I think, therefor I am separate.
Scribed by Rev. Devan Jesse Byrne on Wednesday, October 21, 2009
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If the Effect is now, the Cause is now.
The world is Effect, what is the Cause?
I woke up yesterday feeling a bit stuffy and by the end of the evening I was feeling like doo doo. I was drawn to read Chapter 26 Section VIII. The Immediacy of Salvation. To get strait to it, I feel sick this is a cause that I am perceiving. Yet I realized quickly that this is a very superficial effect on top of many other effects. The whole world is and effect of effects intern being one big effect. But to my knowledge I could not seem to rap my head around it at the time, I asked the spirit "What is the Cause?" and received the answer "You are the cause" But I kept asking what did I do, was it negative thoughts? was it repressed emotions? was it fear, and resistance of deep healing? What was it that made Me the cause of this. I was stuck in a mindset of my earler years of Medical intuition but I was not going to be content with any superficial emotions or ways this time. I have been going through lessons learning how my true self is pure and perfect and can not do anything wrong.... Then why the bloody cheese cake was I sick! The spirit told me "I am not in the questions I am the answer" meaning the answer to my questions about what did I do, was "I". I thought about this all night and it wasn't tell leila came in this morning did I finally get it, I have known this before but now I really realized it. It was nothing I was doing, or thinking, but only the fact that I was doing, and thinking. "You are the Cause" means the thinking mind, that I think I am. it is the intellect that processes and analyzes and salves, the game is to seek and do not find, because it will not look at it self. It is always and answer to every problem. So "I" am not in the questions "I" am the answer to it, "What did I do to get the effect?" I exist.
The intellect wants to make more separation of separation, as if there are many causes and many effects. yet it comes only down to one cause, and one effect. All the world is one single effect, and the ego is one single cause. Almost as if it was the simple itself of the "tree of Knowledge" where Adam and Eve where cast out of the paradise for. where they cast out by god? and god was the cause of there now pain and misery? no they where cast of because the knowledge they gained and created, ended the idea of eternity. The knowledge that many forms must be to allow the world to be.
What is the cause? you are. The self you think you are that keeps you apart from your brothers. The self that chooses to be separate from the world as if it was possible to denie the world of its cause. there is no possible way for an effect to exist with out its cause, yet we believe it is possible for a cause to no longer exist but the effect remains. If this were so then time is a fact that could not be shaken. So the question is about time and space. In the section it talks about how space is only apparent now and really only visible at this moment. So if space is only now. Then the cause must also only be now.
Many times does the couse talk about choosing again for happiness, choose again for love. As if it is right now the choose is made, yet we blame the situation and people that bother us. Even as this choice the cause of the world is a choice to exist, to exist at all, to exist as a separate self from god. Right in this moment I denie god of me, as if I am lusifer in the 'War of Heaven' saying "Give all the glory to me!" I am worthy I deserve the attention. Yet even in this moment I am still in the war of heaven. Battling the instent of eternity to exist as my own self. As if it is still the beginning of time, as if the big bang is right now. I choose and choose again to be my own self, separate from god and my seeming creations.
This topic is talked about beautifully in this video below.
Could it be true that right now I am in eternity of only an instant, and I bring past instants to this one. As if the past one's do not exist only my belief in them? All the things I have and body and ideas, are all of the past. Where one simple idea started it all. Am I humble enough to admit it if I was the devil, if I was the anti-christ hiding my true self from myself. Could I be both the christ and the Anti-Christ? As if they are the ideas in which I think. I crucify my self every time I make a decision, a choice that is based off of the past and my ideas. Only a seeming outside source could be the answer to this conflict with in myself. The self being the Anti-christ and the truth being christ. I call and ask the spirit to show me, but how would I know it is not the anti-christ deceiving me. The self wants me to be stuck in a cycle seeking and seeking for a truth that is not. could it be that the only way to find it is where you can not look? A place that has no placeless or shape, or address. The place where no man could go, a place where truth is. A seeming place that the true self is. can you find it? No, you are it.
I think, therefor I am separate. The first few lessons of the workbook remind us that the thoughts we have now are all of the past. If there is no past, then I have no thoughts, and the world we see is the thoughts we think. So the world must not be if the past is not. If I am Now, why do I see the past? I must be only the belief I am past, as if in one moment I started to remember the past moment. Then remembering more and more of the past moments lived, this being a landslide of thoughts and beliefs, mixing up the cause with the effect. the choice to remember the past is the choice to forget the cause. But if I am the cause how can I forget myself. The seeming projection on the world around us and blame, keeps us from finding it. Was it an ego that started this war? or was an ego created because of the war. When I chose to think and remember, the concepts about the self, where stored in a vault of 'memory' and then based the 'new' self off of the memories of the self before. To forgive yourself, is to forgive the concepts of the self. To be born again is to realize a new moment is a whole new self and can choose again to be the war or the truth. Fight the truth or be the truth? If it is that simple to choose, then why do I still choose to fight the truth and be the cause. If I see the effect I choose to be the cause. If I am in the world, I have chosen to be the devil. Can I choose again? Will I choose again? Will I come to God?
As I walk through the valley of death, I fear no evil for I am the devil him self and everyone fears me. Can I be humble enough to realize I want this world? Can I be humble enough to admit I want God dead, I want his power so I can destroy worlds and crucify the christ for eternity. Can I see I want to be lost in the darkness, when I hide the light in the only place I will never look. Am I Strong enough! Am I willing enough to see that I am the roman empire and the hitler of ages and the darkest demons of the great abuse? How willing am I for truth!?
If I am willing, then I must admit that right now I do not want truth. That I am here in a world and I am looking for the truth. I will never find the truth, for I am the truth. I am the ego that hides, I am the warrior that is fighting the love of god. I am trying to put down my guard, I wish to lay down my sword, I scream for assistance as I am lost in myself. I do not know how to use the key, where is the door to eternity. Father! Father! I lie and lie to myself again and again. I do not know how, I do not know how, I do not know HOW! ...Will you show me, will I be humble enough to follow?
The road to truth is the road I do not see, a road in a placeless place. When I find this road I can not follow it for the road is nowhere, can I trust you to lead me? Can I trust myself to follow? What will I do if I lead, What if I do not know how to follow? The darkest game I play with myself, a game of torture and gore. How do I know when I follow I do not follow myself, deceiving myself. How can I know anything when everything is in me. I am the creator of the world! The world must obey me! I must then run free and safe for I am the boss, I am the chief! I want it this way! ...Is this what I really want?
if I want truth, can I lead? I see and know only the past, where would my leading take me but a place I have been before. A new land must come from a new place. Am I willing to admit I am only the past? I am only in the past? Do I really want more then the past? If it is new, and not of the past, I then must not be able to conceive what it is. I must then have no clue what or where. I only keep myself hidden. Is there a guide for me? One that knows the way, one that sees what I do not know. One that is greater then the walls I have made? A guide not of the world I made, a guide not of the past where I reside. A guide of truth, leading me to truth. Am I humble to follow? If I follow, I must realize I know nothing, for everything I know is past, and deceiving. So I admit it, I do not know. I act as if I know so I will hide from truth, I know only that I lie to everyone and thing, I lie to myself, for I wish for my own death. I know not the ways home! I know not the way of truth! I know nothing father! I know nothing! knowing is what got me in this mess. I let go of my knowledge and follow in silence. Lead me father lead me home.
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If the Effect is now, the Cause is now.
The world is Effect, what is the Cause?
I woke up yesterday feeling a bit stuffy and by the end of the evening I was feeling like doo doo. I was drawn to read Chapter 26 Section VIII. The Immediacy of Salvation. To get strait to it, I feel sick this is a cause that I am perceiving. Yet I realized quickly that this is a very superficial effect on top of many other effects. The whole world is and effect of effects intern being one big effect. But to my knowledge I could not seem to rap my head around it at the time, I asked the spirit "What is the Cause?" and received the answer "You are the cause" But I kept asking what did I do, was it negative thoughts? was it repressed emotions? was it fear, and resistance of deep healing? What was it that made Me the cause of this. I was stuck in a mindset of my earler years of Medical intuition but I was not going to be content with any superficial emotions or ways this time. I have been going through lessons learning how my true self is pure and perfect and can not do anything wrong.... Then why the bloody cheese cake was I sick! The spirit told me "I am not in the questions I am the answer" meaning the answer to my questions about what did I do, was "I". I thought about this all night and it wasn't tell leila came in this morning did I finally get it, I have known this before but now I really realized it. It was nothing I was doing, or thinking, but only the fact that I was doing, and thinking. "You are the Cause" means the thinking mind, that I think I am. it is the intellect that processes and analyzes and salves, the game is to seek and do not find, because it will not look at it self. It is always and answer to every problem. So "I" am not in the questions "I" am the answer to it, "What did I do to get the effect?" I exist.
The intellect wants to make more separation of separation, as if there are many causes and many effects. yet it comes only down to one cause, and one effect. All the world is one single effect, and the ego is one single cause. Almost as if it was the simple itself of the "tree of Knowledge" where Adam and Eve where cast out of the paradise for. where they cast out by god? and god was the cause of there now pain and misery? no they where cast of because the knowledge they gained and created, ended the idea of eternity. The knowledge that many forms must be to allow the world to be.
What is the cause? you are. The self you think you are that keeps you apart from your brothers. The self that chooses to be separate from the world as if it was possible to denie the world of its cause. there is no possible way for an effect to exist with out its cause, yet we believe it is possible for a cause to no longer exist but the effect remains. If this were so then time is a fact that could not be shaken. So the question is about time and space. In the section it talks about how space is only apparent now and really only visible at this moment. So if space is only now. Then the cause must also only be now.
Many times does the couse talk about choosing again for happiness, choose again for love. As if it is right now the choose is made, yet we blame the situation and people that bother us. Even as this choice the cause of the world is a choice to exist, to exist at all, to exist as a separate self from god. Right in this moment I denie god of me, as if I am lusifer in the 'War of Heaven' saying "Give all the glory to me!" I am worthy I deserve the attention. Yet even in this moment I am still in the war of heaven. Battling the instent of eternity to exist as my own self. As if it is still the beginning of time, as if the big bang is right now. I choose and choose again to be my own self, separate from god and my seeming creations.
This topic is talked about beautifully in this video below.
Could it be true that right now I am in eternity of only an instant, and I bring past instants to this one. As if the past one's do not exist only my belief in them? All the things I have and body and ideas, are all of the past. Where one simple idea started it all. Am I humble enough to admit it if I was the devil, if I was the anti-christ hiding my true self from myself. Could I be both the christ and the Anti-Christ? As if they are the ideas in which I think. I crucify my self every time I make a decision, a choice that is based off of the past and my ideas. Only a seeming outside source could be the answer to this conflict with in myself. The self being the Anti-christ and the truth being christ. I call and ask the spirit to show me, but how would I know it is not the anti-christ deceiving me. The self wants me to be stuck in a cycle seeking and seeking for a truth that is not. could it be that the only way to find it is where you can not look? A place that has no placeless or shape, or address. The place where no man could go, a place where truth is. A seeming place that the true self is. can you find it? No, you are it.
I think, therefor I am separate. The first few lessons of the workbook remind us that the thoughts we have now are all of the past. If there is no past, then I have no thoughts, and the world we see is the thoughts we think. So the world must not be if the past is not. If I am Now, why do I see the past? I must be only the belief I am past, as if in one moment I started to remember the past moment. Then remembering more and more of the past moments lived, this being a landslide of thoughts and beliefs, mixing up the cause with the effect. the choice to remember the past is the choice to forget the cause. But if I am the cause how can I forget myself. The seeming projection on the world around us and blame, keeps us from finding it. Was it an ego that started this war? or was an ego created because of the war. When I chose to think and remember, the concepts about the self, where stored in a vault of 'memory' and then based the 'new' self off of the memories of the self before. To forgive yourself, is to forgive the concepts of the self. To be born again is to realize a new moment is a whole new self and can choose again to be the war or the truth. Fight the truth or be the truth? If it is that simple to choose, then why do I still choose to fight the truth and be the cause. If I see the effect I choose to be the cause. If I am in the world, I have chosen to be the devil. Can I choose again? Will I choose again? Will I come to God?
As I walk through the valley of death, I fear no evil for I am the devil him self and everyone fears me. Can I be humble enough to realize I want this world? Can I be humble enough to admit I want God dead, I want his power so I can destroy worlds and crucify the christ for eternity. Can I see I want to be lost in the darkness, when I hide the light in the only place I will never look. Am I Strong enough! Am I willing enough to see that I am the roman empire and the hitler of ages and the darkest demons of the great abuse? How willing am I for truth!?
If I am willing, then I must admit that right now I do not want truth. That I am here in a world and I am looking for the truth. I will never find the truth, for I am the truth. I am the ego that hides, I am the warrior that is fighting the love of god. I am trying to put down my guard, I wish to lay down my sword, I scream for assistance as I am lost in myself. I do not know how to use the key, where is the door to eternity. Father! Father! I lie and lie to myself again and again. I do not know how, I do not know how, I do not know HOW! ...Will you show me, will I be humble enough to follow?
The road to truth is the road I do not see, a road in a placeless place. When I find this road I can not follow it for the road is nowhere, can I trust you to lead me? Can I trust myself to follow? What will I do if I lead, What if I do not know how to follow? The darkest game I play with myself, a game of torture and gore. How do I know when I follow I do not follow myself, deceiving myself. How can I know anything when everything is in me. I am the creator of the world! The world must obey me! I must then run free and safe for I am the boss, I am the chief! I want it this way! ...Is this what I really want?
if I want truth, can I lead? I see and know only the past, where would my leading take me but a place I have been before. A new land must come from a new place. Am I willing to admit I am only the past? I am only in the past? Do I really want more then the past? If it is new, and not of the past, I then must not be able to conceive what it is. I must then have no clue what or where. I only keep myself hidden. Is there a guide for me? One that knows the way, one that sees what I do not know. One that is greater then the walls I have made? A guide not of the world I made, a guide not of the past where I reside. A guide of truth, leading me to truth. Am I humble to follow? If I follow, I must realize I know nothing, for everything I know is past, and deceiving. So I admit it, I do not know. I act as if I know so I will hide from truth, I know only that I lie to everyone and thing, I lie to myself, for I wish for my own death. I know not the ways home! I know not the way of truth! I know nothing father! I know nothing! knowing is what got me in this mess. I let go of my knowledge and follow in silence. Lead me father lead me home.
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