Hello Family

This is a letter to my family, only a week before I told my family a little about what I was doing. I had received that I would not be making it back for my brothers wedding, this is my explanation in their terms (LDS/Mormon) of what I am doing.

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Hello Family,

I am here in Canada after a week of being here. I would like to be completely honest about what I am to share with you today. What I am here for, is a 'Spiritual study' that I have been involved with for over a year and a half. With out giving the long story, I am very deeply involved with a book called 'A Course in Miracles'. It is a spiritual study that teaches 'mind watching' assisting us to here the holy ghost deeper and more profoundly. Where the Holy ghost's guidance is a everyday/ hour guidance, everything thing I do is to clear my mind to receiving the promptings of the spirit, leading me my own personal way back to heavenly father.

I understand that everyone would like to tell me how I should live, and how I should 'listen' to the holy ghost, I understand what the scriptures say, and I am learning to live that way. You can think of it like a pilgrimage, or a way of a monk, but my life is now to live completely of guidance from the spirit. I have not just had the 'burning in the bosom' but Daily confirmations that what I am doing if the path to truth. I have been Hiding my spiritual life from all of you for some time, as of last sunday, as you know I could no longer hide. I trust that all of you will understand that what I am doing is truly what I feel is right for me now. If I am guided by the spirit to come back to the church, you bet I will.

I have the desire to express my many experiences of knowing this is the way for me, yet with so many I will share the one I had the other day.
out here around the lake there are not many lights and the stars at night shine brightly. I went in preyer as I looks at the sky and asked for a sign that I should be here and am doing the right thing. that second I saw a shooting star. Just like that many times everyday, my path is confirmed. I understand that many of you will like a say in what I feel is guidance, but understand I am putting the guidance of the spirit above all others opinions, thou I am open.

I was in fear when I realized guidance would conflict with Cody's wedding, I felt guilt that said I must go and make it to the wedding. guilt and fear is not guidance, from the holy ghost. over this week I realized that I was fighting the guidance and saying I must make it back. As the miracles keep coming in, I see that following guidance is the most important thing, not just for me but for everyone. I understand the anger or sadness that comes up as I tell you all this, fear and anger is not of God, or the heavenly trinity. To act on or out of fear is not the holy ghost. So clearly I say, I feel at this time, I will not be back for the wedding, thou I do believe I will be shortly after.

My goal here is Peace, Love and Joy. I believe this is God's will for me, and all of us. He wants us to be perfectly Happy, perfectly at peace, and always in Love as Jesus was. If guidance leeds me to a place or a way that is not alined with any of these, I desern that it must not be Gods will, but another.

I trust you all understand that I am leaping with faith into my guidance, trusting it is the Holy Spirit. I will keep you all updated, as far as I feel guided to do so. Thank you everyone, for everything you have done for me. The plan for me now is to follow guidance, and when it tells me to come see you all, I will.