I surrender. I no longer desire my personal gain, my personal fame. I give everything I have to you father, everything I have asked for, I have received. I desire nothing of my wishes any more, but that you wish for me. I except that perfect happiness you desire for me. I except the perfect love you hold for me. I wish nothing more, as I have been wishing for much less, now I am ready.

You have given me so many dreams, so many desires, wile I have denied the gift you wish for me. I turn it down and ask for others. when I realized all that your gift was not I realized there is no substitute for the limitless love and edgeless peace you extend to me.

For such a long time I hid away and behind your blessings I asked for. Under the pain I wished for myself. Today I find my desire for your will for me. I give you the gifts you have given, I use all that I once had to remembering your perfect will. What would you have of me father? what would I say to come to they will? Where shall I stand when I receive the grace you still offer me?

I found myself to be very painful today, I dwell in my sorrow as I lost my way. I opened the door to you and found only grief and pain. I do not see how this will lead to your will for me father. How should I know what way to turn when the darkness covers every corner? what light comes to me when its only pain I see? Are you even there to help me?

I found today that I must forgive my sins away. The hopeless Idea that I can be something I hoped for more. Father I wonder how I could, If I stood in the position to do so. I found thee, and rather dramatically I arose in pain that I thought I washed away. Here today I forgive my pains away, I allow you to use them for my day. to bring me up and fly away.

I forgive myself for being me, I forgive the idea I had of my gifts for me. I asked and asked, I did receive. I got carried away and found myself forgetting I am where I wanted to be. Today I remember father and Declare once more, I am here for thee, as you were here for me.

I was blind to the fact that your Love was more then enough, there is nothing that I have gained, are made that out dose that gift you wait for me to receive. I come to thee on my knees offering all my dreams in exchange for your perfect safety and Love. I look no longer away from your kingdom, I no longer blind my vision with the sight of the world. Today I forgive myself for failing you, Today I let go of my petty miserable goals for myself.

I realized a day is a measurement I made. I found in my forgiveness today, I was given it. I found today the things I fuss and cry about, are not what they seem. Have the things I wished for, ever been given? or do I just hide under the idea of the gifts. Father am I not away? Father is it I pray, because I am with you? Could I be home with you, and always have been? could I be lying to see everything I am not?

Could this set me free?

The abstract of the being which God is, is extreme to the being I understand. As I dedicate my life to the understanding, I will see the dedication to me. For the world I know reflects my mind. A symbol of my devotion will shine, as I shine with my devotion. As I cry the universe will cry, a witness to the tears I share. As I see joy I must to be joyful, for I see nothing that my mind has not reflected.

My relationship with my brothers are my symbol of relationship with my father. as I connect with them, more fully am I connecting with my father. I embrace all as I would love to be embraced. I share with all as I would love to be shared with. I Kiss and Hug all for God is my expression and Love is my name. Join with me and come to truth for Love is the answer to the sorrow of darkness. the light is here where it always has been. jump with me to find there was nothing to fear, but your fear to be loved.

How silly is it to fear love, when love is what you wish. Fear your desire, is desiring to fear. embrace your fear for embracing in love, and fear can not survive in loves presence. Then will you be embraced with the true love just beyond. The love the you search for is every case. The love you miss when your wondering where to kiss. Every aspect is your love, under your doing there is your being. being with the father as you are his son.

When something beyond sight is strong it will seen unstable. When something brave is beyond feeling it will seem wavering. When something so good is miss understood it will seem very unwholesome. To say there is any trust in the vail that covers it, is to blind yourself from knowing it exists, yet admitting it is something that chooses veiling. Unveil the beauty in fear and find true love. unveil the light in colorless and find joy, unveil the finding in the search and find peace where it always has been.

where it always has been is finding yourself, the joy of knowing there is nothing to find is why yourself is undefinable, yet what you are is the limitless undefined as it is found it is forever unknown. only awareness can be grasped, only grasping can loose, find the perfect wave and you have found the perfect stillness of the storm. for in the storm is the answer to your life, within your fear is your greatest joy. fear keeps you safe, safe from knowing who you are. Face the death and embrace life for that is all there will ever be. Trust your fear to show you where to find light, the darkness is only trying to hide it, as you wished for it to do. Trust your fear for it shows you exactly where your great potential is hidden. Darkness is only the vail of light, it is nothing. As you pass it through your realize the truth in the 'seeming tearer' for the truth was only knowing who you are.

Trust the fear, for it is used by your guide. Trust your sorrow for it is hiding your light. Trust your pain for true pleasure is its goal for you. you can count on it to remain dependable. Tell that One day the unveiling will be done, and honesty of self will be done. Finding it could have never been won with out the ‘Enemy' to play the game.

Everywhere I go I go in mind, everything I do I do in mind, everyone I see I see in mind. A dreamer dancing with himself in a cloud of endless potential in the mind that creates it all for him the thought that he is. Made as beautifully and he thought of the smoothness of love, the joy he fills his mind with is the endless job of the peace of god to be that which he has made. Expanding that truth of its being to know the rest of himself as himself, to be all that he is.

everyone can only remember that which he was always to be. Already there, already safe in the peace and potential of the infinite divine love of truth. washed by the knowledge that always was, filled with the peace that allows itself to know there is only that which it always was, the Mind in which it wonders. Borderless is the walls of its truth, as every moment flows around its own peaceful thoughts. Being and living in it self, as it wishes to be. but never more then it always was.

A life I have lived searching everywhere, beyond the corners of darkness.Truth of you is enough to understand life beyond the feeling of peace we gain in a success of our making. Truth of you is beyond all that I am, I give it all to you. All that I have, All that I am I surrender to the mercy of your truth, I am here to be the expression of your truth. I except with all that you have given, I know I am to pass it all to the truth that is I am yours and I need nothing but that which sustains me, your everlasting eternal Love. It holds me in my trembles, it fills me in my stutters. Your Love I trade for with everything I am, was or could have ever come to be. The gifts I asked for, and have received, is nothing as I perceive the gift you wait for me to receive.

Here in this clear empty moment I perceive the un-perceivable the choice I made to be away from this moment, I washed my self of divine perfection. I embrace the trust in you as I come to the moment I am with you the instant I release is the instant I and aware of your embrace that has held me in every moment. I have choicen to be lost, now I choice to be found, Father, as I and only I find my self, with you one with you, right now.

The ego seems to work on making plans for everything, in every moment. A plan for this week a plan for this day, a perfect plan in finishing this sentence. A plan that would work the greatest for its happiness. constantly planning for the moment it will soon be happy. "If it goes just as I have planned, I will be happy". Planning to be Happy, for planning to plan is not enough when happiness is your goal. Blind to the fact that when it finishes one plan, the goal is still in another plan. "The next plan will work, the next plan is perfect. There is nothing that could go wrong with the plan I have mastered."

Can Happiness be planned for? With a goal of happiness that is said to be at the end, happiness is not the goal. A goal of Happiness is the plan to leave plans behind. The joy is the plan to be the plan as you are being it. To write the book as you live it, to Love the path as you make it. The joy is not only in the journey, the joy is realizing you have wrote a book on a life that in every moment you forgot that you are the ultimate planner, the planner that is not planned to be the plan only the joy planning to not plan takes you.

The book of a single page that is read in many ways, a repeating joyous page of forgetting the book. Free to read it in anyway you wish, flying over the words as if it was a reality that flows into a deep portion in mind to find there was only one word on the one page in the one book, the word that penetrates through your empty feelings lifting your sky to a place where silence is the word of god and joy is the voice of that word. Peace is its flow of eternal expression, flying under and thought everyone single moment to find there is only one, one word the word you live by, the word you live for, the only word there is to word, where all other 'words' are extensions of filling in the blank space where this word is forgotten. If you had only one goal it would be to remember this word for this word is everything, everything you ever strived for, and joy will be the proof of the words spontaneous revelation.

As you make this word your goal, remember the word is not in the goal, or the planning to find the goal. The word is beyond the goal, beyond the plan, beyond the journey. the word is that which allows you to journey, the word is that which allows you to write the book. The Word is only that which exists, this word is the word of God, the word is you.