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I have come to a conclusion that Guidance from the Holy Spirit is allot like a GPS. When you first get a GPS to drive with, you tend to think you know better. You always want to go the short cut way. Our logic says there is a better way, tell we run into Traffic. We forget so easily that the GPS can see the Big pitcher, even when we think we got it on our own, and we do not understand the rout its taking us, we soon realize it was getting us around the construction. No matter how sweet and clear the voice will be, we want to hate it for it thinks it knows more then us "real" people. Even thou the GPS has never been behind the wheel, it will become the driver. When you finally trust it and surrender your ideas over... soon your be lost with out it.




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Even when "Hell" appears to be over-powering you. "Heaven" is there, patiently waiting for your approval of its reality. And in this realization, it washes away the "reality" of "Hell" for there can not be two homes for the "Son of God" and as I have said before, you are home and you have never wondered off, into a place where Darkness is King. What King of Kings, would let pain triumph when truth is all it knows? He has not forsaken you, He has not cast you out, he has not let your foolish fantasies of death and torture rule, you are Home, at peace, in Love, Always.

You as a "Religious" believer seem to think it is evil or of "sin" to say that you are innocent now. We so desperately want our "wrong" doings to be real, so that we can be punished for them. We ask for pain, not for forgiveness. You believe it could be possible to sin, and go against the will of God, and then return to it again. If it is Gods will that you be forgiven and saved, there is nothing else possible. God is God, and no other ruler could ever triumph, for that would defeat Gods role, as the ruler, creator and King, and this is forever impossible.

It is not passable to stray and return to God, if you have strayed, you are lost forever. But I say again, you have never strayed. You as a creation, could never be apart from your creator. If you are lost, God is lost. If you have sinned the would universe is doomed for eternity, for if you have sinned, to has God, the creator of the sinful, the sin, and the victim.

So I say again, despite of what you see, and how desperately you want it to be true, you are free from sin. You are free from a wrong doing. In fact you are free from "do"ing anything out of the will of God. His will for you remains to be perfect happiness, and you can only retain that Now as you except your innocents.

You can only fully except your innocents as you except it for everyone you have known as well. For to condemn is not your role, but only to forgive because you think you have condemned. To condemn is truly impossible, for there is no will but Gods. So merely an idea needed to be corrected. You have not sinned, nor has your brother, and nor was it seen as anything but Gods Love. Even after your "judgment" of the "action" it has not changed in the eye of the Spirit of God.

You have had the freewill to condemn, but you only have brought pain and hell to your self, by doing so. Forgive, and be free, as you except innocents for everyone. Remember, Misery loves company and they are in every sect and belief. There is no way to Heaven, and No way to Peace. For why would you need a map to your location, all you need is a realization.






Scribed by Devan Byrne from www.WalkofLove.Org

"Walk of Love" is a travel on witch Devan has published photo's and updates of his journey, trusting in the Divine wile he serves and heals by the grace of God. Always hoping to join and meet new faces, at all kinds of spiritual gatherings around the nation. He would love to be a part of yours.

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www.WalkofLove.Org
- Devan's Service Mission Walking around the United States

www.IamACIM.Com
-Online Radio Program studying 'A Course in Miracles'


www.DevanJByrne.Com
- Learn About Rev. Devan J. Byrne and what Services he offers.




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So here in Miami Florida, our Hostess Pattie is an Alcoholics Anonymous(AA) sponsor for many. on Wednesday I went with her to a meeting, and then again today. It was wonderful to put into practice again seeing everyone as the light of God. The Light in everyone as Holy as it can be, was remarkable as it became an encounter with no limits. I wanted to say something, yet I did not know how to introduce myself. I felt that I couldn't say "Hi my name is Devan, and I am an Alcoholic" ...because I am not.
But I soon realized, I was. I am one with the world I see, there is no higharky in the world. I am not better, or greater then anyone in the world. I really am just like them. No different at all, you can say everyone has their "-holics" and their addictions. But even with out looking at these "faults" about ourselves and look at my last post in the blog.

The spirit strongly has been teaching me, greater then ever, everything I see, judge or even perceive is exactly what I think, and believe of myself. If I see people with my eyes, I do see people with "addictions", and "problems" and even "mistakes". But if I deny what the eyes, and senses tell me. I can look beyond what I perceive and realize the light of God, behind all the masks everyone wears. No one is a bum, and no one is a saint. we are all the same, even in our "forms". We all came in to this world, naked and truly alone, and we will all be leaving the same way. Only one person walked in that door, when you did to get here, and that was you. Everyone seems to have taken the same door, but you are you... and that is innocent. Only you can play your role, only you play this game, does that mean your independent, and individual? No, despite you desire for it to mean that, it does not. You are the same, you are just like everyone.

So why judge? they say in AA that when you point a finger you have three pointing back at you. Even if it wasn't three, you can see the pointing came from you, you pointed first, and the reflection pointed back. They do not point at you, and you did not point first. This is the confusion of cause and effect. You pointed, they point back. If you see someone blaming you, or harming you, or cheating you, remember they reflect you. AA says the most important thing is honesty, can you be honest to see you pointed first? Or are you the saint, that does not point, but everyone in the mirror points at you. this is impossible, you pointed first, now humble yourself and admit it. Even if you don't know how you did, or what you pointed at. Know that if you see pointing at you... you started it.

There will be a point, where you will start to not see, or perceive those fingers pointing at you. You won't even know that they are there. You will be at peace, and the world will flow. But it all starts with admitting, you are the reason it all was pointing. You looked in the mirror and pointed at it, and it simply pointed back. you can't blame it for pointing, it is mindless and does what it is told, by you.

As you do start to only see the light in your brothers, you where see, every finger as a blessing, and every blame and a gift. You will not even conceive it as a threat, you will not comprehend it as an attack, it will only be love in all its forms, healing the ego of existence, and moving on to the peace of God. Your brothers may scream, their fists may swing, and hair may flair, but all you know, and see is they are happy to see your at peace no matter what they do.

Under their masks, and acts they play, they support you in every way. Helping you heal, and guide your way. They desire peace with you, and know god as you do. You are not farther in healing, you have not had more experiences, everyone is enlightened, everyone is Christ. They are here teaching you, showing you the way, your angels, your guides, your spirit in them holds the path to god dearly. You can not loose, as you choose to see the light in all.

We are the same, we are one and there are no levels to it. The miracle is seeing the unity of the son, and there can not be levels to one. If you perceive you are farther, better or greater, you simply make yourself in the position you saw them. You delay yourself, and step back in the path to God. This is why judgment is the sin of the world, because it brings the world down from its path to truth. It seems to be less, when it was more but it is not.

Forgiveness is the way to happiness, because it is the gate to understanding unity. As you judge it you see it not as your reflection, but something or someone else, that your mirror would not hold, yet that is all it is. It is what you desire for your self to be. This is the cage you chain yourself to, as you perceive others less or greater then you. It is not true, for me or you. We are the same, in the kingdom of heaven, and that is all that is true.

All of your ways, can not lay under the wheel of time. your ways do not harm your truth. This path, is only a path to REALIZING your truth. You do not grow, or shrink in what you do, or is it determined by what you do. In your truth you are pure, you are innocent and whole. In your truth you are with God, on the throne of heaven. It is in truth that all that seems different is only a fetish, a playful fantasy. All your dreams, all your jokes, will not last in the pearly gates.

The steps you took, and seem to take, is your acceptance of this truth, your steps back are only for play, as you choose to delay the awakening. My son of God your the high and the low, your the tears and the grin, you are them all for they are all the same. They are all the little game you play.

So many ask, if they should step back and take the hitting and cheating. So many think and assume that when they put down their defenses, their attackers remain. If they ask they do not understand the world is a reflection, it is like you hitting the mirror and the mirror image hits you back, you always meet in the middle. If they cheat you, let them and love them, and they will cheat no more. If the harm you, let them and love them and they will harm no more.

They only point, when you point first. They only cheat when you cheat first. They only attack when you attack first. Even if you say you did not attack, remember there is no difference between what you think, and the world you see. Everyone in the world knows what your thinking, and they will act on it. because they are it. They are what you are thinking. It is all a reflection, because it seems to have a delay. Yet it has no delay, you do. You assume because you think it first, then it happens, that it came from you. As if the world was late on doing its job. You are the one that is running from God, you are the one that fears that this is true. The people in your reflection fear, because you do. The dynamic is low as you choose to be separate from your world. The ego uses time to get you to think you created it as you go along, This really is not so, you are more honest in your reflection that you are in you "separate mind" .

You have no mind of your own, you are not individual, you are the world you see, and everyone in it is as well. That is all the same, and that is one. There is no wall between you and it, there is no flesh that makes you different from a tree, you are not in a mind that is not out there. The mind that is all, is all, not more you not more me, it is the same thickness, and depth everywhere. It is in the center everywhere, in everyone. You will see this soon, you will feel this clearly real soon. Just put down your defenses and be the one that rest in God. Be the one that realizes it for the world, you can choose this now, you can choose to be, the savior of your fantasy.

...Though this does not make you greater.





Scribed by Devan Byrne from www.WalkofLove.Org

"Walk of Love" is a travel on witch Devan has published photo's and updates of his journey, trusting in the Divine wile he serves and heals by the grace of God. Always hoping to join and meet new faces, at all kinds of spiritual gatherings around the nation. He would love to be a part of yours.

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www.WalkofLove.Org
- Devan's Service Mission Walking around the United States

www.IamACIM.Com
-Online Radio Program studying 'A Course in Miracles'


www.DevanJByrne.Com
- Learn About Rev. Devan J. Byrne and what Services he offers.




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Everything in form changes, but not the belief in death. The belief in form is the belief in death. The form you see is not life, for it requires the price of death. What God of Love, takes away, what God of peace scares you to get you to obey. This is not the way of God. The one true God is not labeled with your ideas. The one true God is constant, and everlasting. If Death is true, God is not. If God is true, Death and form could never be. How could there be a world that contradicts its creator, it is impossible. Only seeming to be done, in illusions of mad ideas.

Your belief in form and the body is the same as your belief that it must pass. It may pass, but you are not move able. The center of the universe, is not in the universe. The center never moves, and never changes if the universe seems to change. The universe around it, moves around it, never through it, never changing it. The outer around the universe is made from the center's consistency. If the consistence of that witch made it chanced, the rest would sees to be what it was. The center is like the chemical bases of all creation, it must be constant or nothing would ever be.

The universe is not form, it is mind. It is not objects and shapes, it is thoughts. The universe is not what it seems to be, all of it is built of the fear of death, but death was built off the fear of God. Focus here for a minute, if there is no body or shape where are you? Are you in the world incased in the body? No, there is no body, there is no form, so where are you? You are not a soul that would seem to flout around like a ghost, that is form. The same question goes for you if you where, if you are not a "Spiritual Body" then where are you? Are you looking through these eyes, away from the world, in a different dimension? No, there are no different dimension, for there isn't even this one.

What you see, is what you believe yourself to be. You are not located anywhere, yet everywhere is you. You are not in things, they are you. No more will I say they are 'in' you, for you are beyond that now. What they are is what you want to be right now. Not in form, there is no form. This is all in mind. The fact you see pain, seeming in form, is the fact you fear and hide from the one true God. The fact you see stupidity is the fact that you fear and hide from the one true God.

This is not in the form you see, they are like the clouds in mind that hide the face of God. it is all here, it is all now. So as you do not see it, then admit, you DO NOT WANT it! The world as you see it, is how YOU WANT IT TO BE. It IS YOU. You only do it to yourself in the most literal sense. What you do is NOT in form, it is all in MIND. NOT BODY, MIND. Only Mind, always was Mind, you never where a Body, it is only a idea you choose to wear, an Idea you choose to seem to be. Yet you really are not, but you do see it, there for you WANT to be.

Death is an idea, that you are a body, an Idea. You are the maker of Ideas, you are not the ideas. You thought it up, you are not living it. The fact you think you are a body, is because you do fear the face of God. The light you try and cover as you shove meaningless ideas on it, is useless, pointless, even more so then the ideas you do it with. You play this game out of fear of facing this guilt, the guilt that you think you split the kingdom of God, that you destroyed the light of heaven, that you put out the one true God. This is, was and always will be impossible. Are you willing enough for truth to admit that you thought this was true, and you fell for the joke. Are you willing to stop, and say to Truth, it will for ever be the one only truth.

Hiding under a bush, does not make your bush a home. You need not to have it this way, What you see is how you want it to be. See to day beyond the form, see today how you want to be. See today the face of God. The face of the one truth in all faces, in all shapes, in all actions. For you declare as you do so, that there is NO other way but God's. Be humble enough to look past the actions, and form and see only God. No need to justify and make up a reason for your seeing god. You do not need to know how it all works out for the best. You do not need to know or see or understand that it all works for the highest and best good, that is all form. Do not be deceived by the form and what you think you see. See ONLY GOD. That is all, for remember you see what you want to be.



Just see God and know, everything else is forgiven. For as you see what is true, the other can not be, for only truth is true. See only Happiness for that is what you want to be, See only peace fro that is what you want to be, See only Joy for that is what you want to be, See only truth for that is what you want to be. That which I see in my brothers, I enforce in me. See the ultimate, for only the ultimate is worthy of you. This is not hard, this is very easy. It is the simplest way to react, it is the simplest way to work, it is the answer to all of your troubles. See the one true God in all because all is you and you only harm yourself, as you fence off a brother.

NOw as you work to see what you want to be, you will realize you have always been this way. You only denied it and hid it from yourself. You will come out from under the bush, and open your hands and arms, you will embrace the father you have ran from. You will put down your swords, you will through away your shields, your stop playing games with yourself, and finally except the love you want. Your joy will be in your serenity and you peace will live with me.






Scribed by Devan Byrne from www.WalkofLove.Org

"Walk of Love" is a travel on witch Devan has published photo's and updates of his journey, trusting in the Divine wile he serves and heals by the grace of God. Always hoping to join and meet new faces, at all kinds of spiritual gatherings around the nation. He would love to be a part of yours.

----------
www.WalkofLove.Org
- Devan's Service Mission Walking around the United States

www.IamACIM.Com
-Online Radio Program studying 'A Course in Miracles'


www.DevanJByrne.Com
- Learn About Rev. Devan J. Byrne and what Services he offers.




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The Adam and Eve Story, with the beginning of the Son of God and the fall of knowing.
Told to me, raised a mormon, with beliefs of a pre-existence, and a war in heaven.

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The Love of God is beyond what you believe you know. You want the love of God to be about form, and Bodies. Yes you did gain a body, but did you really gain farther in God's love as you came here to test it? You grew up be taught that you became a body so you can be as the father in heaven, and the is true. But not in the way you think it is for. In 'A Course in Miracles' it talks about "I am not a body, I am free, for I am still as God created me". This meaning before the body you have now, you were a being that is still now.

A being that was in the pre existence, The being that participated in the war in heaven. Yet again it is all not in the way you think it is. The key to understanding, the truth about it is It is not about form. It is not about separate bodies, or even separate spirits. Think of it as a Mind, a Mind that is. Not a brain, but a mind that simply just is. It does not think yet, and this is the beginning. You can think of it as a cloud or a mist, but it is not form, so it has no edge, and no sides. This as of yet may not be comprehendible, this is fine. Do not force yourself to understand, when peace is your goal.

In the beginning there was mind, it was. Mind had a idea of simple joyous expression. This was the only begotten son. The son was observed by mind, yet the son too was not form. He was not a body, he simply was. The son was the expression of the mind that thought him. The mind is the father of the son. The son, was one with the father, in perfect union. The son, metaphorically speaking was in paradise. In the garden of eden, where perfection met form. Here was the Father and the Son, joined and free to dance and sing.

One day the Son, looked at the father and ask him to watch and enjoy his dance. Yet the father had no form to see. The Son so desired the fathers attention to be with his dance, yet the father just observed. The son desired someone to dance with, someone to share the expression with, yet he was the only begotten son. There was one expression of God, and it was him. In the sons desire, he dreamt up the idea of another. He thought about what she would look like, and how he would have someone to play and sing with. The first desire was asked for, and it was given. Yet this all had nothing to do with form. It was all in mind, the only way to have another to dance with, The son must give a piece of him self to the creation of form. As he fell asleep, in his peaceful ideas, he wondered the garden. To his amazement what he asked for, was given.

There she was exactly as he desired, the women of his dreams, to dance with, to sing with, to play with. This friend was much more then simply a friend, this friend was a piece of him. This friend was him, as he danced with himself, and sang with himself. he started to think the other was another. He started to forget, the other was him self. She began to have her own free will, she thought of new games, and ways to play. The son was gladdened as they were joyous games. The ran in trees, and up and down hills. In this perfect place. They splashed and teased, and fantasized of a family they could be.

They started to think, what games would be great, if they had more friends to play. The couldn't remember how she got here, but they new it could be. They started to think, and partake of the knowledge that they are form, and there is a way. The desire was heard by the creation of mind, and the gift was given. The gift was given but only by giving a piece of them, would they have a family. As their children came, as a piece of them, they started to forget they were a piece, of them. They started to think they were free, and had wills of their own. This is true, as it became a reality when they started to think it was so.

They were in paradise, tell one day they forgot they all were. They saw the will's of their children, they saw the wills of each other. But they seemed to forget the will's of their own. They now where here to serve their brothers, and their happiness was there goal. When all awhile, they are forgetting that they are a piece of him. He forgot that the will he see's is the will of his own. I gave up himself, so the others can live. He gave his Life so the others could be. What greater Love has any man, but the one who gave his life for his friends.

Serving his family and striving for their will to be happy. He became to believe he was truly apart from them now. As his son's disputed and killed. He knew this could not be of him. He gave his life so they could live, yet the did what they wanted, and took it away. The gift he gave and they throu it away. This could never be a piece of him. He denied it and rejected it. Realizing it was so, to change the world, and to loose as we grow. He did not want it, he did not ask for it, he only wanted their will's for happiness. Forgetting it was his own will.

He cursed him, He blamed him, He tortured him, as he took back him love from him. This could not be, in my family, for they are free to be happy. He is not and will never be, a part of me. He came from her. I was with God once, in joy and peace. Yet I am here now, and things like this happen, against my will.

As you can see the son, forgotten they were a piece of him. He forgotten their will was a piece of his. He forgot his creations, were of him. For he still is dreaming, of his dream to get the attention of God. At the beginning he was dancing, and singing. He was happy and one. As he gave himself for others, he forgot he was the others. They are one, not simply in family, but in mind, and in will. They do not have separate wills, they have one. For they are one son. The son slept and dreamt of dancing with his friends, never to have woken up. Still sleeping in a dream of a family beyond numbers. Sabitosh itself, and fighting itself. Kissing itself, and serving itself. Condemning, and forgiving itself, again and again.

But then you see, before the dream, I said this was all metaphorically. This was never in form, as it seems to be, but only a thought, an idea the son wanted to play, as it wished for the attention from is source, that it to was one with. God could not look at you, God could never kiss you, God could never hold you, for my son... he is you.

So as you can see, this is not just a story, but it is simply the idea of what you had be. The stories, have been split and changed, but they all say the same thing. This is of you, and your will to have the attention of God. this is not a story of years ago, but a story of right now. This very instant do you wish for this, and this very instant do you hide yourself from the father. You hide in the bushes, afraid of what you have done. But know this, in dreams, they remain dreams, wake up and see. You are not a body, you are free, you are one with me.

The Love of God is not in this story, but that of the very beginning. The Love he was, that created you loving. The one expression of his own. The love is shown to his self, as it simply just is. Everything you know, everything you think is in form, even when you think of love, you think not of what it is, but how you express it to others. When you see, their will is yours, you will not bargain or sway with them. You will be happy, and let things be, as now you are free.

The only gift you can give to any of your brothers, is not a gift of form, even if it seems to be. The really gift is like love, but expressed in a way that all may see. The real gift to your brother, is a gift to yourself, as you remember who you are. Not simply a child, not simply a friend. But the Son of the most divine. You did stray, and say all the glory to me, to test your self, and the love of God, but as you remember you will see, all the glory to thee father, all the glory to thee.

This is the return of the christ to the earth, the son knew it was, once before, now it returns to know again. The full knowledge of the son, and his truth one with the father will be fofilled in the time, you are awakened from your dream of attention. You dream there are 'other' to dance and sing with, but so desperately you wish to get back that which you gave up for it. The knowledge of your father. Choose to wake up, and the memory will return to you. The world's will is for happiness, yet it is not in games, singing and playing. It is in God, and only in God.

Return to God, and find what your looking for, in games, in dancing and singing. Return to truth, and see that you have dreamed your in harm. Return to God, and realize the Love of God is all there is. Outside of your pathetic fantasies. The only test you have is the test you give yourself, to remember whole you are, in a maze of seeming darkness and separation. The only question remains, do you want others to dance and play with, or do you want the father to be with? there is nothing to fear, they will not be lost, they will follow you. For remember, they are you.

Jesus, remembered. As you know, we are children, and jesus is a brother. But as I said, the children are all one son. As Jesus remembered, you to will remember. Many remember the 'pre-existence' and the many spirits, yet few go father back to before that. Before that was the war in heaven, a war that is explained as a war of words. Think about this, there are no words, less there are others to speak with. As the only begotten son, was the only begotten son, there were no others. As I say in 'A Course in Miracles' Peace is unity, and war is separation. As the war of words began, the son was separated in himself. Now there were others to 'war' with. All metaphorically speaking, as kain killed abal.

Now Jesus remembered even beyond, he realized before the war, there was only the father and the son. He realized there was only the truth of the father, as the son was his gift. This is why he said he was the 'Son of God' the ' Only Begotten Son' when there is no other. Now as he remembered, you too can remember. You would go back in your mind and realize the same thing. Before there were many, there was one and the many came from, and is the One. The 'Son of God' the 'Truth and the Light' and not 'all the glory to me' but 'All the glory to thee, Father'

Jesus is a savior to you, for he shows you the way to remember. Be like him and find that the way is simple, they way is kindness and love. The way is stillness, and peace. The way is forgiveness of all brothers. The way is forever the way to God. Jesus is a symbol of what you are going to be, you can not stray from the return of christ. You can not hide from the love of god. It is unavoidable, and avoidance is only a delay. Yet every child gets tiered of playing games, every women gets tired of dancing, every throat gets tired of singing. In the return to God, you will see, I am everything you want to be. As he said, only through me, you will be saved, means only through remembering Christ, can you return home to God.

The Love of God is here, waiting for you to realize it is. It is ready in every moment to be expressed in the son. It is prepared to be everything it can be, as long as you limit it not in yourself. Choose not to judge, for you only judge and restrain Love. Yet Love, is un-restrainable, so you must only be hiding from yourself as you choose to judge. Hide not, and repent as you except full forgiveness from all ideas. You are free, so be free. You are loved, so be happy and love. You are not condemned so except the freedom today.





Scribed by Devan Byrne from www.WalkofLove.Org

"Walk of Love" is a travel on witch Devan has published photo's and updates of his journey, trusting in the Divine wile he serves and heals by the grace of God. Always hoping to join and meet new faces, at all kinds of spiritual gatherings around the nation. He would love to be a part of yours.

----------
www.WalkofLove.Org
- Devan's Service Mission Walking around the United States

www.IamACIM.Com
-Online Radio Program studying 'A Course in Miracles'


www.DevanJByrne.Com
- Learn About Rev. Devan J. Byrne and what Services he offers.




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Last Saturday we took a trip to Philadelphia with our Hosts Lynn and Brad, and his daughter Amber. We went to a showing of Body works exhibit, with an emphasis of the brain. I delt with allot of dead bodies and muscels when I was going to Massage therapy school, before 'A Course in Miracles' came into my life. Before I remember it was a bit strange to look and relate with the bodies and easily get sick over it. I was amazed, first that it did not bother me quite as much as it use to, and second it still did in different ways. It was a wonderful time of watching the mind, and all the emotion that do come up. There where bodies in many different positions, showing the muscles and origins, all cut up in different was showing all the body. There was a wonderful exhibit of little fetuses at different stages of a birth. I noticed the emotions coming up to the serfice regarding the memories of my son and his premature birth, and how he was so tiny and looked so much like the baby bodies there. I easily wanted to cry and morn over the loss, as I have many times. But instantly as I start to choose to morn, I strongly remember the mind. There is no loss when there is one, it only seems that form passes, and changes or even re-incarnates, or not. All these images of mind twinkling past like clouds.


There is such a strong belief that it is true, that we are bodies, that we are these shadows and forms in a formless word. We grab on to other shadows and create this sort of bond between, packing to be emotionally attached to each other over other shadows, as if the sacrifice of all the other shadow's love, makes the love for this one shadow greater.

Could what we be, be contained in a body? Saying we live, and we die. Disappearing from existence when the body seems to pass. When the brain goes, where do you go? Are you a brain?


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Why do I wake up here?

I think back at a time I woke up in the same bed every night. I remember how comfortable it was, how nice it was to cuddle up against a body and make her breakfast. I miss it, yet I can't seem to fully remember it. I have been "Here & Now" long enough that yesterday seems gone. Every idea of the past feels simply as that, an Idea. It does not feel like I lived it, it feels closer to a lie, then reality. As I woke up this morning I looked at the ceiling and thought, why I was here. Not why I existed but simply why I was in this room in Boston, right this moment. I thought about how I have thought this before. I put myself in the place where I thought it before and It became a story. I realized all my contact with my past was a desperate desire to keep it alive. Trying to keep it awake as an idea in my mind. I call my past and think about my past, almost as if I do not want to forget it. Making sure I will always remember. Can I be here now, fully and remember?

I remember hearing a story of Jesus I believe from the "Urantia" Books, where Jesus saved some people from a stanpead of horses. I am not worried about how or what happened, but after he walk away from a mess of horses as if it did not happen. If its a true story or not what I understood from the story was the only reason we remember, is because we are afraid Now will not hold our safety. As if we need to save all of our memories in a safe in our minds, so we will not be vonerable and at risk now. We need to keep our wisdom and our learned ideas, so we can service. As if we do not trust that what we need, will be here now. With the course we are learning that the ego can not teach it self out of the world. Everything I know and do is the ego, from the past framing the life of now. The only way out is in an outside source. The voice of God is showing us a way out every moment. He is an out side source, The aspect that realizes its whole and perfect. Can we remember and forgive the past?

A wonderful video is on youtube of Mother Therasa (posted below) she talks deeply about how forgiveness is not whole with out forgetting. It takes compassion to forgive, but deep humility of self to forget. The course talks about forgiving the world, now if it is true that forgiveness is as forgetting, he also speaks of forgetting the world. could we do this quickly in a brush of a hand. of course we could but we are not. We believe it holds great value even us as course student, try every way possible to keep the world in our Ideas of heaven. Yes forgiveness seems to be a gradual process, as we slowly let go and value less. And the first to dissolve away is the past, but what does it look like as it desalves away. Will I notice it as it falls?



It is funny how much in life we go on forgetting that we forgot all that we forget. You think you would notice as it is forgotten, but you do not. You only notice as you remember again, and you had a period of time where you did forget. But what if the piriod never ended and you forgot it forever, then would you notice? I think of many times, people bump up to each other, and knowing me I am sure there was a time I was upset at someone for bumping into me a little hard in the elevator. But have I forgiven them? If I have forgotten it, yes. Think of that yourself. So quickly do we think we need to forgive when something is done wrong to us, yet you so quickly forgive, and forget when something good happens. So underneath all of this stuff, I am pointing out that you forget allot. Could we apply this to the whole world?


The course talks allot about what forgiveness does, and how it looks. It sums it up in one line, Forgiveness does Nothing. As if to have immediate forgiveness, is to have no reaction to it. To see the illusion as illusion immediately. Then in learning this application, gradually is what you do, slowly desalved with how you feel. Meaning that the physical past starts blending into the peace of mind you hold. You can't have peace of mind and the attacking or rough past in your mind. That is a contradiction and is impossible to have peace when the thoughts of no peace exist. The way to peace is then through forgiveness because it is forgetting all that is not worthy of peace. If it does not make you peaceful do you want it at all?

The true choice to be at peace its the choice to forget everything you think you know, and what you think you are. Your self concept is made and formed by a life of pain and trying to be at peace with it. Your body in formed off of an idea that you are this pain. To have peace in the world is not possible, you must forget the world to have peace. So why am I here, when I am "at peace in heaven"?

This whole time, I have not said you must forgive and forget a world that is real, or is existing at all. This whole time I have said you must apply this to the world. Meaning in your mind. The world is your belief system, your self is a belief system. All that you must forgive is yourself, and your ideas. your ideas of everything, question your reality even more then you do. Ask yourself why you do what you do. Ask yourself as you do them, Why do I do them if I am in heaven. Question everything and bring them to me, I will answer them for you. What is there to do, but forgive them. There is no process, or technique but only that forgiveness does nothing.

So "Why do I wake up here?" Because you believe you do. You believe in the world, the body, the self. You believe in a place, and even a center. It is not what you believe in, but that you believe. The world is there, because you wish to believe in something, yet you hide the reason it was made from yourself. You assume the world is complicated, yet it only is because you wish to hide from it. You do not want to be free of the world or else you would already be so. You wish to remain in it and in pain, that is why you do. Yet do you want to know answers, or Devan do you want to be answers. Give up on KNOWING the way of Jesus, for his way is forgiveness and that way is doing nothing. Could you ever KNOW doing nothing? You can only do it, by not doing it. It is the only test, you need not to study for. The answers are in the question, and the question is silence. Go be still and know that i am God.

Yes this world is a test, a test of God remembering God. A test with no threat or torture. A game of forgiveness and release. "Can I loose myself and find myself again?" you asked. Can I deceive myself in every possible way and still find the un-findable. How could there be a threat in finding the kingdom of heaven? YOU CAN NOT FIND IT, because it never was lost. YOU only hide it from yourself, in the last place you will ever look, as you trained yourself to look where it is not. But "why" is the reason of the answer. The answer only is, because there is a question, but when you are the answer why is there a question. Therefor there is no answer because the question is insane and only played in games. Can you play games, and be happy? Yes when you make the game a happy game, yet you insist on the game being a game of sadness. the game it self is the choice to experience sadness. But ask yourself "Why play a game of Happiness, when you can really be happiness."







Scribed by Devan Byrne from www.WalkofLove.Org

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If there is no Body, what is the urge for Sex?

If there is no Body, What is the urge for food?

The idea here was deeply relieved as I was in the hot tub. I have been 'healing' my ideas of a body and the appropriateness of wearing anything in the tub. As I was meditating in the water nude, many ideas flood though my mind like water over the edge. As I tune in and center myself on God, the thoughts change from a scattered mess, to a seeming firm narrow flow of thoughts. They are not constant, but only when the silence is interrupted by a still craved desire. Usually in the form of a question, yet these questions always point me to a state where the mind is still and silent. It is easy to grab on to the thoughts and seemingly fall out of awareness of the divine. Yet has I listen to the questions arise from my subconscious and listen also to the answer the same way, the detachment of the situation allows the spirit to deflect my 'ideas' into being still. This is a bit of an idea how this last happened wile I was in the hot tub.

I was looking up at the tree above me, and my body flouting in the still water. A thought of the star above me and a desire to make it move come over me. The answer was not how, or what to do but simply 'there is no star' I quickly understood that my desier for the star to move was not a desire for the star to move, it was only the desire to be in a world separate from me. Before I got in the tub I was touched by the thought of David H. reached to people spending money, someone said "well david is so out there, there is no world" Which I knew in many experiences and intellectually, but do I know it fully I am willing to question. Back in the Hot tub the voice began to speak with everything my mind seemed to lay on, 'there is no tree, there is no water, there is no tub, there is no sky, there is no body, there is no sensations, there is no air, there is no world" "You only are, and believe your a body, you only are, and believe you are in a world" As i listened the walls of my seeming world were neatly laying down. I had no fear at all about this, for I have realized this before but I saw I was not in a body, I was not in a world, I was not in space, nor time I was NoWhere. I only saw that I simply believed that I was. I simply believed that I was a body, I simply believed that I was in the world, and that is all, I only believed it.

I then asked as I noticed who I really was was not here, "If I am not a body then what is the desire for sex?" I know this as the misinterpreted miracle urge, but what does that really mean. Well If I am seeming to desier sex, and I am not a body or in the world, what am I desiring? If I am at home with god right now, what is the desier for sex? I mean really, I don't want the bullshit answers where you give me course quotes. as I came back to focus on god, "you desire nothing" If I want food? "you want nothing" if I am doing something? "you do nothing" for I I do is a game of my mind. So no there is no world that god or you created, wile it seems to be yes, but in reality you do nothing. As if We choose to be blank in reality, wile we choose to conceive in this world.

So now the question really was not, If I am not a body then what is the desire for sex? but it was If I am not a body then what is the desire for form? the desire for illusions? the desire for meaninglessness? If there is no world why does it feel to complete me.

then the question is what do I NOT desire of reality, that i think i could gain here?

Now the question is, Why do I believe it and that is the split desier.

in reality there is no split, but then why does it seem to be so???

If there is no world, what is the urge to get out?


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I seem to wake up with information from the spirit as he slowly dissolves away my understandings of life. Today, Like many I asked spirit what I should do today and instantly I started to understand the idea of Specialness in relationships, which has come up in my life the past few days. And as I learn to understand it more, I will take you with me. Special and holy relationships are not a way of being in a relationship but more of what the relationship is for, as many relationships between a man and a women are for a lost aspect of then selves where they feel they will be more or full when they are in a relation. This as you have noticed never happiness more then a few years, as the "holiness" of its Specialness dissolve away. Meaning that what makes it special is the perspective that you gain something you did not have before, as if the other is a soul mate that you have been with out for all time before. This Idea is nothing more then an excuse to be and feel less right now tell I get, have or gain my something, or someone. Then when receiving or gaining still not feeling whole, but that in a lie for some time, then returning to the same idea that there is something more out there to gain. A special relation is always this way, even for students coming to god, as they search for a "holy" relation hoping to gain a "holy" relation, as if it is something they do not have now, this is asking to never find a Holy relation.

A Holy relation is not about the relation, it is about the perspective that makes it holy. Is there a pare of two bodies that can be holy? No, two bodies to be holy is a contradiction in terms. The relation in a Holy perspective is a opportunity to show the atonement to yourself. They will show you, as your savior your blocks to the awareness of Love. The holy relationship is one that is gaining holiness, and healing the idea of specialness. Ultimately ending up is a perspective where all are equal and non are more special then the other. This can only be up-taned when one is willing to look at themselves as the block, the problem that keeps it a different way. Then using all relations to show them the blocks. It is always the lesson of the teacher, one that takes responsibility for every action as a calling and teaching of the spirit. To be fully open with the others and hide nothing, for the goal of truth is desired more then the goal of specialness. Hide nothing from a brother to teach them they are not special for they are the same as you, and you as him.

A holy relation becomes that way by a willingness to look at the cause and question its purpose. The cause being that which you think you are. What is the purpose of that which you think you are? To understand this is more then simply knowing who you are. To understand this is to use the vision of the holy spirit in understanding the cause. The purpose is in removing, and relieving is a passive way of retaining. You do not gain anything as you would from Specialness, you receive only back that which you hid from yourself. Tie the not with the spirit for NOW not eternity, The bodies will seem to change with you but the lesson is always the same, more and more you receive the remembrance of truth as you are humble enough to admit you think you do not have it now, and wish for it.

Only in this process is truth received with relations, Yes they are your savior but only a teacher are they when your willing to be a student. You must refrain from the step that you think you know, so you can remember. Teach yourself and nothing is received, but that which you already have, and understand. Be willing to reach beyond your self to find yourself. teach that you would learn today, teach that you realize you are the student and you look to everyone for salvation. In this is the relation Holy. As it resembles the relation with the Holy Spirit. Let every relation be a symbol of your devotion to be guided to truth. Follow in symbol of your humility and gratitude for salvation is at hand.

What they say, and do will seem to hurt you at times. Heal this. The pain you feel is a block you wish to remove so you may return to the knowledge of the father. The pain and emotion you carry is in your protection to remain safe in your terror of a death-full body of decay. To be free is to remove the pain and emotions that you tie yourself with. Choose today to be free. The holy relation is in thy self. The holy relation sees the blocks surfacing to be healed. ALL relations are Holy, if you choose to use them for remembering Holiness. Use all relations, for saviors must always save.

It is not important to teach, for they need no learning. They are there for you to learn, they are what you hide from yourself. Allow your savoir to be your savoir and teach you with out words, the way to truth. Follow as you follow me, and receive the truth. There is nothing lost in this practice, you do not loose an opportunity to teach or heal. You never had the opportunity, but only in illusions. They d what you wish, and are what you need, can you see your savoir beyond their form and word? Do this and you see with vision.

Seek not for a relation to be holy, only seek that you will remember in a relation, the truth. Teach not them this, for they teach you. There is only you lost in the land. A dream, you made to loose yourself. Choose to use it to remember, and believe not what is said. only believe they are your savior and hold tight to their truth. Seeing the light they are is choosing to learn they are you. Truth is only true when you believe it to be, but it remains forever the same. Are you willing to see you choose to hide the truth? Choose again to hide no more, and be free as you choose to be saved.

Freedom is only uptaned when the ideas of freedom are set free. You can not remember freedom if you think you know it already and yet are not free, Humble yourself to realize you tie yourself to the world, and choose again to be free.


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If the Effect is now, the Cause is now.

The world is Effect, what is the Cause?

I woke up yesterday feeling a bit stuffy and by the end of the evening I was feeling like doo doo. I was drawn to read Chapter 26 Section VIII. The Immediacy of Salvation. To get strait to it, I feel sick this is a cause that I am perceiving. Yet I realized quickly that this is a very superficial effect on top of many other effects. The whole world is and effect of effects intern being one big effect. But to my knowledge I could not seem to rap my head around it at the time, I asked the spirit "What is the Cause?" and received the answer "You are the cause" But I kept asking what did I do, was it negative thoughts? was it repressed emotions? was it fear, and resistance of deep healing? What was it that made Me the cause of this. I was stuck in a mindset of my earler years of Medical intuition but I was not going to be content with any superficial emotions or ways this time. I have been going through lessons learning how my true self is pure and perfect and can not do anything wrong.... Then why the bloody cheese cake was I sick! The spirit told me "I am not in the questions I am the answer" meaning the answer to my questions about what did I do, was "I". I thought about this all night and it wasn't tell leila came in this morning did I finally get it, I have known this before but now I really realized it. It was nothing I was doing, or thinking, but only the fact that I was doing, and thinking. "You are the Cause" means the thinking mind, that I think I am. it is the intellect that processes and analyzes and salves, the game is to seek and do not find, because it will not look at it self. It is always and answer to every problem. So "I" am not in the questions "I" am the answer to it, "What did I do to get the effect?" I exist.

The intellect wants to make more separation of separation, as if there are many causes and many effects. yet it comes only down to one cause, and one effect. All the world is one single effect, and the ego is one single cause. Almost as if it was the simple itself of the "tree of Knowledge" where Adam and Eve where cast out of the paradise for. where they cast out by god? and god was the cause of there now pain and misery? no they where cast of because the knowledge they gained and created, ended the idea of eternity. The knowledge that many forms must be to allow the world to be.

What is the cause? you are. The self you think you are that keeps you apart from your brothers. The self that chooses to be separate from the world as if it was possible to denie the world of its cause. there is no possible way for an effect to exist with out its cause, yet we believe it is possible for a cause to no longer exist but the effect remains. If this were so then time is a fact that could not be shaken. So the question is about time and space. In the section it talks about how space is only apparent now and really only visible at this moment. So if space is only now. Then the cause must also only be now.

Many times does the couse talk about choosing again for happiness, choose again for love. As if it is right now the choose is made, yet we blame the situation and people that bother us. Even as this choice the cause of the world is a choice to exist, to exist at all, to exist as a separate self from god. Right in this moment I denie god of me, as if I am lusifer in the 'War of Heaven' saying "Give all the glory to me!" I am worthy I deserve the attention. Yet even in this moment I am still in the war of heaven. Battling the instent of eternity to exist as my own self. As if it is still the beginning of time, as if the big bang is right now. I choose and choose again to be my own self, separate from god and my seeming creations.

This topic is talked about beautifully in this video below.


Could it be true that right now I am in eternity of only an instant, and I bring past instants to this one. As if the past one's do not exist only my belief in them? All the things I have and body and ideas, are all of the past. Where one simple idea started it all. Am I humble enough to admit it if I was the devil, if I was the anti-christ hiding my true self from myself. Could I be both the christ and the Anti-Christ? As if they are the ideas in which I think. I crucify my self every time I make a decision, a choice that is based off of the past and my ideas. Only a seeming outside source could be the answer to this conflict with in myself. The self being the Anti-christ and the truth being christ. I call and ask the spirit to show me, but how would I know it is not the anti-christ deceiving me. The self wants me to be stuck in a cycle seeking and seeking for a truth that is not. could it be that the only way to find it is where you can not look? A place that has no placeless or shape, or address. The place where no man could go, a place where truth is. A seeming place that the true self is. can you find it? No, you are it.

I think, therefor I am separate. The first few lessons of the workbook remind us that the thoughts we have now are all of the past. If there is no past, then I have no thoughts, and the world we see is the thoughts we think. So the world must not be if the past is not. If I am Now, why do I see the past? I must be only the belief I am past, as if in one moment I started to remember the past moment. Then remembering more and more of the past moments lived, this being a landslide of thoughts and beliefs, mixing up the cause with the effect. the choice to remember the past is the choice to forget the cause. But if I am the cause how can I forget myself. The seeming projection on the world around us and blame, keeps us from finding it. Was it an ego that started this war? or was an ego created because of the war. When I chose to think and remember, the concepts about the self, where stored in a vault of 'memory' and then based the 'new' self off of the memories of the self before. To forgive yourself, is to forgive the concepts of the self. To be born again is to realize a new moment is a whole new self and can choose again to be the war or the truth. Fight the truth or be the truth? If it is that simple to choose, then why do I still choose to fight the truth and be the cause. If I see the effect I choose to be the cause. If I am in the world, I have chosen to be the devil. Can I choose again? Will I choose again? Will I come to God?

As I walk through the valley of death, I fear no evil for I am the devil him self and everyone fears me. Can I be humble enough to realize I want this world? Can I be humble enough to admit I want God dead, I want his power so I can destroy worlds and crucify the christ for eternity. Can I see I want to be lost in the darkness, when I hide the light in the only place I will never look. Am I Strong enough! Am I willing enough to see that I am the roman empire and the hitler of ages and the darkest demons of the great abuse? How willing am I for truth!?

If I am willing, then I must admit that right now I do not want truth. That I am here in a world and I am looking for the truth. I will never find the truth, for I am the truth. I am the ego that hides, I am the warrior that is fighting the love of god. I am trying to put down my guard, I wish to lay down my sword, I scream for assistance as I am lost in myself. I do not know how to use the key, where is the door to eternity. Father! Father! I lie and lie to myself again and again. I do not know how, I do not know how, I do not know HOW! ...Will you show me, will I be humble enough to follow?

The road to truth is the road I do not see, a road in a placeless place. When I find this road I can not follow it for the road is nowhere, can I trust you to lead me? Can I trust myself to follow? What will I do if I lead, What if I do not know how to follow? The darkest game I play with myself, a game of torture and gore. How do I know when I follow I do not follow myself, deceiving myself. How can I know anything when everything is in me. I am the creator of the world! The world must obey me! I must then run free and safe for I am the boss, I am the chief! I want it this way! ...Is this what I really want?

if I want truth, can I lead? I see and know only the past, where would my leading take me but a place I have been before. A new land must come from a new place. Am I willing to admit I am only the past? I am only in the past? Do I really want more then the past? If it is new, and not of the past, I then must not be able to conceive what it is. I must then have no clue what or where. I only keep myself hidden. Is there a guide for me? One that knows the way, one that sees what I do not know. One that is greater then the walls I have made? A guide not of the world I made, a guide not of the past where I reside. A guide of truth, leading me to truth. Am I humble to follow? If I follow, I must realize I know nothing, for everything I know is past, and deceiving. So I admit it, I do not know. I act as if I know so I will hide from truth, I know only that I lie to everyone and thing, I lie to myself, for I wish for my own death. I know not the ways home! I know not the way of truth! I know nothing father! I know nothing! knowing is what got me in this mess. I let go of my knowledge and follow in silence. Lead me father lead me home.




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