I simply stopped trusting in it, that is all. Does not trusting make it a fact? No I can not do anything about it, What I am is the spirit, and everything I do is guided by spirit, for I allow it through... no thought can get me to think I am wrong, or else spirit is wrong and that is impossible.

No Private Thoughts & No state of Lack

2009-10-14T15:55:00.006-06:00

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A wonderful practice we have here at the awakening mind community is 'No Private Thoughts'. The purpose of this are many, yet the main purpose is to expose the hidden tricks of the ego. The ego thinks it can have Private thoughts and ideas, as it is what believe it is separate and has a separate life from others. This in truth is false, there are no privet areas or thoughts, or life. So no longer will I hide, thinking I can do something wrong or say a seeming 'inappropriate' or 'dis-respectful' thing. So below is a letter to a wonderful reflection of the son of god. I am putting the no Private thoughts into practice, and even more so wile I publish it on-line. It is wonderful because the fear that comes up in me, when I am doing this is a "block" to the awareness of true Love's presents. Now it comes up and I choose again and forgive it as a false thought.

Jess and I met on on www.ACIMChat.Ning.Com in the chat box there, as soon as we met we both felt a strong connection and knew allot of healing will take place between us. As it has been for me with many people, the reason I do thing has become into question. From this letter to now, I have learned that it is not about what I do, but how I do it. Meaning with the surety of the spirit, knowing that I am perfect and pure, and there is nothing I can do about it. I am perfect and can't screw it up. I had thoughts that maybe I was drawn to Jess, and people of the past because I was attracted to them. "All bodily impulses are misinterpreted Miracle impulses" Means that when one thinks it is about the body, it is a misunderstood. It is a call to the unity of mind. It is one way of healing. we could say healing is letting down the walls and barriers that we call self concepts, that really do not allow us to be our deepest truth. Any time one is called to another in anyway, we can trust that it is for the healing of Mind. Wile used properly the proses will remove these concepts and feelings to allow your truth through more and more. The question is, How willing are you to face the fear that seems to be in your way of exposing and following.

For a bit of background, Jess also expressed a thought of traveling with me around the country, She had already planned on going on a trip alone and asked the spirit for someone to travel with. We came together on the chat, almost at the same time and it all fell into place.

I am completely willing, and this is my letter to Jess about a week ago.

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Jess,

Here I am at 5 in the morning and I can't seem to get my mind off of you, and your presence. I told you how important it was to be open and expose thoughts. So here I am, I would like to tell you how my mind seems to be grabbing this, and were it seems to be taking me. Something I mentioned to you was how every desire we have is really a miss interpreted call to remembering truth. I am coming to realize this reality more with your presence in my mind. It seems as thou I am very attracted to you, and there are many things my mind thinks about doing with you. I have been taken on a journey in remembering that all the world is in the mind, and every seeming body is also in that mind, as I (being a body) desire your body or presence, as if it were different then others bodies or presence, then yes I have made it "special" yes to the idea that all is mind this really is not a problem for the desire of us to be together is a desire for these two 'portion's of mind to join. Yet this is very tricky because this has nothing to do with bodies. the bodies joining is only a symbol of the mind joining first. The Mind being everything must remain open to everything, or it seems to favor one illusions with another illusions, they are both illusions. There are no levels to the illusions, but that level of realization that it is all mind. As I grasp this more I loose it, for the holding the thought in mind is to make it "special" and think a thought can be better or greater then another.

The goal is to remember the unity of illusions and the unity of mind, and tell the difference of each other. The fact is I really have no clue what that means or could begin to describe it to you, for the life stile it all holds is a floaty fluffy life that really makes nothing "special" intern making everything "special". Can that be described, only with the examples of life experience. For one, if you and I traveled together we would fall even more for each other, but I give everything to the mercy of the holy spirit, and he uses it for healing. As every relationship there are difficulties, but these will have to do with being open. The ego will fight with the willingness to be open in every area. I am in the practice of treating all illusions as illusions, and exposing them. So to be forward about this, I do not want to restrict myself from loving everyone in every way, and neither of is going to take this peacefully. But eventually as our willingness is high, we will find unity of illusions and realize all bodies are the same, and all relationships are open.

What I am trying to say is we will learn allot from each other, and it will seem hard at times but this is the healing. Holy spirit orchestrates it perfectly to flow in the healing of mind. I give it all up for healing, even my idea of you, and desire to be and talk to you. What he does with it is un-known to me now, so I trust that its the good of the mind, not necessarily good for me, or you.

My only goal is the peace of God, working with you, goal remains the same. I know you too can use our relationship to for this same purpose. If that means just friends, great. If that means more, or less, Great. I only desire the peace of God, and trust the path before me is leading to that. A part of me wants to think it should not think of you 'specially' and to keep it together. I just now vaigly see, that this is another barrier i hold. I have to admit I am attracted to many people and very much to you, and many times I think it is physically. But as I think about it being the true desire for healing, I must be open that it just might be the spirit bringing us together. I am willing to follow all the feelings I have, trusting it is spirit. I do not want to judge my feelings, I will let him judge them for me. So I lay them out on the table, I do want to be with you in a close passionate way. The connection and call is very deep, and I know you feel the same.

I hope we both follow and continue to trust, we are in good hands. I would love for you to travel with me, the lessons we would learn are endless. When ever you are ready and let go of your life, your new life is ready, and gently is it placed in your possession.

With Peace I am allways here with You.
-Devan J. Byrne

PS Your fear shows you where the light is hidden. Squeeze through the fear and find your peace.

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Below is another letter to here about being in the right mind.

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Jess,

One question we ask ourselves here, is "do I do this from a place of lack" meaning do I think I will gain something in a situation that I do not have now. This is very tricky for me because the reason most of us are on a spiritual journey is because we feel we are missing something in our lives. So we are constantly searching for something that is now here, as if there is a answer out there in the world but we continue filling this whole with every book and word of thought or religion we feel good with at the time. This is a distinct sign that one would be in the wrong mind. I do not mean don't do, go or be that thing, but realize that your worth is not in that thing, or in that person, or that place.

Today I had the thought that if I was unsure if I was in a place of lack or not, I could ask myself one easy question. "Would I be more happy with it, then I am with out it?" "would I feel better with it, then I do with out it?" or "DO I feel less now, then I will when I_____". These meaning, if answered yes, "I am not in-touch with my truth, which needs nothing, and can not gain or louse." So clearly in the perception of mind that is not most helpful for the healing of old belief systems.

With the situation before us I would like to keep my mind on the firm choice to stay in the right mind. So anytime I feel I could gain something with being with you for an example, I am coming from the state of lack. In order to stay in a state were nothing is needed, or avoided I must realize I am not a part of this world and what I do, I really do not. It seems to be an idea to allow myself to do whatever I want to do, but it is not. In that place you do not strive for or fight for, those things you think you need. You trust and continue to trust that everything you "need" will be pervided for. Less you get a strong push or inspiration to do something, you do not need to do it. When you do do something you do it trusting that you are in the write mind. Knowing that it will not make you better, happier, grater, or more. Nor will it make you less, sadder, painful, or fearful. Your truth is unshakable and the conditions of yourself can not change, even when it seems the world around you does. What I do does not matter, where my mind is, does.

As you said it seems as though our only lack is to the awareness of Loves presence, really being an awareness you can not lack it but only act as if you do not. Love is alway there, so really the awareness of it is nothing but an acceptance or acknowledgement that it is there. The course is here to teach us the awareness by teaching us everything love is not. We then must learn that everything we thought it was, was wrong. This is so great because it bring so much joy to realize you do not need to lean or strive for the 'gaining' of love for it is here. But the trick is that even as I have nothing and have been hurt by someone is, it is still here. The love is not in me, the love is not in a event or a path or a thing, or any person. It is only in you. I can only help you to remove the blocks to its presence. Al relationships are for this purpose, all life is for this purpose. I am willing to follow guidance and do what needs to be done, to be truly helpful in assisting your awareness, as too with everyone. for all I do is heal myself, from self-hood.

-Devan J. Byrne

'A Course in Miracles' Students regarding morality and values.

2009-10-10T06:26:00.001-06:00

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As I woke up 5 minutes ago Someone asked me in my dream about 'A Course in Miracles' Students and their morality and values, the spirit in me spoke back as I was waking up. In the dream I had Seville piercing including two ear and my dimples piercing and many tattoos. As this person asking me I could tell was someone from my past, a member of the "Church of Jesus Christ of Ladder day Saints" (LDS / Mormon) They hold strong values and treat their bodies as temples, of holy value. I seeming to have grown up as a Mormon, and do not hold myself to the standards that they wish for me. This is How the question and answer went as spirit filled my mind, and continues to in this moment.

Q: As I see students of the course loose their standards and morality I do not see why I would want to be a part of something that allows someone to loose the value for themselves and tolerate treating themselves with a lack of respect. Why would Jesus ask someone to not respect who they are.

A: As the students appear to loose standards, and morality. Their value and respect as been increase and directed more intently at their source. As it may seem one looses their respect for them selves because they get a tattoo or piercing, it is achally the opposite. If they understand properly, truly they gained a respect for themselves that they no longer need to cover up and hide with these images of seeming morality. They allow them selves to follow out of a divine purpose, not a purpose of high appearance. For when it appears they have lost value for them selves, they really have increased their value for their true selves and let themselves be themselves. If they do the course properly, they no longer hiding their hatred and depression for themselves under a false impression, seeming to be trustable. They realize the Life they live now, dose NOT determine the value of who they truly are. As they find their true-selves their care or their image is not in priority. Their new found priority is in their source, the father that created them. They realize what they do and say is not a form of worship, but a form of loosing worship. They no longer desire to Lie to themselves and fear the judgment of others, for only the judgment of their creator matters. They come to realize they have been judged by their creator and they were found purely innocent and free. For it is not what they do that determines their value but who they are, and always have been. As they study the course they realize the identity they have held, was a image they have made and not anything like who they truly are. Out of respect they let their borders down and no longer judge what they do, say, act or wear.

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I realized as I woke up fully, I used this dream as a symbol for my own seeming "lack" in morals. I realized I feel and judge that way about myself and about others who do have many piercing and tattoos. I have come out of this journey with a new tattoo, but simply because I do not need to judge that I do. But only that which I am, and that is truly pure and innocent of everything the ego seems to wish, or desire to do to itself. I forgive myself of these belief systems, I forever hand them to you spirit, do with them that would most help the whole.

With Peace I am allways here with You.
-Devan J. Byrne

Teach me to Walk in the Light of his Love

2009-10-07T10:48:00.001-06:00

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As I was under the water in the shower this morning, I remembered how passionately I sang the songs on my church. I would fall asleep at night singing music. But I realized this morning, I always sang to God, not to others. A song of worship and prase. The particular song I thought of this morning was one I sang to God alot, I remember being in bed Looking at the stars on my sealing and truly believing that I would be taught by God. I came to realize this was the beginning of my call to god, when he began to speak back, and I was open enough to hear. Tell this day I sing this song, I have know idea what will be taught I only know he is teaching me what I do not remember.

The first verse is the only verse I sang, and is the one that I sang to God, as he sang back.

As you may have noticed the second verse is a parent singing back to the child. Saying that they know the way, follow me. I sang it to God, God sang back. To this day I am be taught by God, not a church or religion. I see that no one knows the way, but that who is a voice for god. I listen today for I know god speaks.

I am Not

2009-10-03T11:17:00.000-06:00

I am Not what I do, I am Not what I say.
I am Not what I think, I am Not what I am.
I am Not where I am, I am Not where I am not.
I am Not my feelings, I am Not my Pain.
I am Not my joy, I am Not my joy!
I am Not anything I think I am.
I am Not anything I don't think I am.
I am Not my words, I am Not my ideas.
I am Not my talents, I am Not my fears.
I am Not my body, I am Not my hatred.
I am Not my loss, I am Not Gain.
I am Not emptiness I am Not fullness,

I am Not of the world, I am Not perceivable,
I can not be comprehended, I am not an Idea.

...I am More, Much More.

Travels of the desist

2009-09-30T10:26:00.000-06:00

I came to a conclusion the other day, I am Died... and have yet to realize it. In the movie 'Passengers' this is the theme and I am starting to think even if I was I still would have no idea, because I hide it from myself. Anything hidden is hidden, and every time you think you can find it you play a game with your mind acting as if it knew what to look for, when it is what hides it. The goal of the 'Ego' is seek and do not find. This is precisely what we do, even those of us that say we seek and we do find, for really to seek at all, is the game and it can not be won. Finding dose not involve seeking but only full openness. The word "Full" is tricky here because we want to so habitually to put a cap on our openness and say that some things are "not needed" to be said, ah the tricks of the mind to keep us in the cycles of a dog chasing its tale, some of us are lucky and have long tales, and ketch it. Yet few of us stop to think "am I really a dog?"

My letter in return to a letter from my biological father.

2009-09-21T09:54:00.000-06:00

I can not really explain what I have been though or what I am really doing on this trip, it appears that my body is meeting others and conversing and teaching what I know and understand. But it is not the meaning of my journey, My journey is fully dedicated to that which is revealed to me. Even as Joseph Smith I went to Heavenly Father with all of my questions, I am sure you remember me asking many many questions. As a teen I started to ask above instead of in my mind or a book, or even you. As I laid in bed a very destink Audible voice that spoke with such certainty would answer my questions. This voice and another voice was trying to teach me, yet this other voice was not firm and certain, it was a voice that seemed to 'bounce around' allot or 'waver' even in its voice as if it was very inpatient and paranoid, but trying not to be. This other voice seemed to shout, and make choices out of fear of the other voice.

I would write down these short notes and answers I received from the firm voice. Then it said I could listen to him louder and stronger if I practice silencing the other 'Un-certain voice'. So when I was about 16 I began to meditate, on instruction of this voice. I learned to meditate from this source only. I would not sleep, but continue to communicate with this voice of certainty. At the time I had no idea I could use this voice in everyday life, as a "Guidance" nor did I try.

I was in fear of you and others would say as I claimed to be talking with the 'Holy Ghost'. I remained very active in the church reading the scripture and correlating the voice with then. Yet the greatest difference between the voice and scripture was that God condemned and then forgave in the scripture, and to the voice God loved us so much he never condemned and forgiven us instantly. This to me was a very big difference, this would mean no matter what happens, God excepts everyone back home. I to feel this way, a God of Un-conditional Love and acceptance, is free of all judgment and sees only our perfect holiness home with him.

I continued to follow the voice and my patriarchal blessing, for when they lined up and said the same thing, I knew I could do follow. I would read and find “Seek ye out of the best books words of wisdom.” and the voice would help me find them, leading me right to them at the store or on the internet. First it was books in the church, then also in other churches. It took me to Massage Therapy school where I met Ronna, and also found the energy healing. I decided not to restrict this voice for its guidance seemed to bring me to places where I learned and found more knowledge. I even became a 'Master' a prodigy of sorts in this healing, for I worked with this voice. Very quickly I learned the way of an open mind, not judging this voice, but trusting it. I started to say what this voice told me to say to people, some in which would reveal secrets or a way out of their situations, and pain. People started coming to me to receive 'answers' to their seeming troubles and problems. I would ask the voice and tell them what it said.

So long I hid this from the judgment of the family because I knew you all would say exactly what you are. The firm voice is my direct communication with the Holy Spirit, it guides me and leads me to realization of the Father. I had the 'dream' of the earth quake when I asked the voice about 2012, it showed me many things. Including myself walking and traveling around extending and teaching of the endless compassion and un-conditional love of the Father. The more I followed this voice, the more I had the "Daja vous”, they came from following the voice, the firm certain voice.

I do not wright this letter to you out of my own defense, but that for your knowledge of who I have become. In my patriarchal blessing it did mention that I would serve a full time mission in the field, as I saw myself traveling I realized this was what it spoke of. a service mission for what I understand as truth. I came to realize that in all religions there is a fundamental truth, a deeply rooted feeling and knowledge of a 'Divine' Father. In all religion you must search under their traditions and stories and get to the root. Surprisingly this root is the same in every every one. under ALL churches including LDS the truth sits very quietly speaking to you waiting for you to really truly desire truth. So many of us run in circles getting no where, because we think we know what we want. I want truth, and that is all. I can not say what Truth is, but only that it is the same everywhere for everyone.

I trust that even as it may appear to "lead me astray" I will arrive in a truth even the LDS church tries to hide with traditions and beliefs. I am following this voice above all scriptures and all teachers, its only desire for me is eternal and perfect happiness. It can not lead me to torment or pain, it can only show me what I am hiding from. I am confident that a Father of Love would understand that even if it was wrong, he let me go there and would be in the wrong as much as I. But if it was right, he would show me signs that tell me I am going the right way, as he has.

I am not concerned for the disasters of the world, because I am not of the world. I put the kingdom of heaven first (Luke 17:21 - Neither shall they say, Lo here! or, lo there! for, behold, the kingdom of God is WITHIN you.) and therefor all else is taken care of. I trust and have faith that no matter how scary it gets I was and never will be forsaken. I am sustained by the Love of God, and need nothing but the truth he offers me, in my following I choose to receive.

I am not a member of any church, but only that church of my truth with in. I understand the truth by my own personal experience, not by study of others experience. I will continue to follow, the voice of God and not get information from other sources. I do not argue with you, for it is impossible for me to prove this to you. If I am lead back to the LDS belief system, then I am open and will return. I will not return out of my own fear, or knowledge.
"I know who I am, I know Gods plan and I follow him in Faith."

I entered into the Kingdom of heaven, and have been sealed for eternity with God, as you are my brother I am sealed with you always, equally we are given the truth of the father and together we receive. I speak with often the father, and the son. I have been visited by Michael and Tyler also grandma Bernard and lucky. I never stray father then the love takes me. The path I walk is firm and straight as I am lead by the voice of certainty. I fear nothing as I trust the voice is my life.

Be open to a chance that maybe things are a little different then you think they are. You told me that the church was the only thing that ever really worked, and you never found anything that worked better. I have and it is with in the Kingdom.

I see the face of the Lord always, in everyone.
-Devan J. Byrne

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if you wonder what he said, here is his letter to me. with LDS or Mormon terms and references.
He wrote this letter FIRST, and the above was my responce back to him.

Dear Devan,

Devan, I’m sorry that it’s taken me so long to write, so, I’m just going to write from my heart. I’m also writing to Ronna because you both mean so much to me, your Mom and the rest of the family. Mom came home from Melina’s shower and what she was most excited about? A “hug” she got from Ronna and couldn’t quit talking about how wonderful it was to see and be with her again.

How are you doing my son? I hope that all is well, I am concerned about you and your travels. Son, if there is any way we can help you, please let us know.

I’m also concerned that either the flu and shots and the possible financial crash, etc., it could happen at any time. They seemed to have delayed it for some reason, but some thing is still going to happen one of these days, or they wouldn’t be making all the preparations – I hope you can make it home safely before something does happen. I still worry about you and Ronna and want the best for both of you and to help you in any way possible.

You know from your own dreams and visions that things are really going to get bad and no matter what we do – the things we see, are going to come about, otherwise they wouldn’t be a true dream or vision.

But what is really true, you and I have had a lot of "Daja vous” experiences where we can remember doing, being or seeing previously. I used to think that meant that I was doing what I was supposed to do. The Lord has taught me, through several not so pleasant experiences, that what I was doing wasn’t necessarily “right”, but that the Lord knew that I would do those things and they became a learning experience in our eternal progression. But it doesn’t mean what we are doing during the "Daja vous" is always in the right direction, just that we would make those choices and I had seen the results of my decisions.

As I get older, I have come to realize how important my lessons have been and how wrong I have been at times, thank goodness for repentance! Thus, why I had to write to Ronna and ask for her forgiveness. But it’s interesting to recall the "Daja vous" of working with you at Letter-Pops.

Devan you are having experiences – BUT YOU STILL HAVE TO FULFILL YOUR MAIN LIFE’S MISSION as stated in your patriarchal blessing.

I was impressed to read your blessing once again and found many special things stand out. First and foremost is how much Father-in-Heaven loves you, thus Ronna also.

On March 2, 1985 Brother May laid his hands on your head and under the direction of the Lord gave unto you the information that you needed to know to make it to the Celestial Kingdom, which is where Father wants you to end up.

Devan, I’ve always known that we had special “blood” and thought that it might have been from our heritage. Since then, the Lord has taught me differently. Because of events that have happened lately I now know it’s because of who we were in the pre-existence when we were with our Father and Mother in Heaven. Almost all major religions refer to two common events, the war in heaven, the flood and the ark.

The war in Heaven caused 1/3 of Father’s children to be cast down to earth where they would influence all mankind who have bodies to not accomplish their mission in life so they will end up as miserable as they are in the eternities. They even try to possess our bodies if they can, they still do that today. But, one of the ways they work the hardest is to try to “influence”, especially the “good” people of the earth, to believe that which is not true. For example, if we use the Bible as our guide, these spirits want to convince us to believe in concepts that aren’t true. Remember when our Baptist Minister friend Blake tried “share” with me why Mormons “aren’t Christian”. Both of our religions use the King James version of the Bible. He was reading from his computer various passages that, to him, showed there is just one God and not three separate beings as we believe. All the passages he quoted, fit with both his and my concepts of God and then he said: “He just wanted me to know why we weren’t Christian.” He thought that I should have been convinced of his view of one God. My next question to him was: “Is that all, what about some of the other scriptures???”

I then mentioned the baptism of Jesus and how he went down into the water with John and was baptized, afterward the Holy Ghost or the “Spirit of God descending like a dove” and ”lo a voice from heaven, saying, This is my beloved Son, in whom I am well pleased.”

Matthew 3:16-17
16 And Jesus, when he was baptized, went up straightway out of the water: and, lo, the heavens were opened unto him, and he saw the Spirit of God descending like a dove, and lighting upon him:
17 And lo a voice from heaven, saying, This is my beloved Son, in whom I am well pleased.

I pointed out that is why we believe there are Three “separate” beings rather than the “Trinity” which is three being in one, since we believe what is written in the bible and there were definitely three separate beings mentioned in this one event, that is what we believe.

I then asked Blake about when Stephen was stoned to death and why there is once again three separate beings mentioned:

Acts 7:55-56
56But he, being full of the Holy Ghost, looked up steadfastly into heaven, and saw the glory of God, and Jesus standing on the right hand of God
56And said, Behold, I see the heavens opened, and the Son of man standing on the right hand of God.

He cut me of pretty quickly before I could bring up other examples such as after Christ was resurrected when Mary went to the tomb and Christ said that he hadn't ascended to Father yet:

John 20: 14-18
14 And when she had thus said, she turned herself back, and saw Jesus standing, and knew not that it was Jesus.
15 Jesus saith unto her, Woman, why weepest thou? whom seekest thou? She, supposing him to be the gardener, saith unto him, Sir, if thou have borne him hence, tell me where thou hast laid him, and I will take him away.
16 Jesus saith unto her, Mary. She turned herself, and saith unto him, Rabboni; which is to say, Master.
17 Jesus saith unto her, Touch me not; for I am not yet ascended to my Father: but go to my brethren, and say unto them, I ascend unto my Father, and your Father; and to my God, and your God.
18 Mary Magdalene came and told the disciples that she had seen the Lord, and that he had spoken these things unto her.

The Bible is just full of examples as to why we believe in three separate “Gods” rather in three beings in one God theory that was put forth in the Nicean Creed around 300 A.D. and is referred to as the Trinity.

What was interesting about that experience with Blake is that he was so shook up that he never tried to talk about religion to me again. As you know before that conversation he was always bringing up some religious topic and trying to show me why we were wrong. I had learned as a missionary, that it was never good to Bible bash, so I never confronted him on what he was saying, the event mentioned before was not confrontational, but he allowed me time to talk.

It has always amazed me that people claim to “have the truth” and don’t listen to the revelator of truth, the Holy Ghost. Blake knew that I was pointing out the truth, but he deliberately had to ignore what I had pointed out to him because he wanted to believe what he was taught rather than listen to the Holy Ghost and follow the truth. Why people claim to follow the Holy Ghost, then reject truth, I don’t know. Truth is truth and if the Holy Ghost only reveals truth, they must be getting information from a different source. If anyone will truly listen to the Holy Ghost they will be lead to the truth and to the restored gospel and the truths therein, any other teachings have many truths, but they unfortunately have some untruths that can deceive and mislead people. I’ve had many people during my many years of church service, both members and non-members, tell me that they have been guided by the spirit and then what they do, say, etc. shows that they believe in many untruths, so they are getting information from a different source. The Holy Ghost cannot lie or mislead, he is part of the Godhead and leads us to and teaches us only truth. Many good People are converted to the church because when they hear about three separate beings they already believe that and didn’t realize their church believed in the Trinity and they didn’t.

If we are not being lead to the truth, we are listening to some of the 1/3 of the hosts of heaven that were cast out. They also speak unto our spirits freely, but with the intent to destroy us in the end. You have heard me talk about how amazed I was that how many of the murderers say that they “heard a voice that told them to do it.” Most people don’t hear a voice telling them to kill someone, but most people are influenced by the fallen angels or even hear voices that mislead or deceive us concerning religion.

I’m also amazed by people who say the church is wrong and never read the Book of Mormon cover to cover, with the intent to really find out if it is really true. Blake said he read it twice, but one time told me that he didn’t believe it and read it just to be able to show his congregation why it was not true. With that approach, do you ever think that Father is going to let him know it is true? We need to read it, with real intent to know for ourselves whether or not it is true – lest we will be held responsible and be part of the force of Satan’s lies.

Well, Devan, back to your blessing. You were told that talks by your leaders and at General Conference “will guide you and help you to solve problems that are occurring in your life.”

You were blessed in that blessing with the following: “that the greatest event than (that) can ever happen to you in this life will occur...One day you will kneel at an alter in one of our Heavenly Father’s temples, and there clasp the hand of a young maiden of Zion who will love you very much. There you will be sealed for all time and eternity.” What a beautiful blessing, what a special and what a wonderful wife you have. Notice that it says “sealed” rather than “married”, a sealing is what is performed after you are married otherwise. What a great event it will be when the family can be with the two of you and after you are sealed, your precious Tyler will then be sealed to you for time and all eternity and we are told that the two of you will be able to finish raising him during the Millenium and be with him in the Celestial Kingdom.

Your Mom and I look forward to raising your Brother Michael.. Michael mission was to receive a body and then help us as a family from the other side of the veil, which he has many times. Tyler to has a mission to help your family these difficult last days, from the other side of the veil and he will. You will find that he will be a great blessing to all of you.

You are told you that you “will have seed, who will have seed.” This can only happen if you live so that you can go into the millennium, because of the events of these last days. It also means that you will have additional children to love and be close to the two of you.

Cody is getting married rather than go on a mission, which his Patriarchal Blessing says he would do. He and our Stake President took it all the way up to the First Presidency of the Church and was told that he would not be able to serve at this time. For a long time I felt that he wouldn’t be going on a mission at this time, I mentioned it to Mom, she got upset with what I felt and ask me not to say anything. After he was told by the Prophet that he couldn’t go yet, I explained to Cody (read more about it in the two papers I have attached) that we are told that during the call out into the wilderness that millions of non-members would come and would need to be taught the restored gospel. That is when he will have the opportunity to teach the gospel as an ordained “Missionary.” At this time “millions will be converted.”

Devan, that is the time when the Lord has also designated you to teach the gospel and be an ordained Missionary. You also will be responsible for converting thousands as you take over a blessing that was given to your Grandpa Barnard. “A mission that will help you, and you will be able to help many others, and touch the lives of many people.”

You can see that your blessing is true revelation, it just didn’t happen as you thought and expected it to happen when you first received it. Perhaps Ronna’s Patriarchal Blessing is the same way, what it says might come about in a different way than she expects! I have just recently understood some of mine, things that I thought would happen a certain way, didn’t and as I look back what happened was in full harmony with my blessing.

You are told that you have the “Gift of Balance: to be able to organize your affairs so that there will be a time for everything.” There will be times that “Lucifer” “will be...throwing his darts” of “temptations” and you will need to be “always on guard” and “carry the great shield of faith with you.” You are told you have the “Gift of Faith”.

I’ve always been awed that you were told what you would be doing to help others: “From time to time you will be able to create and to work with your hands...that will be helpful to others less fortunate than you.”

You were told that you would have “The Gift of Wisdom” and that “you will need to plant wonderful ideas into your mind.” and like your Mom’s blessing you need too: “Seek ye out of the best books words of wisdom.”

You are to: “Store up for a year’s time the necessary amount of food to sustain your family.” “You will also have the opportunity to teach these principles in different capacities in the different wards that you live in.” Sounds like you will be in a number of different church responsibilities.

Your blessing talks about you being involved with the Savior in the first “Resurrection of the Just to enjoy the Millennium.” and “you will be able to visit, from time to time, with the Savior face to face.” Wow, what a blessing. The Lord really does love you.

Devan let me share with you some other things about your blessing that you need to understand. Things that are not stated. I mentioned earlier in the letter that I “always knew that we had special “blood” and thought that it might of been from our heritage, since then the Lord has taught me differently. Because of events that have happened lately I now know it’s because of who we were in the pre-existence when we were with our Father and Mother in Heaven.” In the pre-existence there were those, for some reason, that were given special blessings and assignments of a special life’s mission. We are told that we will not be given the “Mechzedick Priesthood” unless we were given a blessing when we were still in the presence of our Father-in-Heaven that we would have that priesthood. We are told that we “Are a Marked Generation”.

“Make no mistake about it, you are a marked generation…There has never been more expected of the faithful in such a short period of time than there is of us.” “Never before on the face of this earth have the forces of evil and the forces of good been so well organized”…“The final outcome is certain—the forces of righteousness will finally win. But what remains to be seen is where each of us personally, now and in the future, will stand in this battle—and how tall will we stand?”…”While our generation will be comparable in wickedness to the days of Noah, when the Lord cleansed the earth by flood, there is a major difference this time: “God has saved for the final inning some of His strongest children who will help bear off the Kingdom triumphantly. For you are the generation that must be prepared to meet your God. We know not the day or the hour of His coming, but of this you may feel assured, you stand close to the great day of the Lord. In his words of modern revelation we say to you, seek the face of the Lord always. You live in the midst of economic, political and spiritual instability. When you see these signs, unmistakable evidences that His coming is nigh. Be not troubled, but stand in holy places and be not moved until the day of the Lord comes.” President Ezra Taft Benson, “‘You Are a Marked Generation” Ensign, Apr. 1987

Devan, your time will be coming to shine, but right know you have to go through a lot of experiences and be trained by the Lord – and GET READY, but YOUR TIME IS COMING.

Now for the bad news, you have to go through a lot of crap to get ready. Things like not being a part of things, rejection, people disliking you and on and on. Because of who you are from the pre-existence and the blessings you received you have to go through a lot of unpleasant things that really is your own personal plan the Lord has for getting you ready for your mission and the Celestial Kingdom, as an end result. One of my favorite people is Enoch, he brought a huge group of people to perfection and they and their land were all take up from this wicked world. But when the Lord first called him, he questioned the Lord because he was “slow of speech” and the people “hated him.” Christ taught that we are suppose to love our enemies and pray for them who dispitefully use you, why? Because part of their earthly assignment is to help perfect the special pre-existence individuals by trying and testing them. They are actually doing us a favor and blessing us, they really are thinking they are harming us, but just the opposite is true. They help us see how we have to improve and what we need to perfect to obtain the Celestial kingdom.

Devan, I don’t know what your life's mission is, but I know that you don’t seem to know who you really are and that because of who you were in the pre-existence, I know you have a great “life’s mission”, and that you need to prepare for it. I wish that you did know who you really were, but I do know your wife and future family need you. Ronna has a special life’s mission also and needs to also get a glimpse of the great spirit she was in the pre-existence is also, she will also be receiving great joy in fulfilling her life’s mission and in the family she will be having. She’s going to be such a wonderful mother. Tyler will be there at times to help your family and show you his love for all of you. Ronna is going to be a special blessing to her side of the family.

I’ll never forget the amazement I had when we were listening to the lady who had near death experiences. She was telling us about the earthquakes she saw that are going to happen in the future and then you took over the conversation and were telling all about it and she was confirming what you said was correct. Do you remember that? You had seen a vision years before that showed the earth opening up in the Salt Lake Valley and the spaghetti bowl coming down, etc. I had no idea that you had that kind of a dream. I was really impressed.

Very seldom do the righteous who have those types of visions end up being part of the vision, they seem to be more of a warning that if they don’t repent and be righteous and go into tent cities, this is part of what will happen to you and your family and others who don’t go to the wilderness. There is four and 1/2 pages of quotes from the scriptures and prophets about the call out (going into the wilderness, tent cities) in the attachment that I have included, a lot of great information there.

Devan I have expressed to you before that I feel that you have a special mission to perform in the wilderness with your family as you meet the requirements of the Lord to be worthy to go there and then into the wilderness. There are a lot of beliefs of other religions, but I have come to know that the Bible and the restored scriptures are true and will lead us to fulfill our life's mission and get us back to the Celestial Kingdom.

It’s my prayer, as with all of you kids, that Father will be with you and that you will remember what you have been taught and that the Holy Ghost will be with you to continue to teach you truth. I pray that Satan's angels will be stayed in your behalf that they will not be able to teach you partial truths and mislead you with their cunningness.

Son, I love you, we need you back with the family, we need Ronna back with the family, you both mean a lot to us. I ask your forgiveness for the many things I have done and said wrong all these many years, including the things I wrote Ronna about. I have a lot of respect for both you and Ronna and I love both of you and miss both of you. Ronna needs you back as a working husband, did Mom tell you that I am a Missionary at the employment center above Deseret Industries in Provo – I’m being trained and perhaps can help you get a job. There is a lot more resources available, more than I ever imagined there could be - a great help to you. Let us know if you need help getting home for Cody’s wedding.

P.S. I’m attaching three items to this email – an e-mail I’m sending to Ronna and two compilations (PDF’s) of information that I have gathered together from the scriptures about the last days and according to prophecy, that I am giving to the family. Look at all the scriptures about the Lord taking us into the wilderness.

Hello Family

2009-09-21T09:37:00.000-06:00

This is a letter to my family, only a week before I told my family a little about what I was doing. I had received that I would not be making it back for my brothers wedding, this is my explanation in their terms (LDS/Mormon) of what I am doing.

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Hello Family,

I am here in Canada after a week of being here. I would like to be completely honest about what I am to share with you today. What I am here for, is a 'Spiritual study' that I have been involved with for over a year and a half. With out giving the long story, I am very deeply involved with a book called 'A Course in Miracles'. It is a spiritual study that teaches 'mind watching' assisting us to here the holy ghost deeper and more profoundly. Where the Holy ghost's guidance is a everyday/ hour guidance, everything thing I do is to clear my mind to receiving the promptings of the spirit, leading me my own personal way back to heavenly father.

I understand that everyone would like to tell me how I should live, and how I should 'listen' to the holy ghost, I understand what the scriptures say, and I am learning to live that way. You can think of it like a pilgrimage, or a way of a monk, but my life is now to live completely of guidance from the spirit. I have not just had the 'burning in the bosom' but Daily confirmations that what I am doing if the path to truth. I have been Hiding my spiritual life from all of you for some time, as of last sunday, as you know I could no longer hide. I trust that all of you will understand that what I am doing is truly what I feel is right for me now. If I am guided by the spirit to come back to the church, you bet I will.

I have the desire to express my many experiences of knowing this is the way for me, yet with so many I will share the one I had the other day.
out here around the lake there are not many lights and the stars at night shine brightly. I went in preyer as I looks at the sky and asked for a sign that I should be here and am doing the right thing. that second I saw a shooting star. Just like that many times everyday, my path is confirmed. I understand that many of you will like a say in what I feel is guidance, but understand I am putting the guidance of the spirit above all others opinions, thou I am open.

I was in fear when I realized guidance would conflict with Cody's wedding, I felt guilt that said I must go and make it to the wedding. guilt and fear is not guidance, from the holy ghost. over this week I realized that I was fighting the guidance and saying I must make it back. As the miracles keep coming in, I see that following guidance is the most important thing, not just for me but for everyone. I understand the anger or sadness that comes up as I tell you all this, fear and anger is not of God, or the heavenly trinity. To act on or out of fear is not the holy ghost. So clearly I say, I feel at this time, I will not be back for the wedding, thou I do believe I will be shortly after.

My goal here is Peace, Love and Joy. I believe this is God's will for me, and all of us. He wants us to be perfectly Happy, perfectly at peace, and always in Love as Jesus was. If guidance leeds me to a place or a way that is not alined with any of these, I desern that it must not be Gods will, but another.

I trust you all understand that I am leaping with faith into my guidance, trusting it is the Holy Spirit. I will keep you all updated, as far as I feel guided to do so. Thank you everyone, for everything you have done for me. The plan for me now is to follow guidance, and when it tells me to come see you all, I will.

Update on light shinning

2009-09-13T08:40:00.000-06:00

For truth, the divine is the truth that is ultimate. The divine peace is a peace that is everlasting, unwavering and available endlessly to all that desire there of. Our ideas a so stretched from the divine truth, great determination is necessary in braking through our old beliefs systems, resisting our truth, resisting our divine peace of God.

I have had many people ask me "What kind of 'Peace' are you looking for?" I reply with " All peace" they then reply with telling me to get to a christian church and get saved. I tell them I believe there is a Peace that I can uptain in this very moment. "You get saved and you will have eternal peace in heaven with Jesus" "Well then I am saved, for heaven is here, Heaven is now". "This! This is not Heaven, nor will there ever be Heaven on Earth!" "No, you are right there is no heaven on earth, thou heaven is available beyond this earth. The peace I am looking for is Divine, in every way of life, unwavering and unchanging." "Well you gana be searching for along time, cuz you cant find it here" "Yes, I will not find it here on earth, but that in which I am is not of this world it is in peace with god, and any Ideas I have that I am in a different position or place must there for be illusionary for as I am in heaven now I must be lost from knowing myself. Which is my goal, to find myself, in eternal peace with God." "Well I am just saying get yourself to Christian church and your see." "Ok great Thank You! I will keep that in mind, my Friend."

The Body of Devan has appeared to move from Hanover Canada to Hamilton, Past Niagara to Buffalo then Rochester, now on the way to Albany. As We started this journey, out of pride I did not allow myself to use the options which I would trade money for, I give up my pride and continue with trust. On the bus to Albany NY as guidance told me the best way this morning. I trust that even if it is not my way 'by foot' I still am doing what I should do for eternity.

I realized last night as I reminist of my day, That not just a few moments of dajavou but the entier day way a dajavou, all lived befor, all seen and known. Every person I met I recanized, and every place I went was no more interesting then thinking of old memories as a child. Nothing in the day was a saprise, as I lived in the way of the heart. As if all of my life was preparing me for this moment, as thou this moment was the only moment I needed. The present of God is in my hands as I find this moment. Being this moment. What is there to fear, when you remember it all, and you remember well.

Giving the gifts I was given

2009-09-07T15:49:00.004-06:00

I surrender. I no longer desire my personal gain, my personal fame. I give everything I have to you father, everything I have asked for, I have received. I desire nothing of my wishes any more, but that you wish for me. I except that perfect happiness you desire for me. I except the perfect love you hold for me. I wish nothing more, as I have been wishing for much less, now I am ready.

You have given me so many dreams, so many desires, wile I have denied the gift you wish for me. I turn it down and ask for others. when I realized all that your gift was not I realized there is no substitute for the limitless love and edgeless peace you extend to me.

For such a long time I hid away and behind your blessings I asked for. Under the pain I wished for myself. Today I find my desire for your will for me. I give you the gifts you have given, I use all that I once had to remembering your perfect will. What would you have of me father? what would I say to come to they will? Where shall I stand when I receive the grace you still offer me?

I found myself to be very painful today, I dwell in my sorrow as I lost my way. I opened the door to you and found only grief and pain. I do not see how this will lead to your will for me father. How should I know what way to turn when the darkness covers every corner? what light comes to me when its only pain I see? Are you even there to help me?

I found today that I must forgive my sins away. The hopeless Idea that I can be something I hoped for more. Father I wonder how I could, If I stood in the position to do so. I found thee, and rather dramatically I arose in pain that I thought I washed away. Here today I forgive my pains away, I allow you to use them for my day. to bring me up and fly away.

I forgive myself for being me, I forgive the idea I had of my gifts for me. I asked and asked, I did receive. I got carried away and found myself forgetting I am where I wanted to be. Today I remember father and Declare once more, I am here for thee, as you were here for me.

I was blind to the fact that your Love was more then enough, there is nothing that I have gained, are made that out dose that gift you wait for me to receive. I come to thee on my knees offering all my dreams in exchange for your perfect safety and Love. I look no longer away from your kingdom, I no longer blind my vision with the sight of the world. Today I forgive myself for failing you, Today I let go of my petty miserable goals for myself.

I realized a day is a measurement I made. I found in my forgiveness today, I was given it. I found today the things I fuss and cry about, are not what they seem. Have the things I wished for, ever been given? or do I just hide under the idea of the gifts. Father am I not away? Father is it I pray, because I am with you? Could I be home with you, and always have been? could I be lying to see everything I am not?

Could this set me free?

My relationship with God,

2009-09-07T15:49:00.003-06:00

The abstract of the being which God is, is extreme to the being I understand. As I dedicate my life to the understanding, I will see the dedication to me. For the world I know reflects my mind. A symbol of my devotion will shine, as I shine with my devotion. As I cry the universe will cry, a witness to the tears I share. As I see joy I must to be joyful, for I see nothing that my mind has not reflected.

My relationship with my brothers are my symbol of relationship with my father. as I connect with them, more fully am I connecting with my father. I embrace all as I would love to be embraced. I share with all as I would love to be shared with. I Kiss and Hug all for God is my expression and Love is my name. Join with me and come to truth for Love is the answer to the sorrow of darkness. the light is here where it always has been. jump with me to find there was nothing to fear, but your fear to be loved.

How silly is it to fear love, when love is what you wish. Fear your desire, is desiring to fear. embrace your fear for embracing in love, and fear can not survive in loves presence. Then will you be embraced with the true love just beyond. The love the you search for is every case. The love you miss when your wondering where to kiss. Every aspect is your love, under your doing there is your being. being with the father as you are his son.

Trusting the Trustable, Trust the Un-Trustable

2009-09-07T15:49:00.001-06:00

When something beyond sight is strong it will seen unstable. When something brave is beyond feeling it will seem wavering. When something so good is miss understood it will seem very unwholesome. To say there is any trust in the vail that covers it, is to blind yourself from knowing it exists, yet admitting it is something that chooses veiling. Unveil the beauty in fear and find true love. unveil the light in colorless and find joy, unveil the finding in the search and find peace where it always has been.

where it always has been is finding yourself, the joy of knowing there is nothing to find is why yourself is undefinable, yet what you are is the limitless undefined as it is found it is forever unknown. only awareness can be grasped, only grasping can loose, find the perfect wave and you have found the perfect stillness of the storm. for in the storm is the answer to your life, within your fear is your greatest joy. fear keeps you safe, safe from knowing who you are. Face the death and embrace life for that is all there will ever be. Trust your fear to show you where to find light, the darkness is only trying to hide it, as you wished for it to do. Trust your fear for it shows you exactly where your great potential is hidden. Darkness is only the vail of light, it is nothing. As you pass it through your realize the truth in the 'seeming tearer' for the truth was only knowing who you are.

Trust the fear, for it is used by your guide. Trust your sorrow for it is hiding your light. Trust your pain for true pleasure is its goal for you. you can count on it to remain dependable. Tell that One day the unveiling will be done, and honesty of self will be done. Finding it could have never been won with out the ‘Enemy' to play the game.

A mind in which I wonder,

2009-09-07T15:48:00.001-06:00

Everywhere I go I go in mind, everything I do I do in mind, everyone I see I see in mind. A dreamer dancing with himself in a cloud of endless potential in the mind that creates it all for him the thought that he is. Made as beautifully and he thought of the smoothness of love, the joy he fills his mind with is the endless job of the peace of god to be that which he has made. Expanding that truth of its being to know the rest of himself as himself, to be all that he is.

everyone can only remember that which he was always to be. Already there, already safe in the peace and potential of the infinite divine love of truth. washed by the knowledge that always was, filled with the peace that allows itself to know there is only that which it always was, the Mind in which it wonders. Borderless is the walls of its truth, as every moment flows around its own peaceful thoughts. Being and living in it self, as it wishes to be. but never more then it always was.

Your infinite love made Me

2009-09-07T15:47:00.002-06:00

A life I have lived searching everywhere, beyond the corners of darkness.Truth of you is enough to understand life beyond the feeling of peace we gain in a success of our making. Truth of you is beyond all that I am, I give it all to you. All that I have, All that I am I surrender to the mercy of your truth, I am here to be the expression of your truth. I except with all that you have given, I know I am to pass it all to the truth that is I am yours and I need nothing but that which sustains me, your everlasting eternal Love. It holds me in my trembles, it fills me in my stutters. Your Love I trade for with everything I am, was or could have ever come to be. The gifts I asked for, and have received, is nothing as I perceive the gift you wait for me to receive.

Here in this clear empty moment I perceive the un-perceivable the choice I made to be away from this moment, I washed my self of divine perfection. I embrace the trust in you as I come to the moment I am with you the instant I release is the instant I and aware of your embrace that has held me in every moment. I have choicen to be lost, now I choice to be found, Father, as I and only I find my self, with you one with you, right now.

Life is a big change in plans,

2009-09-07T15:47:00.001-06:00

The ego seems to work on making plans for everything, in every moment. A plan for this week a plan for this day, a perfect plan in finishing this sentence. A plan that would work the greatest for its happiness. constantly planning for the moment it will soon be happy. "If it goes just as I have planned, I will be happy". Planning to be Happy, for planning to plan is not enough when happiness is your goal. Blind to the fact that when it finishes one plan, the goal is still in another plan. "The next plan will work, the next plan is perfect. There is nothing that could go wrong with the plan I have mastered."

Can Happiness be planned for? With a goal of happiness that is said to be at the end, happiness is not the goal. A goal of Happiness is the plan to leave plans behind. The joy is the plan to be the plan as you are being it. To write the book as you live it, to Love the path as you make it. The joy is not only in the journey, the joy is realizing you have wrote a book on a life that in every moment you forgot that you are the ultimate planner, the planner that is not planned to be the plan only the joy planning to not plan takes you.

The book of a single page that is read in many ways, a repeating joyous page of forgetting the book. Free to read it in anyway you wish, flying over the words as if it was a reality that flows into a deep portion in mind to find there was only one word on the one page in the one book, the word that penetrates through your empty feelings lifting your sky to a place where silence is the word of god and joy is the voice of that word. Peace is its flow of eternal expression, flying under and thought everyone single moment to find there is only one, one word the word you live by, the word you live for, the only word there is to word, where all other 'words' are extensions of filling in the blank space where this word is forgotten. If you had only one goal it would be to remember this word for this word is everything, everything you ever strived for, and joy will be the proof of the words spontaneous revelation.

As you make this word your goal, remember the word is not in the goal, or the planning to find the goal. The word is beyond the goal, beyond the plan, beyond the journey. the word is that which allows you to journey, the word is that which allows you to write the book. The Word is only that which exists, this word is the word of God, the word is you.

The Walk has come.

2009-08-10T08:19:00.000-06:00

A lot has happened since the idea of this walk had come to my awareness. Most of it you can learn by listening to my Audio program on 'I am A Course in Miracles' found at - http://www.talkshoe.com/tc/15840 - also at http://IamACIM.Com

On Aug. 20th I am attending a 3 week devotional with the messengers of peace, with David Hoffmiester. A few weeks of great amount of emotional releasing and receiving the miracle and revelation of God. After these weeks, of emotional clearing the "Walk of Love" will begin Sept. 11th 2009. The greatest thing I have to work with is Trust, I am trusting that every step of the way is prepared and set up for a graceful, Peaceful service mission for you and the world. I have a few set stops, but nothing is set in stone. I will follow guidance in every foot step. I do not really know where I will go, or even if I am doing this. I trust that I will be shown the way to my greatest awakening. I trust that I will do what needs to be done to assist the whole. I am taking action on the vision I receive of myself walking around the country, If it is for a year, great. if it is for a week, great. for a day or an hour, great. It is not the amount of time I walk, but the amount of trust I have in knowing that what I do is in the guidance of Wholly Spirit, in awakening the Mind of the perfect Son of God.

When I first thought of this walk, I thought of it being in the fall, and winter. As you can imagine I did not like the idea of that, I then tryed to change the idea that came to me to fit in my desires and start in the summer. If you listen to my program at - http://www.iamACIM.Com - you understand that the road to this journey was very much in preparation. Everything that appears to be in the way is being washed away, as if it was never there. I too had much to learn, there was allot of fear in me about this journey. Tell I learned there is no need for fear when you understand the truth, Trust in the unseen is all that matters. I am dependent on God for all my needs, I am sustained only by God and will remain as I always have been.

We are one in Love, Peace and Enlightenment...
-Devan J. Byrne ~ OMan ~ Iam@I.am ~

The Journey of Journeys (in the 21st Century)

2008-12-20T11:17:00.000-07:00

Devan Jesse Byrne has come to a point in his spiritual path, where next to nothing else Matters to him. He has grown beyond most understanding. Commonly labeled as “Next to insane” Devan is taking a Walk around the United States for you. Planning on Meeting, healing, teaching and learning with you in the moments of space time together in separation. Said in many ways this is a service journey, always doing what he can for everyone he can.
Being only 24 at point of the journey a spiritual quest of such faith is rare. Determined to bring out the good in everyone he can, Devan is Walking less he is offered a ride, Continuing unless he is offered shelter, and always Fasting less he be Fed from the goodness of fellow hearts. He will start out caring only Hygiene products, emergency items, few pairs of clothes and a few electronics to document the journey.
Devan Plans on returning with growth beyond what is posable in comfort of a home. After giving away 90% of his possessions Devan will begin his Walk with only a few ideas of what is in-store. No expectations, No definite stops he is truly following his inner voice “the holy spirit”.
“The First of this journey began alone the path of being sick and tired of still having to strive for “survival” in this world. Always needing to do something repeatedly for money, to be in pain only to be healed to become in pain again. I knew there must be a different way. I always looked for great books and Ideas of Wisdom from all walks of life, having no judgment of where it came from or who wrote it or how spiritual it may be. I just wanted to make sense out of the world and “God” and find this “Peace” that is the bases of all of our desires. After a few years of Very fast learning in Energy Healing and Quantum Physics and other spiritual teachings like meditation and psychic abilities. I came along something that made absolutely no sense at all, but it brought peace to my heart more then any other religious book or spiritual teaching has before. “A Course in Miracles” is the bases on my spiritual purpose of my walk. There is very much to its teachings, thou it lays in the lap of forgiveness, love and peace.”
Learn more about my Growth before the walk.
This journey will be easiest described as a trip of Service and love, Bringing out Love peace and Enlightenment in Everyone. Through the teaching and practice of great masters and Healers of all ages and walks of life. The reason for the trips rules, is to bring down barriers and blocks of the ego. Bringing a greater Spirit to you, closer to its purity. Devan is Humbling him self to be here for you. Holding himself to the commitment of Walking unless he is offered a ride, Sheltered only when homes are shared and Eating only when given food. This will assist the ego's blocks to release, allowing the spirit to flow and give through the body.
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“Even at first glance I appeared to be a little Baby, a Child, Young Boy to be a Teen to an Adult. Yet I have done nothing but the journey to remembering God. The purpose of this journey of my body by foot around the nation, is to find Love, Peace, Beauty and Innocence in all things, and everyone. I know it is there, for it is in me, and I am no better then what I choose to see. This is why I choose to see you, in Love, Peace, Beauty and innocence. As I choose to see Healing in Love and Peace, you can not do anything but raise to healing in Love and Peace yourself. After all is this not what we all want, Is this not what we have all chosen to strive after. Peace of mind, Fun and Happiness, Love in Enlightenment. I choose to show you this in me as I show it in you.”
- Devan J. Byrne

Planning with out Planning...

2008-11-01T22:06:00.000-06:00

Is it possible to plan a trip, yet leave it open for the work of God? I am Seeing that I think it is, I d not plan where I am going, but only give my self spots I will go if I feel no erg from spirit at the time. As I find these stops I remind my self, "This to might Change" and I need to be open to its changes. Simply I need not to be attached to the plan for "I do not know my best interest".

I see myself talking to millions of beautiful children of the universe, as they ask me to go with them or give me an idea of where to go. I feel I will go up and down and all around... This dose not bother me. This trip by foot is not for me, but for thee. I will get out of the way as much as I can... then some more.

As I seem to have a constant tug in my stomach to plan this trip and get ready, Witch has opened up many doors for me, Ideas and places to go and to stay. I struggles in typing allow here with you, I will find the ways to bring you the updates on the trip.

I was urged to put limits on my ego for this trip, as I believe I will make rules in keeping myself to no self. Yet I know that all rules are just part of the game, lifting me up to laughters presents. I will broke them and change them, turn them and twist them... bringing me to the greatest part of this journey...

...Freedom

Written by Devan J. Byrne OMan
on Sunday November 2nd at 8:10AM

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