No Private Thoughts & No state of Lack

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A wonderful practice we have here at the awakening mind community is 'No Private Thoughts'. The purpose of this are many, yet the main purpose is to expose the hidden tricks of the ego. The ego thinks it can have Private thoughts and ideas, as it is what believe it is separate and has a separate life from others. This in truth is false, there are no privet areas or thoughts, or life. So no longer will I hide, thinking I can do something wrong or say a seeming 'inappropriate' or 'dis-respectful' thing. So below is a letter to a wonderful reflection of the son of god. I am putting the no Private thoughts into practice, and even more so wile I publish it on-line. It is wonderful because the fear that comes up in me, when I am doing this is a "block" to the awareness of true Love's presents. Now it comes up and I choose again and forgive it as a false thought.

Jess and I met on on www.ACIMChat.Ning.Com in the chat box there, as soon as we met we both felt a strong connection and knew allot of healing will take place between us. As it has been for me with many people, the reason I do thing has become into question. From this letter to now, I have learned that it is not about what I do, but how I do it. Meaning with the surety of the spirit, knowing that I am perfect and pure, and there is nothing I can do about it. I am perfect and can't screw it up. I had thoughts that maybe I was drawn to Jess, and people of the past because I was attracted to them. "All bodily impulses are misinterpreted Miracle impulses" Means that when one thinks it is about the body, it is a misunderstood. It is a call to the unity of mind. It is one way of healing. we could say healing is letting down the walls and barriers that we call self concepts, that really do not allow us to be our deepest truth. Any time one is called to another in anyway, we can trust that it is for the healing of Mind. Wile used properly the proses will remove these concepts and feelings to allow your truth through more and more. The question is, How willing are you to face the fear that seems to be in your way of exposing and following.

For a bit of background, Jess also expressed a thought of traveling with me around the country, She had already planned on going on a trip alone and asked the spirit for someone to travel with. We came together on the chat, almost at the same time and it all fell into place.

I am completely willing, and this is my letter to Jess about a week ago.

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Jess,

Here I am at 5 in the morning and I can't seem to get my mind off of you, and your presence. I told you how important it was to be open and expose thoughts. So here I am, I would like to tell you how my mind seems to be grabbing this, and were it seems to be taking me. Something I mentioned to you was how every desire we have is really a miss interpreted call to remembering truth. I am coming to realize this reality more with your presence in my mind. It seems as thou I am very attracted to you, and there are many things my mind thinks about doing with you. I have been taken on a journey in remembering that all the world is in the mind, and every seeming body is also in that mind, as I (being a body) desire your body or presence, as if it were different then others bodies or presence, then yes I have made it "special" yes to the idea that all is mind this really is not a problem for the desire of us to be together is a desire for these two 'portion's of mind to join. Yet this is very tricky because this has nothing to do with bodies. the bodies joining is only a symbol of the mind joining first. The Mind being everything must remain open to everything, or it seems to favor one illusions with another illusions, they are both illusions. There are no levels to the illusions, but that level of realization that it is all mind. As I grasp this more I loose it, for the holding the thought in mind is to make it "special" and think a thought can be better or greater then another.

The goal is to remember the unity of illusions and the unity of mind, and tell the difference of each other. The fact is I really have no clue what that means or could begin to describe it to you, for the life stile it all holds is a floaty fluffy life that really makes nothing "special" intern making everything "special". Can that be described, only with the examples of life experience. For one, if you and I traveled together we would fall even more for each other, but I give everything to the mercy of the holy spirit, and he uses it for healing. As every relationship there are difficulties, but these will have to do with being open. The ego will fight with the willingness to be open in every area. I am in the practice of treating all illusions as illusions, and exposing them. So to be forward about this, I do not want to restrict myself from loving everyone in every way, and neither of is going to take this peacefully. But eventually as our willingness is high, we will find unity of illusions and realize all bodies are the same, and all relationships are open.

What I am trying to say is we will learn allot from each other, and it will seem hard at times but this is the healing. Holy spirit orchestrates it perfectly to flow in the healing of mind. I give it all up for healing, even my idea of you, and desire to be and talk to you. What he does with it is un-known to me now, so I trust that its the good of the mind, not necessarily good for me, or you.

My only goal is the peace of God, working with you, goal remains the same. I know you too can use our relationship to for this same purpose. If that means just friends, great. If that means more, or less, Great. I only desire the peace of God, and trust the path before me is leading to that. A part of me wants to think it should not think of you 'specially' and to keep it together. I just now vaigly see, that this is another barrier i hold. I have to admit I am attracted to many people and very much to you, and many times I think it is physically. But as I think about it being the true desire for healing, I must be open that it just might be the spirit bringing us together. I am willing to follow all the feelings I have, trusting it is spirit. I do not want to judge my feelings, I will let him judge them for me. So I lay them out on the table, I do want to be with you in a close passionate way. The connection and call is very deep, and I know you feel the same.

I hope we both follow and continue to trust, we are in good hands. I would love for you to travel with me, the lessons we would learn are endless. When ever you are ready and let go of your life, your new life is ready, and gently is it placed in your possession.

With Peace I am allways here with You.
-Devan J. Byrne

PS Your fear shows you where the light is hidden. Squeeze through the fear and find your peace.


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Below is another letter to here about being in the right mind.

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Jess,

One question we ask ourselves here, is "do I do this from a place of lack" meaning do I think I will gain something in a situation that I do not have now. This is very tricky for me because the reason most of us are on a spiritual journey is because we feel we are missing something in our lives. So we are constantly searching for something that is now here, as if there is a answer out there in the world but we continue filling this whole with every book and word of thought or religion we feel good with at the time. This is a distinct sign that one would be in the wrong mind. I do not mean don't do, go or be that thing, but realize that your worth is not in that thing, or in that person, or that place.

Today I had the thought that if I was unsure if I was in a place of lack or not, I could ask myself one easy question. "Would I be more happy with it, then I am with out it?" "would I feel better with it, then I do with out it?" or "DO I feel less now, then I will when I_____". These meaning, if answered yes, "I am not in-touch with my truth, which needs nothing, and can not gain or louse." So clearly in the perception of mind that is not most helpful for the healing of old belief systems.

With the situation before us I would like to keep my mind on the firm choice to stay in the right mind. So anytime I feel I could gain something with being with you for an example, I am coming from the state of lack. In order to stay in a state were nothing is needed, or avoided I must realize I am not a part of this world and what I do, I really do not. It seems to be an idea to allow myself to do whatever I want to do, but it is not. In that place you do not strive for or fight for, those things you think you need. You trust and continue to trust that everything you "need" will be pervided for. Less you get a strong push or inspiration to do something, you do not need to do it. When you do do something you do it trusting that you are in the write mind. Knowing that it will not make you better, happier, grater, or more. Nor will it make you less, sadder, painful, or fearful. Your truth is unshakable and the conditions of yourself can not change, even when it seems the world around you does. What I do does not matter, where my mind is, does.

As you said it seems as though our only lack is to the awareness of Loves presence, really being an awareness you can not lack it but only act as if you do not. Love is alway there, so really the awareness of it is nothing but an acceptance or acknowledgement that it is there. The course is here to teach us the awareness by teaching us everything love is not. We then must learn that everything we thought it was, was wrong. This is so great because it bring so much joy to realize you do not need to lean or strive for the 'gaining' of love for it is here. But the trick is that even as I have nothing and have been hurt by someone is, it is still here. The love is not in me, the love is not in a event or a path or a thing, or any person. It is only in you. I can only help you to remove the blocks to its presence. Al relationships are for this purpose, all life is for this purpose. I am willing to follow guidance and do what needs to be done, to be truly helpful in assisting your awareness, as too with everyone. for all I do is heal myself, from self-hood.



-Devan J. Byrne